jeezeee that sucks! it sounds like the shit Ive been getting lately too.
what gives? like seriously, how do people get away with shit like this? how do they think its at all okay to do? in what world?
In the last week I have had quite a few negative comments about my body (and one possitive that still felt a little weird. this guy who is mentally ill and always tells me how much he loves me and he was like 'I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU YOU HAVE A BIG BUTT YOURE SO SEXY I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU' so not like I can really take offense at that completly. but its still like 'dude. shutthefuckup')
anyway. Im not really sure how to deal with it either.
I had a really shitty day at my volunteer job yesterday.
I think my plan to get over all of those things hurting my feelings is to write a 'missed connction' on craigs list (youre familiar with craigs list, right?
www.craigslist.com)
I intend to title it 'missed connection- your lips with my fat ass'
I guess that its easiest to let it go when you notice something obviously wrong with the people saying it to you. (as in my case. every person has some sort of disfunction)
oh. and I just have to share this- the most infuriating part of my day yesterday was when I hopped on the bus to go home. there was a fat guy on the bus. so yeah. whatever.
fat guy on the bus. who cares? right.
well I guess this one chic cared.
when she went to get off the bus, she somehow got on the intercom system and yelled 'THANNNNNKKKK YOUUUUUUU' at hte bus driver. because it was REALLY loud, everyone turned to look at her.
and she said 'WELL EXCUUUUUSSSEEEE MEEE! IM SORRY FOR YELLING, YOU FAT ASS. YOURE A FUCKING FAT ASS. THATS RIGHT. YOU. YOU ARE A FUCKING FAT ASS'
all that time I thought she was yelling at me. and I was like thinking 'that bitch had so best not be yelling that at me'. and then I see her outside the bus pointing up at the guy and yelling 'HE IS A FUCKING FAT ASSS'
and so I knew it wasnt to me.
but somehow didnt feel any relief. because it sorta was to me too. like okay, bad analogy I know, but okay so say you were black or hispanic or asian and there was another person of your ethnicity sitting near you on the bus and someone called them a nigger/spick/gook. it should really still offend you. I think anyway. and while I dont find the word fat to be offensive in itself, I think the delivery is what really counts.
So I was sitting there with her pointing at the bus yelling derogatory remarks to the man sitting behind me (and seriously, its bad enough to be called names when its just one on one. but its even worse when everyone else hears it) and so I said loud enough for everyone on the bus to hear me 'oh my god. WHAT A FUCKING CUNT'
people like that need to be tied down and have their organs removed and given to people who deserve to live.
AHH. okay. ranting. I will stop.
anyway. I guess that yeah, sometimes its hard to let that shit go.