Do i have a medical problem....? (long)

[migko]

I have had it.... I am trying for months now to cut but i can't. The main reason is that i sabotage myself. After 4-5days of succesfull dieting i go all out and binge HEAVILY. I don't binge because i am hungry. At the beginning i binged when i was feeling weak from the low carbs.Also i tried to binge at high fat stuff just as pb so i won't get too bloated... But lately it doesn't seem to bother me. I binge at sugary things...like joney-jams-ice-cream-bread....you get the idea. While i binge i can't think of anything ,i just keep on searching for bad food like a maniac. I never had this kind of problems .It all started when i tried to go to a very strict diet of chicken-green vegetables-flax-whey and maybe some oats. In the way i introduced steroids that cause little water retention,clen,T-3,E/C/A,ALA... I thought i could handle it and that it was the right kind of diet for me. Unfortunately i couldn't forsee what it would going to happen with that luck of variety in my diet. My cheats were very few at the beginning but this could also be due to my busy schedule. When i stopped having a busy schedule and had to stay at home for a lot of hours then the big binges started. But i tried to keep them once or twice a week before my workouts to get the pump while which due to my roid/sugar intake was huge. I couldn't care less about the bloat as i had the greatest workouts ever. I just couldn't stop....lifting. But i think i may have already damaged myself. I am now in clomid therapy and the binges are getting worse .Maybe once in 3 days or even more. I am worrying about my thyroid, i think i have put way too much pressure. I used t3 up to 100mcg for 1 month without great results or sides,i used clen(spiropent) up to 200mcg, i have abused e/c/a for over 6 months and lately i have built an extreme tolerance to the drug so i go up to 150mg Eph and 1200mgr caffeine per day. Steroids also put pressure on the thyroid. So i am worrying... a lot.Fortunately i have used all the protectants for kidney/liver/heart and most importantly a lot of water.At the time to avoid the crash after all this i use guggulbolic and tyrosine.

The bottom line is that dieting has put a lot of pressure on my life and didn't let me enjoy anything else...I am worrying about possible permanent damage on my thyroid after all this abuse and secondly i worry about my mental health that has obviously been heavily disturbed.

So i was thinking at first to go get some mental help-i mean to talk to someone about this-and secondly go to a dietician to put me on a healthy diet for a steady but slow weight loss. I have also decided to get off from all the drugs for the next months.


Sorry for the long story, any opinions - flames are welcomed...

 

[Mr H]

I'd definitely go get a thyroid panel done. You don't want to screw that guy up.

Then when you're finished, you need to kick yourself in the ass. Nobody is going to help you. It's you against the world and it's up to YOU to motivate yourself and realize that where you are right now isn't where you wanna be.

Nothing motivates better than seeing your physique change.

Send me an e-mail when you have a chance.