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I'm friends with this girl. This is probably going to be long, but I figure you guys and girls can help me out if you knew the background history...
A few years ago I met her. This was my senior year of highschool. Now At the time when she met me she liked me. She used to always talk to me online and you could just tell. I would say hi to her and stuff in school if I saw her but I just wasn't attracted to her. Then she started telling me that she was walking past the track and she saw me running and she liked my ass or something. It made me feel uncomfortable kinda. I mean nobody's ever said that to me..And besides, I didn't think I had an ass..Anyways, I was kinda freaked out, not bad freaked out but just enough where it made me feel funny. Kinda like the feeling you get when your Mom sees you naked and your 21. So in flight or flight I flew. I disappeared and made minimal contact with her. This was Oct of my senior year. Now you may think im a jerk, but she was like 5'5 200#. Not that I was anything godlike, I was 5'10 140. By the time June came around she invited me to her sweet sixteen and I went with one of my friends to be nice. I already was out chasing after another girl (who eventually ended up going with my best friend) so when I saw her, the 70#s she lost wasn't much of a big deal to me. Besides at the time she had a boyfriend and I was going away to school in the next state over.
This brings us to 2 years later. The school I went away to didn't work out and I left and went to the local community college for a year. I then transferred to another school. A week before that started I get IMed by her online and she tells me she is going there. I get her number and we talk and hang out once. I guess she didn't like me cause after that we didn't talk. By then I had a girlfriend and was with her and she was out going to frat parties hookin up with guys. I break up with my ex and start talking to her again, nothing really happens from that and we end up seeing other people but I still talk to her.
That brings us to last Nov 01. We hung out and I realized that everytime I meet a girl and break up with them, I always end up wanting this girl again. Its like I want her and I don't want anyone else. Anyway when we hung out she tells me about the guys she hooks up with and the guys she likes. I figure I have no chance cause of this. It depresses me and I figure I should move on. I find solace in the basement lifting. It kinda takes my mind out of this world and im in another place where my only goal is to lift. And that's what I do. There were times where that's what I would live for, just to lift and forget about my troubles. My theory behind this is if I lift it gets my mind off of things and im improving myself at the same time.
Im moving around a lot here but last Aug I got drunk and called her and told her that I think she was hot..Then she used to IM me when she was drunk saying similar things. A few weeks ago she calls me out of the blue while drunk but didn't leave a message. Then I called her the other night while I was drunk and we talked for a little, then she called me last night and we talked some more. Tonight I got home around 2 and she told me she was having problems at school listening to her roommate bitch so I drove down there and picked her up and we drove around and stuff. What bothers me is when she tells me about the guys she hooks up with, I get kinda jealous cause I want her. Then she complains that she hasn't had sex in a year. I don't know if I should make a move or not. I really like her but I don't wanna mess anything up. But then again I might not have a chance at all so its better to find out sooner than later. Im very confused. I want her as a girlfriend but im just confused as to what she wants. Like does she just want me as a friend or more? Is there any way to figure this out? I would do anything for her and I think she knows this.
Its all complicated and its hard to explain and I tried to sum everything up. Id like to know what to do so I don't waste time which will just make it even harder if things aren't good. Ive changed a lot since highschool as did she. I look at people a lot differently. I saw the change this girl made and I no longer judge people by their appearances because I know with a will there is always a possibility. Look at the Jennifer BFL pics that were taken a year apart. I know from that anything is possible. But my feelings for her are more than just looks. I just need to know if she's playing games or not.I know the best thing to do is just come right out and say something but im like very shy when it comes to this.I tried to change how I am but i think is from a low self esteem of thinking that im not good enough and I cant compare to the rest out there
..Anybody ever have something similar to deal with?
Thanks
A few years ago I met her. This was my senior year of highschool. Now At the time when she met me she liked me. She used to always talk to me online and you could just tell. I would say hi to her and stuff in school if I saw her but I just wasn't attracted to her. Then she started telling me that she was walking past the track and she saw me running and she liked my ass or something. It made me feel uncomfortable kinda. I mean nobody's ever said that to me..And besides, I didn't think I had an ass..Anyways, I was kinda freaked out, not bad freaked out but just enough where it made me feel funny. Kinda like the feeling you get when your Mom sees you naked and your 21. So in flight or flight I flew. I disappeared and made minimal contact with her. This was Oct of my senior year. Now you may think im a jerk, but she was like 5'5 200#. Not that I was anything godlike, I was 5'10 140. By the time June came around she invited me to her sweet sixteen and I went with one of my friends to be nice. I already was out chasing after another girl (who eventually ended up going with my best friend) so when I saw her, the 70#s she lost wasn't much of a big deal to me. Besides at the time she had a boyfriend and I was going away to school in the next state over.
This brings us to 2 years later. The school I went away to didn't work out and I left and went to the local community college for a year. I then transferred to another school. A week before that started I get IMed by her online and she tells me she is going there. I get her number and we talk and hang out once. I guess she didn't like me cause after that we didn't talk. By then I had a girlfriend and was with her and she was out going to frat parties hookin up with guys. I break up with my ex and start talking to her again, nothing really happens from that and we end up seeing other people but I still talk to her.
That brings us to last Nov 01. We hung out and I realized that everytime I meet a girl and break up with them, I always end up wanting this girl again. Its like I want her and I don't want anyone else. Anyway when we hung out she tells me about the guys she hooks up with and the guys she likes. I figure I have no chance cause of this. It depresses me and I figure I should move on. I find solace in the basement lifting. It kinda takes my mind out of this world and im in another place where my only goal is to lift. And that's what I do. There were times where that's what I would live for, just to lift and forget about my troubles. My theory behind this is if I lift it gets my mind off of things and im improving myself at the same time.
Im moving around a lot here but last Aug I got drunk and called her and told her that I think she was hot..Then she used to IM me when she was drunk saying similar things. A few weeks ago she calls me out of the blue while drunk but didn't leave a message. Then I called her the other night while I was drunk and we talked for a little, then she called me last night and we talked some more. Tonight I got home around 2 and she told me she was having problems at school listening to her roommate bitch so I drove down there and picked her up and we drove around and stuff. What bothers me is when she tells me about the guys she hooks up with, I get kinda jealous cause I want her. Then she complains that she hasn't had sex in a year. I don't know if I should make a move or not. I really like her but I don't wanna mess anything up. But then again I might not have a chance at all so its better to find out sooner than later. Im very confused. I want her as a girlfriend but im just confused as to what she wants. Like does she just want me as a friend or more? Is there any way to figure this out? I would do anything for her and I think she knows this.
Its all complicated and its hard to explain and I tried to sum everything up. Id like to know what to do so I don't waste time which will just make it even harder if things aren't good. Ive changed a lot since highschool as did she. I look at people a lot differently. I saw the change this girl made and I no longer judge people by their appearances because I know with a will there is always a possibility. Look at the Jennifer BFL pics that were taken a year apart. I know from that anything is possible. But my feelings for her are more than just looks. I just need to know if she's playing games or not.I know the best thing to do is just come right out and say something but im like very shy when it comes to this.I tried to change how I am but i think is from a low self esteem of thinking that im not good enough and I cant compare to the rest out there
..Anybody ever have something similar to deal with?
Thanks
