meh, i lack the attention span or insight to determine that right now
bunch of what if's, blah blahs and who knows'.
seriously, how do i know if my muscles have attracted or repelled women at times i never knew existed? what if my ideal wife hates built men? that's a trick question, btw. my ideal wife + hates built men = oxymoron. i want to be huge, but don't want the comments or looks. what if i intimidate certain women? blah blah. i don't like being put on the spot. i want to be a shredded, swollen monster...but i also want to be known as a charismatic, funny, genuine, loving person. do people admire my dedication and lifestyle, or do they see steroids and ignorance?
to answer the question, it's changed me for the better. it's made me a more focused and aware individual. that's about it.