jagerbombme said:
ya, this is a reply to everyone. i am still hoping for the easy fix bro. hehe. it's gotten to the point that here's exactly what happens, i'm fine, until i lay down on my side or back. then i think the gravity of blood in my heart gets outta whack and throws everything into a fuck. im guessing this is due to the temporary hypertrophy of the left chamber????
Well, I used to wake up from a sleep with panic attacks. Also I couldn't use my albuterol inhaler because I thought it caused a racing heart to....but for some reason I could take the oral medicine. Beta receptors in the heart, etc.
I wasn't stressed or worried about anything either. It doesn't have to be caused by anything that you even know about.
Paxil never really worked for me. It's SSRI. But Effexor, an SNRI, did work. I took a dose 37.5mg that is clinically not really supposed to even be effective. The last panic attack I had was the day before I started taking that. They stopped immediately. So if you think brain chemicals can't do this shit to you, think again.
But my point is, I would feel the same things you are exactly. Pulse would vary by 30 beats per minute ALL the time. But not always to full blown panic where it would be like 180-200 beats per minute. I could feel my pulse in my finger tips without touching them. If I put a remote control on my chest you could see it bounce up and down.
The stage you kind of are in is precipitory anxiety. You know in your mind that every night when you go to sleep your heart is going to race and flutter and skips beats....and it does. It keeps you at a level of readiness that over taxes your nervous system and fucks with you real good. The one thing that kept my awake at night quite a bit too was my pulse dropping low...like 55 beats per minute. I thought I needed to stay awake so my heart wouldn't stop.
So I'll say this. Try something mild like l-theanine tonight. It is a derivative in green tea that promotes relaxation. Solaray is the best...200mg. It doesn't make you drowsy, but it makes you calm. If it doesn't help then maybe go to the doctor and explore taking any of the meds like paxil, zoloft, effexor, etc.
Start on one of those and then demand to get all the tests done that you want. A new EKG, Holter monitor, MRI of your heart, and whatever. While all that is taking place over the course of weeks and months MAYBE the medicine will be helping take away the anxiety IF that truly is the cause.
It doesn't mean you need to stay on those meds forever and yes sometimes coming off them can be difficult. But I'll tell you that being on the medicine was a far better situation than dealing with constant anxiety and occasional panic attacks.
But the natural remedies work pretty well too. L-Theanine, Valerian, Kava Kava and 5-HTP.
I'm not telling you what to do bro. But I feel like I have walked down a similar path and I wouldn't want my worst enemy to go through that. I spent a long time denying that it was anxiety and panic related.
Somehow it just seemed so much stronger and masculine that it could be my heart or something wrong in my pulmonary system than chemical or psychological issues. But it's not a mental problem its a behavioral issue and can be influenced heavily by chemical balance in your brain which you have no control over and doesn't make you any less of a person.
And I am actually surprised with the fact that you will do anything to make this go away, but are dead set against taking something like Effexor that can help you in days rather than months.