BuffaloGal's Attitude Adjustment Log

[buffalogal]

Well, let's try this one again. I am re-focused on my goal of doing a figure competition in the spring. I am not sure how my personal life is going to play into this but I will deal with that when the time comes. Because of a now ex-boyfriend that I work with, I am on the fast track to leave my place of employment and find something else well away from the place I'm currently living. I'll be eligible in January, so we'll see how this all falls out.

First order of business: Get the ex out of my mind so I can focus on me (this is going to be the toughest!)

Second: Get stats; weight, bf %, measurements, pics.

Third: Set goals that I can stick to but that will also motivate me at the same time.

Fourth: Figure out a meal plan I can stick with that falls in the 40/30/30

Fifth: Find a personal trainer. They're few and far between up here and it'll be tough finding someone with the fitness and nutrition background I will need.

I'll start this log next week. I'm off for training in Philadelphia starting Friday and there's no sense starting then. Be back soon...

 

[velvett]

KICK IT GIRL!!!!
You can do it.

Take it as it comes.

 

[*Bunny*]

Best wishes BG

 

[Roonytunes]

Woohoo, BG's BACK!!!!

 

[jenscats5]

You can do eeet BG!!!

 

[ck2006]

GO BUFFALO GAL GO!!!!

You WILL do this!!!!

 

[buffalogal]

Thanks girls.

Remind me again that I can do it... Had a meltdown today and smoked two cigarettes, ate 3 doughnuts, 3 muffins and a bagel with cream cheese. All for supper tonight, with nothing else during the day. I don't think I can get any lower than this.

Hopefully I can only go up from here, and anyone who gets in my way!!

 

[sbt2082]

Ahhhhhhh, stay strong girl... YOU GOT THIS!!! Glad to see ya back around too!!

 

[buffalogal]

 

[Gymgurl]

You can do it.......F**k him....he is not worth you punishing yourself! Time to take care of you!! ((((((HUGS))))))

 

[ck2006]

Good morning,
don't make me get the whip out already!
I quit smoking! you can too!

 

[wlmcrae]

Thanks girls.

Remind me again that I can do it... Had a meltdown today and smoked two cigarettes, ate 3 doughnuts, 3 muffins and a bagel with cream cheese. All for supper tonight, with nothing else during the day. I don't think I can get any lower than this.

Hopefully I can only go up from here, and anyone who gets in my way!!

So, your calories for the day were probably about 1200 - nothing to beat yourself up over! (Now the macros . . ) You'll do just fine!

 

[buffalogal]

ck - You can crack the whip out anytime. Emotional trauma for me makes me smoke. I've only had 5 cigs the last few days and that may be it. Fortunately, I cannot get addicted to them.

wlmcrae - yeah, cals may have been okay. Macros - probably 95% carbs

GG - you're so right! F--k him and all the other f---in' a--holes that use women, lie to them, and then leave them in the dirt. He wouldn't be worth another minute of my time if I could help it. Too bad he's my mentor at work and I need to use him to get me a promotion to another office ASAP. So I can get the f--k away from him. This whole situation is f---ed up and I've been f---ed over big time!!!

Okay, rant over - sorry just need to vent and my sis and best friend is unavailable until this evening...

On another note, did much better with the eating today. Need to start logging stuff into fitday soon, but may wait until I can start fresh. Of course, it's now 1:30 and I've only eaten once. Not even hungry...

But, no cigs yet although they are sitting here calling to me.

 

[ck2006]

ck - You can crack the whip out anytime. Emotional trauma for me makes me smoke. I've only had 5 cigs the last few days and that may be it. Fortunately, I cannot get addicted to them.

wlmcrae - yeah, cals may have been okay. Macros - probably 95% carbs

GG - you're so right! F--k him and all the other f---in' a--holes that use women, lie to them, and then leave them in the dirt. He wouldn't be worth another minute of my time if I could help it. Too bad he's my mentor at work and I need to use him to get me a promotion to another office ASAP. So I can get the f--k away from him. This whole situation is f---ed up and I've been f---ed over big time!!!

Okay, rant over - sorry just need to vent and my sis and best friend is unavailable until this evening...

On another note, did much better with the eating today. Need to start logging stuff into fitday soon, but may wait until I can start fresh. Of course, it's now 1:30 and I've only eaten once. Not even hungry...

But, no cigs yet although they are sitting here calling to me.

My smokes have been calling to me for two days, but I broke every single one of them right at the bottom so I can't smoke them, and I have them to look at everyday, until I am ready to throw the suckers away.

 

[Gymgurl]

ck - You can crack the whip out anytime. Emotional trauma for me makes me smoke. I've only had 5 cigs the last few days and that may be it. Fortunately, I cannot get addicted to them.

wlmcrae - yeah, cals may have been okay. Macros - probably 95% carbs

GG - you're so right! F--k him and all the other f---in' a--holes that use women, lie to them, and then leave them in the dirt. He wouldn't be worth another minute of my time if I could help it. Too bad he's my mentor at work and I need to use him to get me a promotion to another office ASAP. So I can get the f--k away from him. This whole situation is f---ed up and I've been f---ed over big time!!!

Okay, rant over - sorry just need to vent and my sis and best friend is unavailable until this evening...

On another note, did much better with the eating today. Need to start logging stuff into fitday soon, but may wait until I can start fresh. Of course, it's now 1:30 and I've only eaten once. Not even hungry...

But, no cigs yet although they are sitting here calling to me.

The GOOD POINT here....you learned not to get involved with anyone that you work with everyagain....there is the bright side of this mess!!

 

[dutch diva]

Hey BG,
Stay strong, I went through that last yr...........I went and picked up the book
"he's not that into you", trust me no matter what the reasons are for the breakup this book will help you recover.

 

[dutch diva]

Another good read:

Oprah quoted this...



If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not
meant to be.
Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before
you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as
you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along,
then he probably is.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of
different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he
treat you any differently?
Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something
bothers you, speak up.
Never let a man know everything.
He will use it against you later.
You cannot change a man's behaviour.
Change comes from within.
Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...
even if he has more education or in a better job.
Do not make him into a quasi-god.
He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
Never let a man define who you are.
Never borrow someone else's man.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
All men are NOT dogs.
You should not be the one doing all the bending...
compromise is two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships...
there is nothing cute about baggage...
Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...
a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...
look for someone complimentary...
not supplementary.
Dating is fun...
even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
Make him miss you sometimes...
when a man always know where you are, and
you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.
Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.
Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...
You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman
prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

 

[buffalogal]

DD (no not the bra size ) - thank you so much.

A lot of that hits home and I'm going to keep reading it over and over. I'm also going to check out that book. The first two lines are the most powerful and certainly apply in this situation. Just in the one minute or so you took to post that, you made me feel better than anyone has the last 4 days.

Went and worked out today with a friend to take my mind off things. At least it got me out of the house for 3 hours and away from the cigs. I still haven't had one and I'll be damned if this jerk is going to make me smoke anymore.

On a happier note, I got a referral for a trainer who recently trained someone for a BB competition. Going to give her a call tomorrow to see what I can set up. If not, I have a few more options available to me so we'll see...

 

[buffalogal]

Hey BG,
Stay strong, I went through that last yr...........

So, may I ask what you did? I'm ready to leave immediately because I can't bear the thought of him moving on. But, I'm not eligible to leave until January...

 

[dutch diva]

I'm glad that little write up helped, I printed it out and every time I wanted to call him I read it over and over and highlighted the parts that applied the most to me.

To be honest I went on a bender....I worked out like a mad women, drank all weekend and just tried think of anything but. After the first 6 weeks things got better... I thought I was going to die everyday of heartache... but we live and 3 months after the breakup I had the opportunity to go work in Texas for 3 months and I took it. I ended up falling in love online with a guy from the new gym I switch too to get away from the jink-ex, and he flew to come see me and the rest is history. I look back and think I am so happy we split, but theres always the moments when all we do is think of the positives we have to think of the negatives. You need to sit down and write a specific list of all the things you want in a relationship and all the things you didn't have in this past one. And remind yourself that if he was as good of a guy as u once thought he was he wouldn't have a list! And no man that makes a women cry is worth your time! Hang in there it will be difficult, but try and consume your time in somthing good, training....! Obsess about getting where u want to with your physical goals, and do it for u not to get back at him..........I had that thought too!

 

[buffalogal]

Obsess about getting where u want to with your physical goals, and do it for u not to get back at him..........I had that thought too!

My gawd woman, get out of my head!! How'd you know I was thinking it??

I am gonna do this for me. I just need a few days to get my motivation back to do anything - anything but lay on the couch and cry. Least I have my pups to keep me company.

And training this weekend, and I'll finally get to meet at least one EF member - hopefully more. That should get my motivation back!

 

[Roonytunes]

DD has given you the best advice. Another book written by the same author as "He's Not That Into You" which helped me greatly is "It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken -The Smart Girl's Breakup Buddy"

You can check out a snippet at:
http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-srv/style/longterm/books/chap1/itscalledabreakup.htm

If nothing else, it'll at least make you laugh.

Hang in there, girl!

 

[jenscats5]

And training this weekend, and I'll finally get to meet at least one EF member - hopefully more. That should get my motivation back!

 

[buffalogal]

 

[buffalogal]

Hang in there, girl!

One day at a time...

Got a late night hour and 15 minute phone call last night from the ex. Feels good to get everything out in the open finally. I'm feeling better and maybe can be friends with him eventually. He's now into a deep depression due to the break-up but there's no going back now. The work situation does not allow it, even if we do still love each other. Nobody said life was easy...

Thanks girls - you're slowly helping me pull through it. That and these two beautiful girls are what is going to get me through. Nothing better than a little puppy love...

 

[dutch diva]

Another thing I thought of was turn off the radio! And download the song : avril lavigne "he's not the one"... and PUMP IT IN THE GYM! Glad to hear your feeling better......I keep talking to my ex for a while after and it only made it harder...

 

[jenscats5]

^^ Yeah!

Alanis Morrissette's "You Outta Know" helped get me thru my divorce......

 

[LuluDeren]

Good Luck on your list of goals, BuffaloGal! Set them in stone and you'll accomplish them all

 

[Gymgurl]

Great song Jen....makes you feel soooo much better! Hey where are you girl?? Hope all is well

 

[buffalogal]

I'm still here. Was in Philly for training for 3 days and also to meet Rooney. What an incredibly awesome person she is! Can't believe an hour and a half flew by like that. Next time we'll get Jens in too...

Am planning to start getting my "diet" tight today. But, got very little sleep last night so am headed for the couch for an early morning nap. Will do as best I can for the diet as I have a 2.5 week vacation from work after Thursday and will be doing A LOT of traveling. But, when you're determined you make it work as best you can. Night-night.

 

[dutch diva]

Hey BG glad to hear your sounding postive, time time time.... justs needs to pass

 

[jenscats5]

I'm still here. Was in Philly for training for 3 days and also to meet Rooney. What an incredibly awesome person she is! Can't believe an hour and a half flew by like that. Next time we'll get Jens in too...

Am planning to start getting my "diet" tight today. But, got very little sleep last night so am headed for the couch for an early morning nap. Will do as best I can for the diet as I have a 2.5 week vacation from work after Thursday and will be doing A LOT of traveling. But, when you're determined you make it work as best you can. Night-night.

Sorry I didn't make it girlie!! Would have loved to have met you & seen Roony again.....but I simply didn't feel like making the drive..... Raincheck fo sho!!

 

[badgergrl]

^^ Yeah!

Alanis Morrissette's "You Outta Know" helped get me thru my divorce......

Good one. I like Christina Aguilera's "Fighter" for times like these
Stupid, I know

 

[buffalogal]

Jens - Definitely next time...especially if Rooney decides to do a comp!

Thanks for all the well-wishes gals!

Obviously, did not log my food from yesterday. Was doing great until a small fire at my house. Thank gawd for fire extinguishers... Will try again today, after I clean up the mess. Off to work for now - have a great day!!!

 

[buffalogal]

Ok, finally back from vacation so here goes...

Have been trying to get 30 min of running in every other day, doing HIIT in the mornings, karate 2-3 times a week and have got to get back into lifting seriously. Don't have time to go into specific details as I'm running late for work (blech - first day back)!

Diet has been clean for a couple days now and my cardio is slowly improving - to the point where I actually want to do it again. Am back with the ex as of about 3 weeks ago and am trying to get things cleaned up around here to sell the house in a few months, move stuff in over there, etc... But, the fitness lifestyle is still calling and so I'm starting my new log. Feel free to get the out any time I need it...


Monday, Oct 16th

Supps: 1 Gluc, 2 sesapure, multi, potassium supp, calcium supp

HIIT on tread: 30 sec @ 8MPH, 1 min @ 5MPH x 8 cycles
17 oz water

M1: 6 am
1 c veggie egg beaters
1/2 c oatmeal
1 scoop whey
1/4c rasp
17 oz water

 

[buffalogal]

Monday, Oct 16th

Supps: 1 Gluc, 2 sesapure, multi, potassium supp, calcium supp

HIIT on tread: 30 sec @ 8MPH, 1 min @ 5MPH x 8 cycles
17 oz water

M1: 6 am
1 c veggie egg beaters
1/2 c oatmeal
1 scoop whey
1/4c rasp
17 oz water

M2: 9 am

7 reduced fat triscuits
17 oz water

M3: Noon

flatout wrap
2 oz chix
Dannon light n fit yogurt
17 oz water

M4: 2:45 pm

1/2 c nonfat cottage cheese
1/4 c raspberries
17 oz water

M5: 5:30 pm

3 oz pre-cooked chix filet
2 slice ww bread
string cheese
17 oz water

Workout: Back and Abs
17 oz water

1 HR Karate

PWO Protein Drink

M6: 8:45 pm

1 T natty PB
17 oz water

Totals: 1466 cals (42%P, 33%C, 25%F)
136 oz water