Hey bro, I was once in your very shoes just a decade ago. Let me tell you my brief story.
I was always pretty althetic as a kid but was never really "great" and any one sport till I found track. Finally I found a sport that could develope my self esteem, get me recognition , and possibly even pave the way for my future. I pursued it with determination and obsession, and just like you, I hoped it would land me a scholarship.
I started weight training seriously around my sophomore year in highschool, and in the begining, purely to help my performance on the track. Within 6 months I started seeing changes in my body that I never dreamed of having. With this "cosmetic" change came a whole new motivation for me as far as weight training. I enjoyed the attention I was getting about my physique and it also indeed helped tremendoulsy with my beloved sport. I joined gym and started my quest for knowledge in this new phenomina of physique enhancement. I saw for the first time "real" bodybuilders. I was completely mesmorized by their confidence and awe inspiring phisiques. This was what I wanted to be.......a "bodybuilder"......
Well unfortunately I quickly realized that physiologically you can't be both a great miler/half miler and put on any significant size or strength.....at least in bodybuiling terms. I went ahead and continued my bodybuilding but of course track was what was going to pay for school. Sure enough I got my dream, I got that track scholarship.
Well it didn't take long for me to re-evaluate my agenda. I realized that although I was a big fish in my pond, I was now part of a team and sport where EVERYONE was a big fish in their pond. I realized quickly that I would not be the next gold medalist in the Olympics nor a world record holder. In my mind that could mean only one thing.......I also realized that although I always thought I loved track, I didn't really "love" it. I loved WINNING, I loved being the best. I didn't really "enjoy" running 80 miles a week and doing intervals on the track...... What I did LOVE was....the IRON! Needless to say, I gave up that scholarship and haven't regretted it once. I looked back to what I trully loved and I dove head first into the bodybuilding scene.
Well to shorten this story up, I can tell you that I am not an IFBB pro nor an NPC champ or even a competitive bodybuilder. I competed in one BB show at 22 y/o and made a modest placing. I learned quite quickly that not only did I not have the genetic freakness to be a great bodybuilder but I was also unwillling nor did I have the funds to support with drugs, food, supplements etc. that it took to have a truely great bodybuilding carreer. You know what though, I'm still in the gym, I still pluggin' away 4-5 days a week hitting the iron. I haven't missed more than 5 days staight of training in over 11 years. I think I have a pretty good physique, I think bodybuilding has also built character and taught me fundementals about living life that are indespensible. I can also honestly say it has saved my life.....many times.....(I've suffered from chronic depression almost all my life). Ya' know what, I LOVE this sport!!!
Well as I scoll up and re-read what I've written I can see I've gotten a little wordy so lets get to my point. Your in a position now where you need to make a choice. I say follow your heart, follow your desire and passion. If its track, then get your ass back on there. If it's bodybuilding, then bro, take this opportunity to put your energy into it. Even if you don't end up on the cover of FLEX can you say in 10 years you love where you are and what bodybuilding has done for you. Sounds like you've got a great opportnity to do what you love because you "can" and not because you "have to", take it bro and reap all you can fro this great sport and most of all........LIFESTYLE.
Please Scroll Down to See Forums Below 
