Losing it

[distanced]

all sence of direction, motivation, even purpose. everything has been going down hill for a while now, but only recently have I noticed how bad I'm getting. I'm not sure what my problem is. I just don't seem to have the discipline anymore to even live a productive life. it seems every time I hit an all time low, it just gets worse. my priorities, that which I have left, are all wrong. I'm always hard on myself, but I'm going no where right now. I know I've been drinking to much. it's like it's the only release that allows me not to critisize myself. I don't even have the drive to workout anymore and it's all I've ever had. I'm a hypocrite in the greatest sense of the word. The people who know me only know what I let them see and have no idea what is truely going on. I don't have anyone to talk to, so I guess I'm just talking outloud cause it needs to be said and I need to see it written so maybe I will see even more that I've got to do something about my life. sorry for the post

 

[Burning_Inside]

thats a cry for help, wether you want to admit it or not. go see a shrink. preferably a hot female one.

 

[hardrock]

I can tell you personally that drinking is not the answer. I still battle with that demon. Usually I win, but sometimes the booze does. What has changed recently in your life to set this in?

 

[distanced]

Tuesday night there was a big party and there was and I bought everyone about 4-5 drinks a peice at this club and things got out of hand and the bartender had been getting in on the drinks too and two people I know there got fired because they did not do anything to keep the night under control. So it was my fault since I was a major purchaser of the rounds that night. Just made me sit for a second and evaluate my life.

 

[satanic goatslayer]

Alcohol is always the answer.

The wagon of sobriety gets hit by a drunk driver and explodes anyways, so save yourself the hassle of cleaning up.

"Weakness sells, but who's buying?"

Tell nobody of your problems. Bottle them up inside until you have solved them. Then grow a ZZ Top beard and mutton chops. Cruise around on a Goldwing and pick up underage girls on it. Paint 'Touched by a Pedophile' on the side.

Then angry mobs would beat you to death with mallets and rocks. You would be made a martyr on internet sites popular with greasy whackjobs.

Life would be great then, don't you think?

 

[BigRedCat]

You need to find the spark that makes you feel alive. Listen to some aggressive music, read a book, go to a museum, do SOMETHING! Dont let depression and despair get you. Its easy,especially nowadays to fall victim to depression and just a general malaise. You need to find what makes YOU tick and light a fire under your ass. Where do you want to be? Where are you now? Make a plan to get where you want. Only you can help you. Remember, everything depends on perspective. Get yourself a differant perspective.