Spirituality, Piety, Devotion, being Religious, etc., does not really fade if you actually had it(and its a journey to find it). I think you may have had glimpses and moments with it, you have to have those moments on a consistent basis, and always be aware of your beliefs. Saint, its all about "RESPECT" and all that word encompasses. Its difficult to respect/understand on a consistent basis. Try practicing that on the daily, wake up and think about it, go to bed pondering your day and what you may have changed or done over again, take little steps, find God your way. You're a strong minded individual, just replant your seed, fertilize it with pure thoughts and natural thinking, only thing that can happen is positive growth towards the sky and beyond. peace Saint