We all get it. I had it for years. I was 144lbs at around 6'2 until I got into bodybuilding. I went as high as 278 or so, with my bodyfat fairly in check (12-14%). I was never happy, so I just decided to forget it. I was happier when I was ripped and 190, than I was at 278! I couldn't believe that I was scared to show my body at that size, I thought I was tiny.
Now I am 252, down from 275. I am going to cut to a very hard and defined 225-235, and stay that way. No more gear either. I threw out all the flex mags, as I felt they didn't help with my body image problems. You can look like Arnold, and read those mags and feel small.
I'm glad I am back on track now. Who knows how far I would have taken my sickness, and what I would have been willing to do. It's fine if you have everything in check, but when it gets to be an obession, like it was for me, then it's not good at all. I think my biggest wake up call, was when I found an old box of action movies I had. I was watching Hercules with Steve Reeves, Rocky 4 with Dolph and Sly, etc, etc... and I remember thinking how these guys were my idols growing up, and now I'm bigger than all of them ever were. It opened my eyes a little.
All I can tell you is that you look great, and you are probably bigger than most people could ever dream of being. 6'1 215 and lean is no joke. Brad Pitt is 5'11 or so and 170ish and people think he is built. People think Vin Diesel is huge and he is 6'1 190lbs. We are all a little hard on ourselves because we have a warped idea on what is big and what isn't, but to the general public, you are a monster. Don't rush into another cycle, 4 in a year is a lot. Sit back and try to enjoy the body you've built for yourself. Stay away from mags with pics of a lot of pro's. When you think you look small at your size, looking at pics of pro's won't do you any good. It will only make it worse. When you go out to a club or beach, take a look at the other guys around. You will see just how big you are compared to most people. And remember, it really is all in your mind. You do look great
