Damn I can't kick this rec. drug habit.

[Mackavelli~Returns]

I don't know what to do. I can't seem to kick this rec drug habit. I really started going at in late 2002 after a bad divorce and a broken heart. Stupid yes, but the truth. I use to go on the boards daily and train daily all of which I gave up. Now here I am three years later at rock bottom. The scary part is that I really want to give this up, but with the business I own I spend a lot of time alone at home. I feel like I have become a hobbit. It is wierd I live in Florida and my skin is so white I feel like casper. Yet I still do this drug. I was thinking about it and working some numbers out on paper. This month I spent about 3gs on drugs. Unfortunately, rehab is not an option as I would loose everything else that is positive in my life and my means for supporting myself.

Has anyone else been down this road. I feel so damn weak because I cannot stop this shit. I really need some advice. I wish I could say that I am going to put my mind to it and stop but everytime I do I am let down. I have not gone more that a few days with use. I really need to quit but once I go a few days I seem to be right back. I really want to get back in the gym, eat train etc but lost all the routine. I am a creature of habit and know that if I get out of this I can pull through but damn it is hard.

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

whats the drug?

 

[wootoom]

that cocaine is a powerful drug

 

[gymratforlife]

whats the drug?

I am going to guess its Yayo.Not an easy task if it is but you have to force yourself in the gym,once you have one foot in the door your life will beging to take a different form.If its worse than that,like crack or heroin Id sugest you get profesional help bro.Good luck to you and hope you can over come that problem.I have seen may people hurt themselfs in the past with rec drugs.

 

[Bikini Mod]

I know a friend that is deep in as well. I have no clue what to do to help.

So sorry. Is there an AA-type program near you? I understand they are all over and are TOTALLY ANONYMOUS. Look into it. It might help you.

All the best.

 

[Daeo]

Coming to the realization that your current condition is not going to be acceptable for the rest of your life is an important first step. I'm certain you want to change that, but along with that you have the fear that the fun will end once the drugs cease. That's the farthest from the truth in reality...

 

[strangebrew]

Cut off your thumb.

It will help you see the light and you'll say: "Fuck." "What did I just do?" "Now I'm a drug addict with only one thumb."

That should help.

 

[slat1]

Been there. Stop waiting for someone to save you! No one will. Only you can.
Look for a licensed drug and alcohol counselor. They will talk to you. Its usually about $100/hour.
There is something in your life that you are not happy with. The drugs are a way to cover it. They do not fix it. The problems persists while the drugs cover it.
If you can find out what that problem is you will take care of everything. Once you fix that one problem everything else will fall in line!
Talk to a professional. I have lost many friends to drugs. Stop fucking around and make some decisions that benefit you. Your an adult and you can handle being resposible. Just do it!!!
BTW... try reading "the seven habits of highly effective people" by Stephen Covey. It will open your eyes and give you strength.

 

[Hengst]

Addicts have to hit bottom before they begin the path of recovery. This bottom is different for every one. You may have to lose your business, home, loved ones before you wake up. Then again you may not. The choice is yours.

As SLATL says: Stop waiting for someone to save you! No one will. Only you can.

 

[Buddy_Christ]

I'm sure you can find an outpatient rehab program. Might have to spend a long weekend in though to detox.

Look into NA and AA meetings. A counselor could be a big help as well. If you're really serious and really want to change, going to the meetings and getting involved in that network can help you turn around your life.