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I went to the doctor today , its actually a county ran facility, but they run a ton of test which would be very expensive else where. As you may know I have admitted to you my HIV status as being positive, in hopes that I could learn more about AS's and how I might benefit from them. I have the results back from my test. My viral load is 4284, they say this is good, but see the numbers keeps jumping up everytime I go and give blood. Im a little upset and feel kinda down in the dumps about this. Its hard thing to have to face. My T Cells are 578, they were 761 in Nov. 99. My viral load in Nov. 99 was 2188.
I did what a lot of you asked me to and knew the results were going to be not so great, but I asked my doctor about steroids and she was absolutely against the idea.
Our visit did not go so great. I asked her why would she wait til someone would waste away, and then maybe recommend putting them on it. She could give me no valid reason, she was a bit rude on the subject, I may have insulted her job, and she ceratinly showed a lack of knowledge even on the tiniest part of steroids. Anyways, I left there. I said, screw it, they obviously have one thing on thier agenda, and that is to pass out triple cocktails, that may induce AIDS. That is why Im not on the drugs they give out so readily. I had a lifestyle not so great prior to training hard, dieting properly and exercising, and Im trying to make up for it now. I feel as if the steroids will enhance my quality of life if used properly, and cycled out over the year. I want to live, I have talked to a guy who has HIV and he post, we talk by ICQ, he hsa been quite inspirational . He is now undetected in his viral load, infact he says the virus cannot even be found anywhere in his body. He has been on AS's for many years, and contributes his remission to the use of AS's. I really could use some words of encouragement, everything really has me down. It seems no matter how hard I fight, and try to better myself and my situation Im either too late, or too short. Its a constant fight. I have tears sweeled up in my eyes, as I type this to you, and ask for your support and friendship . Im scared, Im a 30 year old, young girl, who made some terrible mistakes which Im paying for ! There is no cure and the doctors wont help, they just wait, like for you to die or get sick so they can give you their stupid drugs.
People have said that AS's would/could supress my immune system, I dont feel supressed. I feel alive. Im scared no doubt at the moment as I venture of into the unknown. I hear that AS's incerase red blood cells...are there any webites verifying more data on what exactly AS's do to the bone marrow and blood supply? Im looking deep for answers. I have meet one person who claims that AS's put life back into his bones, he claims to have been dying on a hospital bed, when a griend came to him and offered AS's, and that is when he made his recovery over time.
Im not sick, I dont look sick, and Im full of life, Im SO afraid of that being taken away. Ive only known one way in all my life. I have never even been to the hospital for illnesses or broken bones. Please share some knowledge on the medical side of what AS's can do in my situation.
MILLGIRL
I did what a lot of you asked me to and knew the results were going to be not so great, but I asked my doctor about steroids and she was absolutely against the idea.
Our visit did not go so great. I asked her why would she wait til someone would waste away, and then maybe recommend putting them on it. She could give me no valid reason, she was a bit rude on the subject, I may have insulted her job, and she ceratinly showed a lack of knowledge even on the tiniest part of steroids. Anyways, I left there. I said, screw it, they obviously have one thing on thier agenda, and that is to pass out triple cocktails, that may induce AIDS. That is why Im not on the drugs they give out so readily. I had a lifestyle not so great prior to training hard, dieting properly and exercising, and Im trying to make up for it now. I feel as if the steroids will enhance my quality of life if used properly, and cycled out over the year. I want to live, I have talked to a guy who has HIV and he post, we talk by ICQ, he hsa been quite inspirational . He is now undetected in his viral load, infact he says the virus cannot even be found anywhere in his body. He has been on AS's for many years, and contributes his remission to the use of AS's. I really could use some words of encouragement, everything really has me down. It seems no matter how hard I fight, and try to better myself and my situation Im either too late, or too short. Its a constant fight. I have tears sweeled up in my eyes, as I type this to you, and ask for your support and friendship . Im scared, Im a 30 year old, young girl, who made some terrible mistakes which Im paying for ! There is no cure and the doctors wont help, they just wait, like for you to die or get sick so they can give you their stupid drugs.
People have said that AS's would/could supress my immune system, I dont feel supressed. I feel alive. Im scared no doubt at the moment as I venture of into the unknown. I hear that AS's incerase red blood cells...are there any webites verifying more data on what exactly AS's do to the bone marrow and blood supply? Im looking deep for answers. I have meet one person who claims that AS's put life back into his bones, he claims to have been dying on a hospital bed, when a griend came to him and offered AS's, and that is when he made his recovery over time.
Im not sick, I dont look sick, and Im full of life, Im SO afraid of that being taken away. Ive only known one way in all my life. I have never even been to the hospital for illnesses or broken bones. Please share some knowledge on the medical side of what AS's can do in my situation.
MILLGIRL
