I agree...if you're with someone you trust why not have a little fantasy fun? I have that fantasy...I don't think it means I need therapy...lol..I wouldn't want to be badly bruised and bleeding when I was done though!
OMG it's so frustrating to KNOW why you're freaking out and not be able to do a damned thing to stop it! Shit, I put the old man in the ground when I was 17 and there's still this little kid inside of me waiting for a thump upside the head.