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bostongirl2you
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I am very interested in starting "Shadows Project". I had a couple of questions (but...of course!) I am sooooooooooo out of shape its sickening! I have totally let myself go. I've gained 80 pounds in the last few years. I never had a weight problem. I was always pretty thin. I am 5'6 and usually weigh around 140 pounds. I used to LOVE working out. I ran in the morning and did weights. Never achieved the muscle that I wanted but atleast I was lean 
Now, Im a fat slob. I have become what I used to frown upon. At my age (35) I guess I just felt like it wasnt worth the effort to get myself back into shape. I mean, I've been married for 17 years and so I figured this is as good as it gets.....just give up. Ya, know what though...........I DONT want to give up. This isnt me, its not my body, its so depressing. I want more, I want my body & confidence back. Its just so hard to try to lose all this weight. I have lost 10 pounds then started thinking..........well, still 70 to go and got so depressed about it that I put the 10 back on plus another 10! How unhealthy is that. Now, its the middle of April and I am going to spend yet another summer fat and outta shape. I know I can make positive changes, I know I love to work out, I know I can eat clean.....what I do need though is some support. Its going to be very hard to give it all I have and not really see results for awhile but I need to get healthy. So, I am going for shadows routine of working out and eating clean and Im not going to stray from it. I am petrified! Scared that I will fail before I even begin but I will start and I will win this once and for all. I am sooo sorry for the rambling but have to admit it feels good to write this all down. On to a couple of questions:
1. Is there a particular protein that I should use? On hand I have: Myoplex light and syntrax (vanilla essence and the nectar ones).
2. As of now, the only fat burner that I have is Lipo-6. Brand new bottle so should I start with these?
3. Do I need to make any training changes due to my weight? I am 5'6 and weigh 230. Oh Lord.......cant believe I admitted that!
4. At my weight should I still use the creatine in my protein shake?
last question: Can I start my own thread with this journey. I would like a place to put my thoughts, concerns and training/dieting log? Im fairly new here although I have been reading this forum forever. I just dont wanna piss any one off.
Thanks so much for those who read my ramblings. Thanks to shadow for putting together a program that just might bring me back from this depression!
Now, Im a fat slob. I have become what I used to frown upon. At my age (35) I guess I just felt like it wasnt worth the effort to get myself back into shape. I mean, I've been married for 17 years and so I figured this is as good as it gets.....just give up. Ya, know what though...........I DONT want to give up. This isnt me, its not my body, its so depressing. I want more, I want my body & confidence back. Its just so hard to try to lose all this weight. I have lost 10 pounds then started thinking..........well, still 70 to go and got so depressed about it that I put the 10 back on plus another 10! How unhealthy is that. Now, its the middle of April and I am going to spend yet another summer fat and outta shape. I know I can make positive changes, I know I love to work out, I know I can eat clean.....what I do need though is some support. Its going to be very hard to give it all I have and not really see results for awhile but I need to get healthy. So, I am going for shadows routine of working out and eating clean and Im not going to stray from it. I am petrified! Scared that I will fail before I even begin but I will start and I will win this once and for all. I am sooo sorry for the rambling but have to admit it feels good to write this all down. On to a couple of questions: 1. Is there a particular protein that I should use? On hand I have: Myoplex light and syntrax (vanilla essence and the nectar ones).
2. As of now, the only fat burner that I have is Lipo-6. Brand new bottle so should I start with these?
3. Do I need to make any training changes due to my weight? I am 5'6 and weigh 230. Oh Lord.......cant believe I admitted that!
4. At my weight should I still use the creatine in my protein shake?
last question: Can I start my own thread with this journey. I would like a place to put my thoughts, concerns and training/dieting log? Im fairly new here although I have been reading this forum forever. I just dont wanna piss any one off.
Thanks so much for those who read my ramblings. Thanks to shadow for putting together a program that just might bring me back from this depression!
Start a log and get er done woman! 
Welcome to ef... 
Workouts will be alittle tough since they will be done at home using free weights and a flat bench. Way too embarrassed to lift at the gym right now. I know that I shouldnt care what others think but I do. Im going to print out Shadows plan now and take my measurements. Keeping all the info in a binder. Gonna log my daily meals, workouts ect.. each and every day even if I eat S*it! Im really excited about this. I feel like having a journal here will keep me on track. Thanks for the kind words of encouragment.
