Anal AssPlorer said:
No I did not answer any question, I asked them.
You know something? When this was happening I was like other people on here. I was thinking about you and hoping what I was reading was what everyone else thought. That it was someone else.
When people were posting that they were calling you and not getting an answer yet, I kept checking back. When Corn said it was you and you were going through stressful times, I could understand that. But you know what? When you came back on here and denied doing those things. Well I felt like any care that we had showed you on this board was worthless. A lot of people probably feel like fools for taking a few seconds out of their Real Life to worry about someone on "an internet chat board". And then you come back and offer no explanation or logical reason to why you would recant your story instead just doing the little "tee hee" thing. There are people who have no one in their lives that care about them. Yet you had a good number of people on this board, most who you have never even met yet and this is how you react to their concerns?
I completely sympathize with your position on this and I am sorry that it has to be this way. I have gotten many emails and pm's in the past from board members when I had posted up about difficult times in my life and I appreciated EVERY SINGLE ONE! Hell, many board members sent my girls Christmas presents! Yes, this is the internet and No it isn't "real".... but to some extent it is. It takes a little time and wisdom to make the distinction. I can not give you all the facts that would allow you all to unblurr the lines that would have allowed you to very easily separate fact from fiction.
You must realize that I am being cyberstalked and EVERYTHING that bikinimom types is being printed out and may be used as "evidence". Evidence of what? Your guess is as good as mine. All I can say is that everything was allowed to be "played out" exactly the way that it was for a very specific reason....
If when all the real life drama is done, I am allowed to give you all the specific details I will.... I doubt that it will be possible, but if it is not forbidden by a court, I will. Although, if you were my ex I am sure that you would try BIGTIME to have "the truth" not come out as it would SERIOUSLY besmirch character. But then again, as I have stated numerous times in the past, how many of you have been stopped on the street by someone that said, "Hey, aren't you the guy who typed that shit on elite?"
This is a somewhat closeknit internet community and I realize that many of you had a great deal of respect for me as I have had for you. And yes, I knew full well that a lot of you would no longer have that when I allowed what happened to happen. But it was a choice that I had to make and had I do to it all over again, I would.... in a heartbeat. The benefit was THAT GREAT. (and by my use of the word great I do not mean "groovy" I mean a quantity).
If I could post up about all of the nonsense in the REAL world that has been going on (unbeknownst to me until somebody couldn't hold thier tongue) FOR LITERALLY OVER A YEAR it would all become quite clear.... but I can't.
I recieved many PM's from women who were in similar situations to my own somel of them terrified that they would be next, etc.... I couldn't disclose the full nature of my situation to them EITHER. I did offer anyone who was THAT upset a telephone call to try and help make is seem a little more clear though.
Bottom line is that I can't and probably never will be able to fully disclose all that went on. I humbly apologize to all the members at elite for the drama but it was unavoidable... It was not my doing, yet my handle was used. I know that many of you may feel "betrayed" or "tricked". Here is this woman that you thought was a certain way, only to find out that she was NOTHING like what you thought. I am sorry. It is kind of akin to the way that I feel about my ex. Never in a million years did I EVER think that he was capable of a FRACTION of the things that he has perpetrated (Yes, I did PURPOSELY use the word perpetrated.) yet he did them just the same....
I fully intended on posting up about all the nonsense as soon as I could. I thought that by now all the REAL life drama would be at an end, but it is not. All I can say is that everything was allowed to happen the way it did for a very specific reason. I have no way of knowing how many of the posts that were made under my handle were me or not. Although I have been told that a great number of them were quite amusing! 4" clit and fake hair LOL! I hope to God that the judge asks me to show him different! hehehehehehhehehehehheee That would not make my ex look too good! I actually got an email from someone about the "gangbang video" I was supposedly making! He wanted to know if I could "use" him... My reply? Surely, YOU MUST be joking! Then, of course there were the comments about me turning tricks and that is how I met my lesbian lover that I will leave the state for?! WTF?! Who would be insane enough to believe such a thing? Guess what?! The right people DID! The words did NOT come from me or my keyboard, but they were posted under my handle so, of course, many of you at elite had little choice but to believe that it was true. For this I am truly sorry. But to those who sent me the emails, pm's, good karma BELIEVING THAT IT WAS UNTRUE:
THANK YOU!
My post count is pretty high as I have been on elite for over two years. I do not read every single thread and don't go back to all of the threads to which I post so it is quite feasible that posts that were made under my handle could have escaped me for some time. Sometimes I don't click on any threads for several weeks at a clip. I only log on, check emails, pm's etc, quickly check over a few boards and go about my day.
My computer not being home, the "insane posts", and a very close court date all correlate for a VERY GOOD REASON. See, the perpetator knew that we were due for court, but what they DIDN'T know that I had a suspicion about the way my computer was functioning and was having it checked over by a computer specialist. I have no way of determining if it was my ex or merely someone who is associated with him, nor do I care. Bottom line, THEY GOT BUSTED.
A thief isn't a thief until they have stolen something.
Now you might all be saying, "Why would she even divulge THIS MUCH info if she is trying to discredit her ex?" Because for the simple fact that if this all ends up in court we will BOTH be so far indebted that we won't see the light of day till we are old and grey and the end result will be the same. I will get half the assets and he will get half the debt. Pure and Simple. His laywer will continue to get BIG FAT RICH off of my children's money. The only TRUE VICTIMS here are my children. I can not lose as I have done nothing wrong. He on the other hand has MANY BIG strikes against him... and if he continues on he will lose big time. Does this bring me ANY pleasure? Not in the least. He was my husband for all of my adult life and is the father of my children. It would trouble me greatly to not have him in our children's lives, but if he continues on his current path, it will be inevitable. This is what troubles me most.
So now, I have done my level best to explain in as great detail as I could. I honestly can say no more and may have already said too much. Can we please just let this go?
As for the slut, bitch, whore comments... I have had enough and will tolerate them no longer. Crazy? That is fair. Insane? That is also fair...