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my ex and i split ways a few months ago, she "met someone" and informed me via a fucking email... so i never really got to talk to her about things and say my peace... until yesterday... she got back home from her summer job in vermont and we finally spoke with one another... i had informed her via email i wanted to chat with her and say our goodbyes... she was under the impression we were still going to be civil with one another and was "looking forward to talking" with me... well, i cant be having that shit... so i got to say my goodbye... we talked for a while then we said it... first time in a LONG time that we actually said "goodbye" at the end of a conversation... we avoided it on purpose...
basically i came to find out that she didnt want things to work with me for many months now... since i left nashville actually.. yet, she never told me... she never planned to move here as she did tell me... i lived a lie.. i loved someone so much that i cried myself to sleep about leaving her for 2 months after i left.. i missed her and thought of her every second of the day for the last 8 months. even after her pitiful email to me, her pathetic excuses why i didnt recieve a fucking phone call, about why i was ignored for the last two fucking months.. i still love her, dearly... she may read this... and if she does i want her to know i hope she becomes very happy in a relationship one day... and the guy FUCKS HER OVER... yes, i do not wish her completely well, i know her life will be full of happiness but i want her to always regret the way she treated me...
it is sad to find out that you lived a lie for quite a while...
anyway, since we just spoke yesterday, it is basically like i am going through the break up all over again.... since i didnt get the real deal before, i am getting it now.... i do not like the fact that i am having to deal with this and get on with my life for the second time, over the same girl and situation...
i know, some of you think i am to blame for this.. you do not know the entire story, i sugar coated everything i said about this girl because i loved her so much and didnt want to hear what a bitch she was or how i should beat her silly... i am burning all of her things as soon as i go camping with someone else (she always wanted me to take her camping so i figure this is a way to finally bury her and move one)... regardless of my bitterness, i am yet again heartbroken... i do not want a relationship and am currently in one that seems to be fading... i feel bad for the new girl, she is wonderful and if i met her at any other time in life i would jump through hoops of flames for her... but right now, i am not ready to burn myself...
did i ramble enough yet??? no???
allow me to add this.. i am 25lbs lighter than i was the day she emailed me... i am down to 212lbs... i am weak... fortunately for me it is a mix of fat and muscle but i am soft and i look horrible....
NEVER allow yourself to be so attached to someone that it consumes who you are... i have been changed and scarred by this girl... i was always a sensitive guy, but one day she changed that.. i have not been the same sense... in fact, until yesterday i felt very little emotionally for 6 months... her flame red hair is the mark of the devil.... i should have listened to the waterboys mom...
by the way, i have naked pictures of her if you want me to post them
... i also have pictures of her doing "things" with a water bottle... ya, thats right... if YOU are reading this, beware..... i can get my revenge if i really want to.. and i wont have to kill you in order to do so....
thanks for the hpv... the new girl thanks you as well.... by the way, i am POSITIVE it was you who gave it to me.... i'd tell you how i know if i could stand to talk to you....... you disgust me... you are "proud" that you didnt fuck that guy??? hahaha, proud? proud of what? not being a fucking whore? good for you, every girl should be so proud of themselves for sending a fucking email to end things....
i have ranted... fumed... vented... i am done...
basically i came to find out that she didnt want things to work with me for many months now... since i left nashville actually.. yet, she never told me... she never planned to move here as she did tell me... i lived a lie.. i loved someone so much that i cried myself to sleep about leaving her for 2 months after i left.. i missed her and thought of her every second of the day for the last 8 months. even after her pitiful email to me, her pathetic excuses why i didnt recieve a fucking phone call, about why i was ignored for the last two fucking months.. i still love her, dearly... she may read this... and if she does i want her to know i hope she becomes very happy in a relationship one day... and the guy FUCKS HER OVER... yes, i do not wish her completely well, i know her life will be full of happiness but i want her to always regret the way she treated me...
it is sad to find out that you lived a lie for quite a while...
anyway, since we just spoke yesterday, it is basically like i am going through the break up all over again.... since i didnt get the real deal before, i am getting it now.... i do not like the fact that i am having to deal with this and get on with my life for the second time, over the same girl and situation...
i know, some of you think i am to blame for this.. you do not know the entire story, i sugar coated everything i said about this girl because i loved her so much and didnt want to hear what a bitch she was or how i should beat her silly... i am burning all of her things as soon as i go camping with someone else (she always wanted me to take her camping so i figure this is a way to finally bury her and move one)... regardless of my bitterness, i am yet again heartbroken... i do not want a relationship and am currently in one that seems to be fading... i feel bad for the new girl, she is wonderful and if i met her at any other time in life i would jump through hoops of flames for her... but right now, i am not ready to burn myself...
did i ramble enough yet??? no???
allow me to add this.. i am 25lbs lighter than i was the day she emailed me... i am down to 212lbs... i am weak... fortunately for me it is a mix of fat and muscle but i am soft and i look horrible....
NEVER allow yourself to be so attached to someone that it consumes who you are... i have been changed and scarred by this girl... i was always a sensitive guy, but one day she changed that.. i have not been the same sense... in fact, until yesterday i felt very little emotionally for 6 months... her flame red hair is the mark of the devil.... i should have listened to the waterboys mom...
by the way, i have naked pictures of her if you want me to post them
... i also have pictures of her doing "things" with a water bottle... ya, thats right... if YOU are reading this, beware..... i can get my revenge if i really want to.. and i wont have to kill you in order to do so.... thanks for the hpv... the new girl thanks you as well.... by the way, i am POSITIVE it was you who gave it to me.... i'd tell you how i know if i could stand to talk to you....... you disgust me... you are "proud" that you didnt fuck that guy??? hahaha, proud? proud of what? not being a fucking whore? good for you, every girl should be so proud of themselves for sending a fucking email to end things....
i have ranted... fumed... vented... i am done...
