Recent content by gorillahung

I've never stopped the TRT. I'd do a cycle then go back to my TRT dose. I'm not thinking clearly now, it's hard to explain going through benzo withdrawal. You just don't think clearly.

So, I swore off gear except for my low TRT dose. I take 50mg per week of test cypionate. However, my friend gave me 10 amps of sustanon 250 mg. Maybe I'll do 250 mg per week. I don't know. I'm going crazy from Klonopin withdrawal at the moment. I've been averaging 1.5 hrs. of sleep per night the...

Wrong. I had 3 state powerlifting championships and 12 or 13 years of lifting before I ever touched gear. The mistake I made was that I quit training completely for a while. When I started back I had lost everything. I then started blast and cruise.

I've been off of juice for a couple months I think. Here's what has happened. Bench down from 300 to 225. I've lost 1.25 inches of arm girth. I'm putting fat on my belly. I feel like hell (a lot of it is due to being taken off clonazepam after 27 years of it). My mental state has deteriorated to...

I'm a former competitive powerlifter and had torn both rotator cuffs in my early 30's

I've stopped all gear use and have lost all of my gains. A few months ago I could bench about 300 lbs. now I'm down to 225. I train with 185 lbs. Has anyone else just resigned themselves to working out to feel better mentally and not worrying about their gains? Maybe one day I'll do another...

My blood work has been very good. Cholestrol total is 116. HDL/LDL ratio is outstanding. A1C for diabetes is under control. The worst problem I've been experiencing is daily diarrhea. That's been going on for over a year. I've been screened for colon cancer. It's not cancer. I think I'm on a lot...

Earlier today I got a nasty chest pain lasting for about 8-10 minutes. I'm cutting out benzo use (klopopin). I felt weak and I got real light headed and dizzy. I honestly wasn't sure if I was having a heart attack or a panic attack. The symptoms overlap. I popped a xanax that I had left over and...

Too bad. Rich was certainly entertaining. I don't want to speculate about the cause but the bodybuilding lifestyle is not healthy.

I'm diabetic and use insulin at a low dose. There are times where I've gone hypo if I didn't eat at the right times. When you're hypo, a lot of things can go wrong.

It's disgusting. You have to have a severe mental problem to use that stuff. At least with roids you gain real muscle mass.

He choked to death? That's crazy.

Apparently Dallas McCarver passed away last night. Nobody has said if it was natural causes or an accident.

Yes, I have been all over the place lately mentally. I'm just going into worse depression because I've lost all my gains in a matter of a few weeks. Fuck. I'd better not decide to do anything at this point LOL.

I know I've sworn off gear as I had to abort my dbol cycle due to anxiety and panic attacks. Well, I'm already missing my gains. I'm coming off clonazepam right now so I won't be messing with anything else until I've recovered from that. I'm wondering if a less androgenic compound like deca...