So the E.R. doc said I am going to die......

[JustGottaKnow]

Common sense would tell you this, unfortunately I am addicted to gear. If the doc came to me and told me with certainty that I WILL die if I continue juicing. Then I would probably die. There is no way that I can stop for good. My body was not meant to be big, I don't have the genetics for it. If I never used gear again, then I would slowly shrink over time and with that my self-esteem would follow. Being big has given me the self esteem I lacked for so long, I can finally walk around with me head up and look people in the eye. I'm not saying feel sorry for me, I'm just telling it like it is. I don't want to give up the good feelings I have achieved, you know the old saying " a coward dies a thousand deaths......." well I haven't been the coward for many years now, and I sure ain't going back.

If that pic is of you, you look great. You can maintain most of what you have without killing yourself. Consider it another hurdle. Back off, learn your body, take a break and adjust everything.
Remember, its about bodybuilding, not bodydestroying.
We all start off with good intent, yet sometimes we lose focus of the original intention.

 

[androjunkie]

I just wanted to let everybody know that, I have cut the winny dosage in half, so I'm taking 25mgs ED. The pain in my kidneys has pretty much dissapeared, which makes me wonder WTF is in the winny. I'm going to send it to a lab to have a chemical analysis done. I've never had a problem with any other roid before the winny, and I've taken just about everything, sometimes in large doses. I know its legit, I've been going through the same guy for years now, and he is a VERY knowledgable, RELIABLE source. I'm going to switch to methandriol I think. I want to substitute the winny for something very similar but I don't want to use winny. What should I use in place of the winny? I do not want any water bloat, I'm on a cutter right now and after cycle after cycle of bulkers, I like the way I've been looking now compared to the smooth bloated look I held in past years. I can't stand the fuckin moonface I see when I see pictures of me. I think I'm done with bulking cycles, I love the way I look now, and I'm pretty happy at my weight, which fluctuates between 220-225. All I need now is to add a little bit more strength, and another inch on my arms and I'll be happy. Thank you to everybody that showed interest or concern.

 

[marqui77]

Most GP's dont know much about the world of sports in general, that would include drugs and injuries. Unless, a doctor main area of focus is sports or they have been involved in it, often time an athletic trainer knows more about sports injuries.