i understand that steroids can be a solution to the problem. It takes a lot of energy and time to use them properly, to workout and to plan your diet. While u take time for it, u escape from your bad thoughts. In a few months, the separation will be only a memory and u will be able to go out...
i've done deca only cycle. I gained a lot of mass and strenght (30 pounds at the bench press). I did a proper clomid therapy but loosed all my strenght but kept some mass (maybe 2 pounds....).:(
injectable is less toxic than oral cos it pass through the liver just one time but as it's still a 17-methyl gear, so it's a way more liver toxic than other injectables.