At what point do you crack?

[b fold the truth]

I hate to go off on a rant here...but with time and thought comes realization. Do you ever look around and realize something that is so obvious to you? I am beginning to wonder if I have over loaded myself right now. Full time job, 22 hours of school, contest prep, family, friends...etc...just beginning to get to me.

I sit at a desk and do almost nothing most of the time. Too much time to just sit and think. The thought of the evening: I have no friends. I really came to realize this tonight, that I have no friends. I look around and there are only a couple of people that I ever interact with on a regular basis...and they are all on Elite. Four of them I think. ladyluck is my best friend in the entire world and has been for a few years. I am close friends to Hannibal and AGENT SHAGWELL, and am also a good friend to buksoon. I look at my life here...and realize that if something bad happenned to me...not too many people would miss me here at home.

Last Saturday night, an old friend called me up and wanted me to go out to a party with him. I said "no man...I did events today on 4 hours of sleep, spent 9 hours on the road driving, and just want to sit at home." He says, "man, you never do anything anymore. You need to get out and have fun every once in a while." So...I go out with him and realize that I'm just not into that party crowd that he is into. Went to a sorority function and talked to a few people and realized that I didn't like many people that I met. This one nice looking girl comes up to me and starts talking to me out of the blue. She seemed very nice...when I took out my wallet to buy a tripple cheeseburger at the grill, I noticed her looking into my wallet to see how much money I had. Pissed me off kinda. Guess she was trying to get all over me later, so I had another friend of mine take me back to my truck so I could go home.

I have always been the type of person to either go all out or nothing at all. I competed in Martial Arts for 8 years and was always ranked in the top 5. Wanted to be a pro dj, bought about 40k worth of equipment and did that for about 3 years till it was paid for and haven't touched much of it since. Now...strongman. And once again...I'm pretty good at it, but it is ruling my entire life. What to do?

Does money really matter? I have no money. NONE!!! At what point do I ever ask someone out if I have no money at all? I'm asked out all the time by people and I always say no. The main reason is because I don't really feel like being in a relationship with anyone, I don't have time either. I also do not have the money to go out and eat by myself much less to take someone out to eat.

I guess that I have no social life, very very few friends, and it is very hard to see even a dim light at the end of the tunnel. I have been very very down for a long time now and can not explain any of it. With this...I do thank my friends on Elite. lady, Hannibal, Agent, buksoon...I thank you very much.

B True

 

[Frackal]

Damn she was looking in your wallet bro? What a fucking skank. You should have buried your credit card in her larnyx.

 

[WODIN]

You really need to start socializing a bit more. Nothing huge just a few friends who share your common interest.

 

[havoc]

Bro, you seem to do what is most important to you. If partying and having a gang of acquaintances was first priority then that is what you would have, but its not, training and the things you mentioned are. You do what you feel is TOP priority, for example, say you went out , socializing, staying out late, getting polluted, even got some pussy, but the next day it costs you meaning you couldnt do your daily routine of eating right and training, I bet you would feel worse about not getting those things in for the day because thats what you love to do. To repeat, You do what is important. peace

 

[ladyluck]

ok...you made me cry.

B fold......aside from some very personal feelings I have towards you ......you are my very best friend too. I tell you everything.....even if it might not be appropriate.....I have no one else to talk to. It was hard to read your post, but I know what type of guy you are and I can understand why girls would be attracted to you. Sorry that women can be trash......their are those out there that cause all of us to look bad. You have to look past those and see the ones who looks past your wallet into your heart. Then you will know when you have found a REAL women. To that person....money won't matter. Love will see past all the material stuff. It will happen.....you are a great guy and when you find the right one she will be a very lucky person.
If something happened to you.....don't fool yourself, because you have more people who care for you then you think.
You love strongman....what is wrong with that? If it takes up all your time.....then that is ok. Why question something you have worked so hard at? You are great at it and will only get much better. Time for other things will come when you are done with strongman.
Believe me......there is a light.......yours is very bright.
And thank you for your friendship too.......it means the world to me. Lady

 

[Milhouse]

My advice to you would be: do what YOU want. Don't let family, peers, friends, etc. make you do things you don't want to do. If you need to make changes...make changes. Do what your gut tells you. I lived the life my family wanted me to live for 29 years and was mostly miserable. The past 5 years have been the best of my life and I wish I had the balls to live this way sooner.

You know what that is just one of the things I needed to hear now, really. Something I have forgotten as of late.

 

[Milhouse]

And good for you for doing this.

You know why I liked hearing that before was because in my own life I have always been most successful when going about my life in that way, like a bull charging the red cape so to speak.

for various resons the past months I stopped doing that until recently and there was a difference in quality in life.

 

[ZenMachine]

B Fold,

I was in a similar situation not too long ago. Different reasons, but same basic scenario. What worked for me was to take people up on there offers. The turning point was a college buddy called and wanted to see if I wanted to go out with him and some of his work buddies. I initially said no, but changed my mind. We went out and had a great time. It opened the door so to speak. I am not suggesting you go out anytime someone asks you, but if it is someone who you would like to hang out with, just go. Give it a shot.

Don't spend your whole life waiting to start your life. Because one day you are going to look back and realize your life hasn't really started yet.

Zen

 

[Punschkrapfen]

My advice to you would be: do what YOU want. Don't let family, peers, friends, etc. make you do things you don't want to do.

exactly. That one should have lots of friends is not a must. Some people need this, some don't. Neither does make you a better person nor do you lose something, if you stick to your priorities.

 

[b fold the truth]

Thanks to all...not for sure what to say.

B True

 

[Hannibal]

Thanks to all...not for sure what to say.

B True

...you know you are never alone.

 

[b fold the truth]

Thanks...

Just for the first time in my life...I realize that I only really talk to 4 people...and they are all from Elite. They are the greatest people I have ever met and I am lucky. I just need to get out and get a life.

B True

 

[Hannibal]

I just need to get out and get a life.

B True

Perhaps...but only if that life does not take away from the things that are important to you right now...training and school.

 

[WODIN]

hannibal speaks volumes. What you feel you are lacking is basic human contact that's evident from your post. I'll put it this way, if your "friends" do not add to your goals, they're not your friends.

 

[Gilbyag]

I dont think there is shit wrong with anything you said, do what you want, do what makes you happy... screw what someone else thinks YOU should be doing.

As far as asking someone out w/out $$$, there are more things to do on a date than just go out and spend $. If a chick really digs you she wont care if have $ or not. I know plenty of brokes dicks walking around w/nice look'n ladies on their arm.

you sound like a cool dude, I know you have some real friends around somewhere, and true frinds there are always there at the drop of a hat, and its like time never passed between you...

 

[Hannibal]

I'll put it this way, if your "friends" do not add to your goals, they're not your friends.

Well if it weren't impossible...I would say that Wodin is wise beyond his years. But for a man his age...he is of average intellegence.

 

[Liberator]

you need a mental reset, going out and socialising will do this

It will help you focus on why you were doing the things you do like training and school

it will give you a different perspective completely and a different importance

try it, kick back and relax, just dont go overboard

use the motivation you get from this new perspective in your training

sometimes you just need to feel refreshed mentally

sometimes you have to experience the other side to realise why what you do is so important

 

[gymtime]

Thanks...

Just for the first time in my life...I realize that I only really talk to 4 people...and they are all from Elite. They are the greatest people I have ever met and I am lucky. I just need to get out and get a life.

B True

Don't be so hard on yourself big man. You're in a weird transitional period that a lot of guys go through in their early twenties. Fortunately, the next one doesn't come until you're around 30.

I think you're just at a point where the passion's you've held up until now aren't as fulfilling as they once were. I know how it is to get so caught up in them that you end up isolating yourself. The good thing is that you're figuring it out at an early age. You have plenty of time to make whatever changes you need to make your life more full.

I agree with you, you are spreading yourself too thin by what you said. The old saying, "moderation in all things" doesn't only apply to vices. It applies to all of it, including the gym. I don't think you're looking at a drastic change in your life, just get that big frame of yours out and about now and then. Cherish the fact that your friends miss you and want you to go out and have fun. Lot of people don't have that.

Judging by your posts, you seem like a good guy. Your 20s should be a fun time for you. Keep doing what you love. I read your posts and I know how into the strength events you are, nothing wrong with that at all. Just make sure that now and then, you get out and get a few beers in you and get laid, in whatever order you choose.

You'll be fine bro, you no worry. Still need those trees taken out of my front yard when you have a free weekend. I'll give you one beer per tree. Can't beat that deal.

 

[b fold the truth]

Still sending thanks. Working on tons of homework and my contest is next week. Just a lot of pressure comming up. The past few months have been absolute hell. If I explained them to you...you would not believe that it is true. One thing just keeps adding up on top of another.

I am ready for a change of pace. I had a breather this summer when I went far away and visited a friend. I did not have to think about any of my problems at all and that made it like a dream. Gosh...I went out, ate expensive food, met a wonderful friend, and even got drunk for the first time ever.

gymtime: beer and get laid? Well...I'll take you up on a dark beer...but women are eeevvviiillll!!!!!!

Sometimes I think about being a bad boy. I definately could. Would never make me happy though. Being an honest to the bone guy doesn't seem to get you very far...as I learn.

B True

 

[gymtime]

....I had a breather this summer when I went far away and visited a friend. I did not have to think about any of my problems at all and that made it like a dream. Gosh...I went out, ate expensive food, met a wonderful friend, and even got drunk for the first time ever.

gymtime: beer and get laid? Well...I'll take you up on a dark beer...but women are eeevvviiillll!!!!!!


B True

Can't argue with that. Reminds me of a quote I read somewhere: "And God created man and saw that he was alone. And God created woman that man might feel his lonliness more keenly."

I'm gonna get killed for that, but it's still funny.

Got the right idea with that trip you were on. Little more of that might just change your life a little, for the better.

 

[Hannibal]

Sometimes I think about being a bad boy. I definately could. Would never make me happy though. Being an honest to the bone guy doesn't seem to get you very far...as I learn.

B True

You know that wouldn't make you happy. Besides being an "honest to the bone" guy will get you everywhere. You just have to surround yourself with people that appreciate that.

 

[ladyluck]

Why categorize all women as being evil?

There are evil women out there....just like there are evil men out there.
The answer is not becoming a bad boy.
Gymtime.....the answer is definitely not going out and getting laid.
All the things people are suggesting are not permanent answers....drinking and sex? B Fold....would that really sovle your problems or make you happy?
Sorry.......this post is so upsetting.......wish I had the perfect answer for you. Lady

 

[ladyluck]

Hannibal I agree....

Hannibal...you are a very wise guy....B fold should keep you around. I always like what you have to say. Lady

 

[Sassy69]

B Fold -

I can understand your situation -- when I prepped for my first comp, I gave up most of my social life, stopped drinking and was very bored with my job. I had started dating a guy from work and had asked him to come out to my comp with me on the other side of the state. I was so excited for this show. Then I started having a bullshit falling out with my trainer and 3 days before the show, the bf's grandfather passed away and he couldn't go. So I had the choice of driving out alone (4 hours on carb & water depletion) or driving w/ my trainer.

I drove with my trainer and hoped things would go ok. Well the show went well, but I got little support from my trainer and the first post-comp meal I had been fantasizing about for 4 months never happened because I spent 3 hours trying to catch up w/ the trainer & the other people in our group to get into a restaurant. Between shitty cell phone connections and just plain shitness on their part, it just never happened. Then I had to drive home w/ the trainer again. I almost pushed her out of the car 3 hours from home. Bitch. Immediately after that the bf started this shit like he would call, say to get together that night or to call him back at a specified time - then he just wouldn't be there. WTF??? My whole social life and ability to rely on other people has completely fallen apart.

THEN I found another trainer, paid LOTS of money and managed to go thru the same shit again. Except now I was so deep into BB that I pretty much had no friends left and my mom would get upset every time I told her about my training, etc.

Hate to say it, but somehow training and competition have an amazing way of isolating you. Because its such a complete lifestyle, it affects every part of you. Plus your other obligations makes it just that much more stressful.

For your own relief, make sure to surround yourself with people who do understand what your goals are, but don't push away the people who dont'. Just don't get them as tightly involved in your life. And its up to you to decide how you are going spend your time and achieve your goals and dreams. Its hard when you are in your 20's and trying to figure out where you are going with your life. Spend some time thinking about what you want to do, and stick to that. But also leave some time to relax and clear out the cobwebs too.

No one said it was easy, but it shouldn't have to be miserable. I hear ya bro.

 

[Badkins21]

1) I'm 20, so we're pretty close in age.

2) I'm only taking 15 hours of classes, and I only work about 15-10 hours every week, but you see the comparison.

3) You know what makes me "tick?" Looking into my future. Seriously...imagine where your goals will take you--then imagine where "others'" goals will take them. I'm in my third year of college, and can't hardly even GO to a parties anymore, because all I do (thoughts of Warik dance in my head) is think "Wow, I'm glad I'm not like any of these pathetic humans." Envision yourself as "above" the crowd. I'm not saying "Think you're better," just different--which means you have something to work for.

Trust me, I have about 3-4 REAL friends, all of which I've known for many years. My girlfriend and I have been together for about 4 years now. I want to get married, start teaching, have some kids...I want to have 17 things to do on the weekends, like taking one kid to a party, one to a soccer game, while trying to catch the big game, too. I want to just chill with my wife on Friday night, while our moronic colleagues go get trashed and wake up feeling sh*tty the next morning.

I hate change. I like the "routine" of daily life. Most people think I'm nuts. I think I'm "above them." Or at least farther down the evolutionary trend, so to speak.

E-mail me anytime, you know the address. Talk to the "club," too, man. People who share common interests will always help more than those that don't...

 

[furious]

B,

Bro, cracking is not an option. Don't let society make you falter, disgard what you find unpleasant and carry on like a soldier. Remain true to self.

Peace

 

[JohnyJuice]

It is hard to follow your own path in life my friend. There are many external factors (i.e. partying, getting laid, seeing other people party,etc.) that make it hard to stay on point. I know what it is like to have a busy schedule. i work nights, go to school during the day, and go to the gym and do hw in between. The best thing i can suggest is make friends with people at the gym who have similiar interests. If you are both to beat to go out and party, hang out at each others house and watch some ultimate fighting, or rent some old strong man tapes. You seem like a smart chap, so use your next "thinking time" to come up with a solution, not analyzing the problem.

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[ZenMachine]

B

If money is a major concern, why don't you sell all the DJ stuff. Especially considering you said you don't touch it anymore.

You say you get asked out on a regular basis, try accepting. Suggest you do something that doesn't cost serious $$$. My last girlfriend and I started hanging out do to mutual interests that involved being outside. I was a poor college student, I couldn't take her anywhere, but I was able to do things with her that we both enjoyed. The funny part is that once the money part came around, she left.

All else fails, I am going to Vegas with some bros in a month or so. You are welcome to join us. Cheap food and free beer - Can't beat it.

Zen

 

[tripleV]

B FOLD baby!

First of all, please make that 5!!!!! I care about you baby even if you don't know it yet! I've heard some pretty damn nice things about you that I really admire in a man! There's not too many of you sweeties out there, and might I add yummy too! (sorry I am always a horny MOFO)

anyways.....

I think everything goes through cycles, you're up sometimes and you're down also. I'm sure you've had your higs, just like you may be having a rather low point right now.

It's when you're down that you really can count on your firends to bring you up...you don't have to look very far, even great distances are no barrier.

Things will get better, honest You're the type of person that when you want to do something, youre sure as hell to do it, and do it well! There are way too many procrastinators and bullshitters out there who can't do the same.

Hold your head up high, money don't matter! What matters to you most, what's in your wallet? or what's in your heart baby?

Cheer up
kisses

 

[MP5]

B fold, I would talk to you more, but all your emails to me are dirty talk, and I am straight.

Seriously though, we are all in your boat one time or another, I hve no money, no friends here, and have been battling injuries so lifting is sub-par. To top it off I sent for some juice and my funds are MIA. But...life goes on, I may not have too many friends in my town, no money, but I have my hobbies and lifting to keep me going. Plus I hate my job, I always dream of snapping, but no shithead person in this world is going to ruin me for life.

 

[JustinM]

Bro, you seem to do what is most important to you. If partying and having a gang of acquaintances was first priority then that is what you would have, but its not, training and the things you mentioned are. You do what you feel is TOP priority, for example, say you went out , socializing, staying out late, getting polluted, even got some pussy, but the next day it costs you meaning you couldnt do your daily routine of eating right and training, I bet you would feel worse about not getting those things in for the day because thats what you love to do. To repeat, You do what is important. peace

awsome words havoc, they are very true, don't go out and try to have a social life if you don't want to..do something for yourself, not someone else..

peace

 

[the People's Champ]

Don't spend your whole life waiting to start your life. Because one day you are going to look back and realize your life hasn't really started yet.

well said. b fold, you seem like a pretty content person. I just want to say that you dont need to be keeping up with the joneses by socializing and doing things that you dont want/need to do. just do what you love. pretty soon, school will pay off or be over with, there is always a better job out there, but you have to find it, and the true friends are the ones who stick with you through thick, thin, ugly, depression, and... well I dont know, but your real friends are the ones who accept you for who you ARE, not what you do.

 

[AGENT SHAGWELL]

B Fold....honey, you just put too much food on your plate this semester. Thats all. Just got to stick it out. Contest is comming soon, and onces thats over, you can cut back a little to free up sometime.

Hang in there sweety, I know you can do it all, and do it all WELL

 

[b fold the truth]

Gonna try to reply to everyone on here...by first saying thanks. You have no idea what my tears feel like right now...comming home to all of this. Been a rough day...and with me it seems as if one thing triggers a ton of things.

Sassy69: I do hope that is is basically just my contest getting to me. I can not remember when I had a total day off from lifting, training, class, work, etc. Can't remember what real fun is like at this point. My contest is consuming my life. I will take the week off after my contest, mainly because I will barely be able to move afterwards, but it will be well needed. I was also asked by a strongman team the other day to become a part of them and their ministry. This is one of the largest strongman teams around...very reputable.

Badkins21: I do see the comparison...very much so. My future is really pushing me right now. I have too many things that I not only have to concentrate on but I have to excel at. My boss is trying to push me to graduate because he is offering me a VERY nice job asap. Would be amazing to go from $8.74-$25 an hour in May, plus a car, apt, etc... Just a lot of pressure (hence the 22 horus of school). Contest is comming up too...and I have to do well at it. I used to have a few very close friends, but they have all moved away. ladyluck is my best friend and she is no longer here either even though I talk to her every single day, usually 2x a day. Just feel very alone.

furious: thank you for the motivation. If it weren't for me reading the Bible and a very good friend or four here on elite...I'd probably lose hope.


JohnyJuice: thanks for the advice, I do understand. My path of life is one that not many people understand. I guess that I walk a pretty strick path in my life that not many people tend to agree with anymore. Very stern and strict morals, and not even my mother agrees with them. At what point does your own mother tell you to go out and get drunk and have fun....with whomever? I've been trying to latch on to a friend around here, but he is always busy partying or picking up women. He also wonders why I keep getting bigger and stronger and he has done nothing in the past 3 years of lifting.

ZenMachine: selling my DJ equipment will yield me little gain. I still dj about once a month or so, making very good money. Every prom season I would wish that I still had it around. I am hoping that my financial situation will resolve itself in the next year. Going out with women? Well...I am probably the most picky person I know. Not for sure...let's just say that my heart is torn in a few directions right now, ok? Vegas? Thanks man...appreciate it.

tripleV: 5? Thanks very much. Don't know what all that means to me. I talk to lady, hannibal, agent, and buksoon on a regular basis. Feel free to drop me an email anytime. I have heard many amazing things about you too. Something about having a big heart yourself. Yummy? Not for sure about that one, but thanks. What matters to me is what is in my heart, but what matters to all of my bill collectors is what is in my wallet. I may try to pick up another job again after my contest.

the People's Champ: thanks...thanks very much. I do have one true friend...lady. I have hurt her many times over the last few months and she is still here.

AGENT SHAGWELL: thank you girl. You know what you mean to me. Friends like you are hard to find. I know that my plate is full, and it seems to be the only plate that I am filling right now too. I hope that my time gets much better after my contest. I am going to do well at my contest, and friends like you, and everyone else on here, keep me motivated...and in tears.

Thanks all, and God Bless

B True

 

[buksoon]

Alright, Mister! If anybody in the world said the things about B Fold that B Fold says about B Fold, I'd have to beat them up. And you know I could!

But the person who is saying those things about you is YOU, so I don't know what to do. (Will I come to Kentucky and beat YOU up???)

Maybe I WILL! Maybe that would help you! If I said: "Now you listen to me, Mister! You are blessed! So many blessings! So many gifts! So much to share!!!!!!

God gave you such a heart! Unlike any other! Strong and brave and kind and TRUE!

And resillent! Your heart will bounce back from ANYTHING! Because something deep within it just CANNOT BE TOUCHED by any meanness or insensitivity around you. It will remain pure.

You are sooooo blessed! And I am honored that you called me one of your friends. HONORED! (But I'm still gonna have to beat you up when I come to Kentucky--no one talks smack about you and gets away with it, including you!!)

 

[ladyluck]

Hey

B fold....you are very right about me being a true friend......I have much love for you. What would benefit either of us if I walked away from the friendship? Granted the past few months have been hard, but it has made me a stronger person....and I think I needed that in my life. All that is over now and I still care just the same. Don't worry about the past....concentrate on the future. Your contest if coming up and that is the most important thing right now. I support you all the way and wish I could be there to cheer you on.....but know I will be cheering in my heart. You better send me lots of pics. Cheer up big man......things will pick up. I know I say this all the time, but you are an awesome guy......."things will all be ok". Sound like words you have heard before? That is because you always tell me the same thing. Smile Lady

 

[tripleV]

GOOD MORNING B FOLD BABY!!!!

How you doin' today? Just wanted to let you know that i'm thinkin' of ya big guy! So smile ....or else! Don't make me unleash the power of my 12" pipes! lol



kisses

 

[ZenMachine]

B,

Glad to hear you are still putting the DJ stuff to some use.

As far as the woman situation goes. Great be picky, as a matter of fact, be even more picky than you are right now when you are looking for a girlfriend. But I am not suggesting that you have to "marry" any of these girls that ask you out. Just get out there do some thing. That is what worked for me. I have some really good female friends now.

I can even see how it all works out.

Random girl (RG) hits on you.

B - "Sure we can go out sometime"

RG - "Well what do you like to do"

B - "lift really heavy stuff, carry it around for awhile...interested?"

RG - "um....How heavy are we talking?"

B - "Well, what kind of car do you drive?....."

RG - "A Cavalier"

B - "Well that's a start...."

You can really take if from there.

Seriously spend sometime with people with similar interests (not just lifting). Who knows.

By the way. All you can eat buffets are great for bulking.

Zen

 

[b fold the truth]

buksoon: Thank you very much. Why is it that a 100lb woman is taking up for a 290lb man? I'm almost 3 of you You know that you are always welcome to come down and visit Kentucky anytime. You could probably meet a few other people from elite that live in the direct vicinity while you are here.

ladyluck: thanks...and I know.

tripleV: 12" pipes huh? That's about what I started at. I have some pretty funny pics of them too. Your arms look bigger in your pics though.

Thanks...all

B True

 

[b fold the truth]

ZenMachine: If I had time to go out and be picky about women...then I could meet a few just as friends at least. Hopefully more time after my contest...much more.

I loved your situation there. When I went out last weekend all these little girlies kept comming up to me asking if I played pro football or was a bodybuilder. I said no....I'm just big boned. They laughed and said...no really...what do you play. Told them that I do strongman and was about to be in the North America's Strongest Man contest and they all kinda looked at me pretty funny. That's ok...not like I expect anyone to understand my need to pick up very large and heavy objects.

B True

 

[Hannibal]

When I went out last weekend all these little girlies kept comming up to me asking if I played pro football or was a bodybuilder. I said no....I'm just big boned. They laughed and said...no really...what do you play. Told them that I do strongman and was about to be in the North America's Strongest Man contest and they all kinda looked at me pretty funny. That's ok...not like I expect anyone to understand my need to pick up very large and heavy objects.

B True

"Never explain yourself: Your friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe it." Unknown

 

[tripleV]

Good quote Hannibal

anyways...

 

[AGENT SHAGWELL]

AGENT SHAGWELL: thank you girl. You know what you mean to me. Friends like you are hard to find. I know that my plate is full, and it seems to be the only plate that I am filling right now too. I hope that my time gets much better after my contest. I am going to do well at my contest, and friends like you, and everyone else on here, keep me motivated...and in tears.

Thanks all, and God Bless

B True

B fold....you know I got you back...even though thats one BIG back. You will be getting something in the mail to bring you good luck at your contest since I can't make it. But trying to get some peps I know to make it there

YOU WILL ROCK...and remember one thing...when you make it to World's Strongest Man Contest, and you get to bring one guest......IT BETTER BE ME DAMN IT!!!!!

 

[Stillhere]

Sometimes I think about being a bad boy. I definately could. Would never make me happy though. Being an honest to the bone guy doesn't seem to get you very far...as I learn.

B True

Right on the nail B!
Same situation here and to tell you the truth, I tried to be more social but I learned that It was a waste of time and money.
Stick to your trainning, and find a way to relax and ponder on life's mysteries.

 

[ladyluck]

Hey

Hey Agent Shagwell.......I already have dibs on the Worlds Strongest Man Contest Although if I am competing in the Worlds Strongest Women Contest too....then I would already be there so maybe B Fold could consider taking you. Lady

 

[b fold the truth]

AGENT SHAGWELL: I know you got my back...it's pretty tiny though. Well...you could hide behind it and no one could see anything but your big ol' butt...but my back would hide most of you anyways Invite you to the WSM? Dunno...could get me into serious trouble

Stillhere: Trust me...I've thought long and hard about being a bad boy lately. A girl will call me up and ask me to a party and if I do end up going...I realize that it is not me (at least not right now). Actually...I'd rather have a woman, not a girl, over for dinner and just sitting around and talking while playing with my dogs. An honest woman, interested in each other...honest...that's what I want.


ladyluck: Hmmm...directing post to Ms. Shagwell? Hmm...ouch...talk about scaring the heck out of me. Just never want to see you two go at it. Very rough brawl. Ya know..I truly believe that I can go to the WSM in the next couple of years and the thought that I'd have to choose would be too tough to bare. Ha ha...just messin. I'd just have to have 2 tickets. Talk about a tough plane ride for me...whew...could get rough Everyone would think I was the man with you two hotties around my arms though!!!

My 2 ladies? Hmmmm...could be good...or could be very bad.

B True

 

[Hannibal]

My 2 ladies? Hmmmm...could be good...or could be very bad.

B True

DANGER DANGER DANGER!!!!!

ABORT ABORT ABORT!!!!

 

[PHATchik]

DANGER DANGER DANGER!!!!!

ABORT ABORT ABORT!!!!

LOL

 

[ladyluck]

Hey

Hey B Fold....I wasn't meaning to start anything......I was just kidding around. Except......that ticket has been called for......has been for a long time. Why did I scare you? Didn't mean to......sorry. I know you can go to the WSM too....I am kidding about the tickets...I would never put you in that situation. Although it would be pretty fun! Tough plane ride.....do you really think I am that bad? Your 2 ladies......I agree with Hannibal....abort!!! LOL Lady

Have a GREAT DAY!

Hannibal.....LOL

 

[AGENT SHAGWELL]

Ahh I see how it is. And although it causes me to change my plans and find a new man to take me to the WSM, I'm glad its you Lady

So is Martin Muhr on here....babe I need a ticket

 

[b fold the truth]

Ms. Shagwell: so...you are only using me for a ticket to the WSM? ha ha. It would be difficult to sit next to your big ol booty on the plane. I can still picture myself in between ladyluck and AGENT SHAGWELL now. Just as long as the two of you didn't start drinking that dark beer and telling stories on me.

Martin who? I'll kill him someday. I don't feel that he will do well at the WSM this year...he did not do very well at the USA vs THE WORLD a few weeks ago. Sven did very well

B True

 

[ladyluck]

Thanks

Hey Agent Shagwell....I would approve of the two of us going...but I have made plans to go for awhile now. You will have to take it up with B Fold on getting that second ticket. Lady

B Fold...of course we would have to drink.... Can't miss out on free plane drinks. LOL Lady

 

[MattTheSkywalker]

B

How old are you? I am asking because you said you are taking classes, so I am guessing you are pretty young.

You seem to have determination, drive, dedication, and a lot of other really cool things. Trust me on this: these qualities will bring you more success both professionally and financially than anything else. I've been pretty far down and and stuck to what I wanted and believe in, kept working hard, and things got better.

Your experience with the girl looking into your wallet is irrelevant. You were buying a triple cheeseburger. What did she expect you to have on you?

The people you mentioned on the board are cool too. I've emailed SHAGWELL a lot and talked to her on the phone a few times - and she is great. Buksoon posts very intelligent stuff here and is obviously talented...Hannibal I don't know as well, but I live in North Florida now so maybe I should drop him a line.

Bottom line: it seems like you do more in a day than most people do in a month. Stick with it. I'm impressed.

 

[b fold the truth]

MattTheSkywalker : I am 24. Just at that age where I have friends that are making nice money and starting their family and I really can't relate too much to the kids that are still in school. I am just stuck in that age where things are getting very hard to deal with, relationships, social life, finances, family, friends, etc...and I don't know where to turn. I am always "up" but I have been down rock bottom for a while. Well...I go from bottom to below bottom, if you can think of it that way.

I have always been the person that has let everything just slide right off of my back, till lately. Just not use to this. My heart is torn in a few different directions right now and every decision that I make hurts several people. I hate to do just what makes ME happy, because it hurts everyone else. Hope that makes sense.

Ms. Shagwell is great. I might add that she is very beautiful, intelligent, and funny in person too. ladyluck I have known for years, very well too. She is a nut, we even have a son together. buksoon, she is crazy She sounds so hot-tempered on elite, yet talks so sweet on the phone. It's all an act. I'd also tell you that Hannibal is a nice guy...very nice...and a softy just like me...but I don't want to ruin his hardcore reputation

B True

 

[Hannibal]

I'd also tell you that Hannibal is a nice guy...very nice...and a softy just like me...but I don't want to ruin his hardcore reputation

Well that's just grrreat. Now everybody knows....can't anyone keep a secret these days?? It was fun being hardcore while it lasted

Matty....drop me a line man...I'm in Jax somewhere

Originally posted by AGENT SHAGWELL So is Martin Muhr on here....babe I need a ticket

If he aint give me a call...I'll go give B True a run for his money

 

[ladyluck]

Hey

Hey,
Lady= a nut? Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Lady

 

[MattTheSkywalker]

MattTheSkywalker : I am 24. Just at that age where I have friends that are making nice money and starting their family and I really can't relate too much to the kids that are still in school
B True

B

I know the age. I went back to school for a while and I hear you.

PLEASE don't worry about the money. That can change in a split second. It did for me and I can cite the quailities you exhibit (dedication, etc) as the chief reasons.

Hang in there. The good times will never go away.

 

[Laserdude]

I am ready to go over the edge. Economy, a asshole who injured me 2 years ago, and thinks he is going to get away with it. I think not. He is a convicted hacker who was convicted here locally and did the deed to Intel. His reasoning processes in doing so still amaze me and he is trying to get the money he owes Intel to undo the damage to there super servers, $68K thinks he should not pay.

What a piece of shit. You could most likely find him out as a "hacker prosecuted by Intel." on a web search. If you do find out, it is because he is a well known hacker. Go ahead and bomb his email. That should tie him up for awhile.

Have fun, I have had my share of ruining his chance of travelling outside of the USA. Potential cyber terrorist. I don't think he will be doing any more work out of the USA due to his convictions.

 

[saint808]

I totally understand your original post... I lost my mom earlier this year. I lost my dad 7 years ago... i am not even 30 yet, and an only child who is not close to any other family members. When I lost my dad I was only 21 and it hit me very hard, totally fucked up the relationship with the young lady I had as my girlfriend. Totally messed me up on several more levels... last year I started losing weight and feeling really good about life in general... I even went out on a semi-regular basis... everything was coming up roses. My mother got diagnosed with inoperable heart disease and 6 months later she passed on, 3 months after that (last month) I got laid off from my job. I recently met a girl who i really thought had potential to be the one, I even made her that big ass greeting card just yesterday... i just think she isn't the one, could be timing since i met her very soon after I lost my mother, could be a lot of things really... However not a week goes by where at some point I feel as if the dam is gonna break... Sometimes I don't know wether to break stuff or cry, but one thing I do know is that either of my parents if they were alive would want to see me in the condition I am often in, and neither would my friends (close ones... maybe 5 at best). So I know it won't help your siutuation to know that my life is not the best lately, but you can take solace in the fact that there are others out there that understand, and I will leave you with something my Grandmother used to tell us when I was little (she passed away when i was 16, and was the only one that lived long enough for me to know)... I cried because I had no shoes til I met a man who had no feet. Hope this helps some.


Rich

 

[Revenant]

I cracked a long, long time ago...

 

[dballer]

B,

I hope you are feeling better about your situation. It seems like you have quite a few friends on here!! That is good.. good friends are hard to find.
To give you my $0.02 on your thread... you seem like leaps and bounds above most people on this board. I am not much older than you, but it seems like alot of people do not even know what they want, let alone going after it full steam. It takes a real man to stand up to peer pressure and just "go home" ... to tell you the truth.. after reading your thread.. I felt like it was somthing I could have written. Meaning, we are in the same boat. Look at it this way, your ideals will not only help the world.. but your ideals may just save the world. I wish there were more people like you... I think it would save America's "Moral Value"

oh yeah.. take Badkins advice too.. he and the other guys think of you as friends... that is what it is all about!!
adios bro..