On the topic of love

[chesty]

The song Babe I love you (by Styx) is the last song I heard as I sat next to my former wife Kim for the last time (my soulmate) as she left and married someone else because I pushed her away.

You would not believe how that hurts. Almost 12 years later. I was so mean to her.

 

[Body]

The song Babe I love you (by Styx) is the last song I heard as I sat next to my former wife Kim for the last time (my soulmate) as she left and married someone else because I pushed her away.

You would not believe how that hurts. Almost 12 years later. I was so mean to her.

Thats some deep sh*t right there. Have you ever tried to find someone to talk about it with? I went thru a hard time and didn't express it to anybody until it got so bad that my pain took over and i became numb. Sometimes just sharing pain with others actually helps.

 

[chesty]

Not really I have talked to some people over time, but have found that I only talk about it as though I would get a second chance. I have also found that while some may understand, I cannot open to them fully and honestly and experience what I feel and see in my mind.

So, I hold it in and pay for my ignorance. I go on because I have to.

 

[Body]

I strongly suggest finding someone soon. They don't have to understand they just have to listen.

 

[BackDoc]

I know what you mean. I wish I could've gone back many times and done lots of things differently. Regret is an awful thing. I've burned so many bridges and paths I feel like I'm General Sherman.

 

[chesty]

Dude, I know what you are saying but I have been living with it for 12 years, there is nothing I can say that my entire family has not heard or most of my friends. I am a survivor and will endure my punishment.

But thanks for the concern.

 

[Body]

I hear ya...it just sucks....why do humans have that internal pain vulnerability

 

[chesty]

I guess because we evolved farther up the gene ladder than the others and like the forbidden fruit we have to suffer for our evolution.