Your comments are justified and I appreciate your taking up for me. But believe me when I tell you - I KNOW THIS MAN'S SHIT STINKS! hehehehehhehehee He is NOT perfect. Believe me, at my age and with my life experience my eyes are wiiiiiiiiide open. But there comes a time when we have to put sex aside to help a friend. If it works out in the end, then that will be wonderful for us both. If the only good that comes of this is that I have opened his eyes to all that is truly wonderful within himself at the cost of our physical relationship, then it will have been well worth it.
In the end, if he never came to realize all that was so miraculous about himself what good would a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship be? He would not be able to appreciate all that I am if he could not love himself fully, right?
I am not saying that my eyes are closed to the rest of the world. All I am saying is that I am not actively seeking male companionship. I have so much on my plate: my girls, my family, my friends, my training, my work, getting back to school, finalizing my divorce...... I don't NEED to worry about dating. If someone comes along that I am interested in then I may spend some time, but I have such a limited amount of free time and have spent so much of my time caring for the needs of others these past thirteen years that I now I want to do WHAT I WANT TO DO - WHEN I WANT TO DO IT!
See, I am not home alone pining away for this man. I am here if he needs me. But he has to do the work himself. Until we can reconnect I am focusing on getting the rest of my life in order. Yes, admittedly, it is very difficult. But ultimately, for me, it is a win/win situation. So how can it be bad?
PS - He DOES LOVE ME VERY MUCH, but we are both mature enough to know that there are times when love simply is not enough.