fixerupper's log

[fixerupper]

Hi all. Having lurked for quite some time, and being totally motivated
by everyone here, I'm ready to start sharing

I've been doing BFL for about 3 weeks now. I've been a steady gym-goer
since about age 15, but this is the first time I really feel focused
and have goals in mind. I'm working harder and pushing myself; so far,
I'm really enjoying the kick in the ass!

My long-term goals:

1. Lose the flab, gain more muscle.
I gained about 10 pounds of fat and lost most of my muscle tone since
moving in with my guy (now my husband of 1 yr) 4 years ago. It's been
a slow gain, so it might be a slow loss, but I want to shed the extra
weight and get some muscles back. I'm turning mushy and not liking it
one bit!

2. Set my eating habits straight, beat my sugar addiction.
I've had various destructive and unhealthy eating habits for a long,
long time. I've bounced between starvation and binge eating, and can't
really remember the last time I had a healthy relationship with food.
Probably before puberty I want to stop obsessing over food and
binging on sugary-sweet CRAP that makes me feel sick afterwards. So
far, the 5-6 small meals a day are really helping with this. I used to
wait till I was starving, then eat a big meal, then totally crash. No
more rollercoaster eating for me.

3. Get my confidence back.
Since gaining weight and becoming a wife (rather than a hip single
chick out on the prowl, getting constant ego boosts from boys at the
bars, haha) I have lost most of my self-confidence. I notice it in
everything I do... I don't look people in the eye as much, or hold my
head up when I walk past a stranger. I hate shopping for clothes, hate
going out, etc because I feel like everyone is noticing that I'm not
the fit & trim girl I used to be. I realize this is super
self-indulgent and vain, and mostly made up in my head. I'm sure most
of my friends don't even notice the ten stupid pounds! But wen I'm
working out, I always feel better about myself - even if my body looks
exactly the same. It's like I'm proving to myself that I do have
self-control and strength and power. So, hopefully getting fit and
eating right will help my confidence levels even if it doesn't mean a
smaller pant size!

Anyway.... yesterday I ate very well, and did a 30-min HIIT session on the
elliptical (SUPER sweaty today - I had angel wing sweat stains on my
back!!) and an hour of dog walking, so I'm happy with myself.

Oh, also - my "Fixer Upper" name was chosen b/c my husband and I own
a fixer-upper victorian house. Renovating and restoring it consumes
99% of my free time. I thought it was a fitting name for the boards,
since I definitely feel like a work in progress.....

 

[jenscats5]

Congrats & Good luck on the log!! Again, welcome to posting!!

 

[Gymgurl]

Ohhh you have my dream home....well after the fixer-upper.....Welcome again...you will love it here! #2 on your list is huge for me too...I have been bulimic, aneroxic, addicted to diet pills you name it.....sugar is also a big thing for me...But you have come to a great place for good solid sound support!

 

[fixerupper]

7/12/06

Ladies, thanks for the hellos. Your photos are great - I'm a redhead (now it's more auburn, actually) and have always admired blondes I am a pasty mo-fo!

The good, bad, and ugly:

Woke up this morning with sore arms, so Monday's workout is still paying off.

7:30 am
Water
2 egg whites with salsa
1/2 wheat english muffin
2 hydroxycuts

10:00 am
5-grain oatmeal with splenda and cinnamon

12:30-1:30
Gym time, lower body workout. Did BFL sets for quad, hamstring, hip-thigh adductor and abductor, and calves. Felt the burn, especially in my quads. Ought to be sore tomorrow. Also did an ab workout consisting of planks, medicine ball crunches, and regular crunches.

1:30 pm (waited till after my workout to eat - wanted the most bang for my buck!)
Water
2 Hydroxycuts
2 cups spinach with about .25 cups of tuna, some cherry tomatoes and a few chickpeas. Spritzed with balsamic vinaigrette.

3:30 pm
Multi-vitamin
Whey protein (1 scoop) with water

2 more meals to go.... the night-time ones are harder for me to stick with, but I'm not craving anything right now so I should be fine.

My only slip-up thus far today was that I had a bite of my coworker's coffee cake muffin. Someone brought in birthday treats - our office always has junk food hanging around, it's dangerous. Usually I'd eat the whole muffin though, they're one of my favorites, so a small bite stopped my mental obsessing and saved me from ruin

Edit to add last night's meals:

6:30
1 cup shrimp with low-sugar cocktail sauce
1/2 wheat english muffin w/ a ligth spread of peanut butter

8:00
apple slices
2 thick slices of deli turkey

 

[fixerupper]

Legs are sore from yesterday - mostly hamstring pain, interestingly. Thought my quads would be screaming.

7:30 am
Water
2 egg whites with salsa
a few bites of cottage cheese
2 hydroxycuts

10:00 am
1 cup baby carrots
1 scoop whey protein and water

1:00 (LONG meeting from 10-1)
side salad with a drizzle of ceasar dressing, roast beef slices
water
diet pepsi
2 hydroxycuts

3:30 pm
Multi-vitamin
workout - 30 minutes HIIT (sweat like a PIG... it's so hot in there!)

4:30pm
peanuts and sunflower seeds (small handful)
2 hydroxcuts

6:30pm
chicken (breast) and honey mustard on 1/2 a wheat english muffin

8:30pm
1/2 cup cottage cheese w/ 2 tbsp. sugar-free jelly mixed in

My proud moment for the day - I did not eat dessert treats or the extremely yummy-looking baguette bread at our meeting lunch break, even though it sat in front of me for over an hour. Took huge willpower for me, but I kept reminding myself I could write down this mini-accomplishment when I got back!!!

 

[fixerupper]

Friday's Log:

We're headed on a camping trip this weekend so I won't be logging till Sunday night or Monday, but so far today....

7:30am
3 egg whites with salsa
coffee w/ splenda, low-fat creamer
1/2 a low-fat yogurt
2 hydroxycuts

8:30am
20 minutes of HIIT - should have snuck this in before breakfast since I'm not working today, totally forgot. Oh well - I pushed hard and am still wiped from it.

10:00am
will be having more coffee (mmmm, caffeine...), the other 1/2 of my yogurt, and a few turkey slices for protein.

We're leaving at noon, so wish me luck with my diet this weekend! I should at least get some low-intensity cardio in tomorrow - we'll be walking all day. I'm bringing along my own healthy food supply, so I won't be eating in restaurants if I can help it.

 

[fixerupper]

Back from my trip - did good all things considered. Finished up Friday on program, and used Saturday as my cheat day. My cheats were a small ice cream cone and 4 marshmallows (we were camping). I ate less overall that day to compensate for my junkfood and we walked for 5 hours straight at an antique show so I figure I must have burned quite a few cals anyway. I think I have to move my cheat day to Sunday though - it's hard to get back to the routine on Sundays when Saturday was so "free".

Today's log:

8:30am (on the road)
water
coffee w/ skim milk & splenda
1 egg
1/4 bagel

10:30 (on the road)
1 medium-sized banana
handful of baby carrots
water

12:30 (finally home!)
1/2 cup cottage cheese
3 turkey slices

2:30
pickles
1 scoop whey protein with water

5:30
roast beef
1 slice wheat bread
1 slice low-fat cheese

7:30
small spinach salad with chicken slices on top, balsamic vinaigrette

9:00
20 minutes HIIT

I didn't do a ton of cardio today, but I did make a good effort so I'm happy with myself. Drove 45 minutes to the gym, only to find that it was closed. Came home, and by then it was almost 9pm - jumped on my crappy treadmill and did 20 minutes of HIIT pushing as hard as I could. Was really chugging by the end of it, and sweating buckets due to the heat.

Uggh - time for bed!

 

[*Bunny*]

just wanted to say Hello & happy Logging Name does have two meanings thoough doesn't it ... Good Luck with those goals ... setting small short term goals helps you along the way as well

!

The house sounds lovely ... I LOVE Victorian's ...

 

[fixerupper]

Bunny - You are an amazing person! Reading your story and seeing your photos was what got me hooked on this site in the beginning. If I could achieve 1/10th of what you have, I'd be satisfied! Shoutout to a fellow redhead and (i'm guessing) Irish las. Love the tat, my husband has a clover on his arm and I've got plans to get one too. Maybe it'll be a reward for reaching my goal weight.

I had a mini-freakout the other night after my cheat meal... looked in the mirror and absolutely hated what I was seeing, so sat there berating myself for the junk food I'd eaten. Sometimes I'm a mental basketcase and so hard on myself. The "normal" side of my brain knows I'm being dramatic and ridiculous, but that doesn't stop me from feeling the emotions. I need to find some type of way to shelve the self-hatred. I am feeling better lately - stronger, and more in control, especially after a good hard workout. So I'm making strides in that area. I have a long way to go though. I hate being such a "girl" about things..... Yesterday I drove past a hairy 300-lb man with tits bigger than mine mowing his lawn in nothing but a ratty pair of cutoff sweatshorts. I bet he wasn't out there worrying about how his ass looked when he bent over to pick up sticks!

Today's Log:

7:30
3 egg whites with salsa
2 hydroxycuts (are these worthless??)
water

10:00
1/2 cup 5-grain oatmeal with 1 splenda
coffee

12:30
Boca veggie burger (super easy to microwave, good protein)
1 apple

3:30: Workout - Upper Body

BFL sets for chest press, tricep dip, shoulder press, back extensions, and rowing. Could barely touch my nose after the workout and did most sets to failure. Could have worked my biceps harder I think.

Also did 150 bike crunches to get my abs burning. I usually do a longer core workout but the gym I go to is not air conditioned and was 95+ degrees so I didn't want to overdo it.

6:00
Roast beef slices, 1 slice wheat bread, 1 slice low-fat cheese

8:00
1/2 c. cottage cheese
3 turkey slices
sugar-free popsicle!

I was in a dressing room at the mall today and though my lower body is still looking flabby as usual, I can definitely see definition in my arms/back. Was posing for myself in the 3-way mirror

 

[fixerupper]

7:30 am
2 egg whites w/ salsa
1/2 low-fat/sugar yogurt

8:30
coffee w/ skim milk, splenda

12:30 pm (all-day presentation/meeting so meals were sporadic)
5 roast beef slices, 2 tomato slices, 1 slice wheat bread
chocolate cookie (tsk tsk - gotta own up to it though..)
diet soda
water

4:30pm
cardio workout - 30 minutes HIIT on the elliptical at levels 10-15

5:30pm
chicken on a spinach salad w/ balsamic vinagrette
1/2 low-fat/sugar yogurt

7:00pm
cardio - 1 hour walk w/ dogs, approx 3.5 miles

8:30pm
1/2 cup cantaloupe
1/4 cup tuna salad w/ low-fat mayo