He cant be for real. Dude if that is your real face, for some reason to me it really matches your post and questions, and you really do look like a boner boy. I am praying for you right now. THere is not much hope for you in life. Please ... throw the needle away, throw the amp away, and start to research for at least 1 year for you. Others could probably do it in a month, but I want you to take 1 yr please. So if by chance this is real. Throw away the shit and wait until you know what you are doing. You are just going to hurt yourself.