not many close friends too....I am fussy about friends and always test them before i do, according to psycho-analysis of me
1. I have had friends in the past manipulate me, mainly due to jealousy of my background and the direction I was heading in life. Arrogant I know, but my first group of real friends were a tough crowd to break into as before I was friendly with jews who then started to segregate a bit more as they got older. Once I did, I think one guy saw me as ursurping his role as the intelligent high flying one, and even though we got on well he did his level best to try and act 'cooler' and craved friends like that.
When I left the group of friends I had just finished high school and was embarking on a trip to get into the most difficult degree offered in this country in terms of oversubscription. I had to therefore work. When I finally hooked up with these guys during the hilidays, they were still the same, drinking, smoking, doing drugs and had spent a lot of time in their own worlds...this same prick guy said 'we've done so much since you were gone, you've missed to much'....last time i was friends with them. Different paths, they weren;t going for the career and I was
met with them a year on from then....all the same minus 1 guy, sad i'm not still in contact with him as he was a good guy. first girl I had a crush on was a friend with them, saw her again and she was fucking good looking, really nice body, alas she was into bad guys as well. So she stuck with them (good riddance she was a daddies girl) and I moved on
2. family....and wasting time with those i percieved as 'not cool'