bigtasty25
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Well..i just came off my 2nd show on sat night...i suprisingly took novice first as well as the overall in the nabba eastern usa's...much better than my 5th place novice finish in aug 2004. I truly did feel like a star for a night...it was insane...got plenty of pics from it too..
but anyhow..its now been 4 days after my show..and ive been pretty down lately...i have no idea what it is because i have every right and purpose to be as happy as ever. It's like all i get now from other gym members is jealousy..and wherever i go people give me a look like im too into myself (im generally very humble and a nice guy type). I just dont understand this...lately after my show it seems like all i want to do is sleep...granted my workouts have been some of the best of my life with the anabolic rebound that im taking advantage of by bulking, but still...there's something missing..maybe it's that girl in my life i can never find, or the fact that i had a bad cold for 4 weeks before my show and now i still do (need to see a doc for some strong antibiotics asap i guess). Overall i should be happy, but in retrospect im even more focused now on my npc southern states show in mid july, finishing school, etc..and im just overwhelmed i guess. I need to get bloodwork done too that i still have put off but now should. Any competitors ever get anything close to this after a show? It's like I feel like im on clomid, all emotional..but yet ive found lately im also very aggressive since ive started bulking..and my sex drive is through the roof...(now all i need is that special girl in my life)...LOL.
Maybe i just need a slap in the face..lol
p.s: mods if this was supposed to go in another forum, either delete it or put it there if you dont mind, thanks.
but anyhow..its now been 4 days after my show..and ive been pretty down lately...i have no idea what it is because i have every right and purpose to be as happy as ever. It's like all i get now from other gym members is jealousy..and wherever i go people give me a look like im too into myself (im generally very humble and a nice guy type). I just dont understand this...lately after my show it seems like all i want to do is sleep...granted my workouts have been some of the best of my life with the anabolic rebound that im taking advantage of by bulking, but still...there's something missing..maybe it's that girl in my life i can never find, or the fact that i had a bad cold for 4 weeks before my show and now i still do (need to see a doc for some strong antibiotics asap i guess). Overall i should be happy, but in retrospect im even more focused now on my npc southern states show in mid july, finishing school, etc..and im just overwhelmed i guess. I need to get bloodwork done too that i still have put off but now should. Any competitors ever get anything close to this after a show? It's like I feel like im on clomid, all emotional..but yet ive found lately im also very aggressive since ive started bulking..and my sex drive is through the roof...(now all i need is that special girl in my life)...LOL.
Maybe i just need a slap in the face..lolp.s: mods if this was supposed to go in another forum, either delete it or put it there if you dont mind, thanks.

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