Lies, they suck.
Hell, I always get caught.
Thing is I'm starting to realize, maybe due to being single now, again... that I lie to myself through habit, and being comfortable, and not wanting to sacrifice that comfort, and just stay selfish, cause, well I can be chickenshit.
Lies do suck, but its only now do I realize that ignoring shit, like consequence is way, way, way more dangerous in the long run, than I ever thought.
Kinda like the dog that shits on the floor, that's how I feel from time to time, when I inquire.
That said, hope you find her... Lart, someday anyway.