My stomach hurts so bad right now i can hardly type let alone think straight. I must have a million things racing around in my head. I am so terribly sorry for ever doing this i know it was wrong to ever do in the first place. Im going to try and explain everything from top to bottom as best i can. i feel like SHIT. Im going to try and explain why i scammed people, I was so f^cking dumb for doing this. I started about a year ago. Ive been studying steroids and bodybuilding etc for 3-4 years intensly, I know just about everything there is to know. I never posted too much on the boards, I just kind of sat back and learned everything. I think i was reading boards about 6 hours a day, no joke, for a couple years. Just trying to tell you where i was before i started this bullshit. I was working a shit job, making nothing and i wanted to try a cycle when i turned 21. Time was nearing in and i needed some money if i was to get my cycle in time. I decided to try to scam a newbie who didnt know any better. Honestly it took about 2-3 weeks of emailing people to get one. When i got that first package, i felt good when i opened it, when i looked at the money however i got this sharp pain in my gut kind of like i do right now, its like your stomach is trying to tell you something is wrong. I felt real bad about taking the money but once i sent it to a source and got my stuff, all was forgotten pretty much. Then i just kept doing it like a fucking idiot i am. I dont want to talk about this anymore, its getting really depressing. All I know now is i have to make it up to you guys. I want to send out a extra special apology to bradford nutrition. I used their name and may have damaged it. The owner of bradford nutrition has helped me realize that what i did was wrong. Im incredibly sorry for this. Im so fucking stupid for that, and everything. I cant think right now. Im just having all these f^cked up feelings and trying to type its very difficult so im sorry if i have gone off track in this email. Man i dont want to die over this, ill do what it takes to straighten this out, pay everyone back. It may take some time to pay it all back but i will pay it all back. I just want to get my life together, i dont want to worry anymore. It basically became an addiction and i realize the only way out is to come clean with everyone. I look like a fucking moron in this computer store, tears coming down my face. I think somehow i must have blocked out the part of feeling so bad for doing this to people and its all coming back full force. I dont know what to
do, i just dont want to die. Let it be known that i am sorry for what i have done and i will do what it takes to make this up to you guys. This is the most heartfelt thing i have ever put into words. I dont have much else to say right now all i can think of is how sorry i am and everytime i write that i feel a bit better but not much. i have to stop writing, go home take a tylenol and lie down and cry. i have nothing more to say right now, ive gone
kind of stupid. Ive just got a euphora of bad feelings that i need to take care of.
My apologies,
Eddy
do, i just dont want to die. Let it be known that i am sorry for what i have done and i will do what it takes to make this up to you guys. This is the most heartfelt thing i have ever put into words. I dont have much else to say right now all i can think of is how sorry i am and everytime i write that i feel a bit better but not much. i have to stop writing, go home take a tylenol and lie down and cry. i have nothing more to say right now, ive gone
kind of stupid. Ive just got a euphora of bad feelings that i need to take care of.
My apologies,
Eddy