1. Fired from job.

2. Packing.

3. Submitting address changes.

4. Packing.

5. Turning in cable box.

6. Packing.

7. Worrying.

8. Packing.

9. Crying.

10. Packing.

11. Got bit by dog (see thread below!)

12. Packing.

13. Saying good-bye to friends.

14. Packing.

15. Watching a lot of TV Land

16. Packing.

17. Talking to recruiters.

18. Packing.

19. Getting car serviced.

20. Packing.

That pretty much covers it. The movers are coming on Monday morning. I'm trying to get everything organized. As soon as my furniture is on the truck, I've got a 650 mile trek across the desert to my new life.

I know that change is scary, hell, I've lived that last decade of my life scared shitless because of all of the changes and uncertainties, but GOD, did I have fun.

Now, again in my life things are changing at the speed of light. Some things are very good and some, though I believe they will work out for the best (I haven't exhaled yet...and I won't be for quite some months to come.) have actually paralyzed me w/fear and confusion. Try taking care of four kids when you don't even know what planet you are on, all the while not allowing it to spill over to them so their little worlds don't come tumbling down too! THAT IS HARD.

But that has been my life for the past couple of weeks. And I am still here. Don't have a FUCKING clue where I'll be tomorrow, but what I DO KNOW is that because of the support of some wonderful friends, I think that I will be OK......better and stronger than I ever thought possible - that is, if I don't FUCK IT ALL UP FIRST.

Not to horn in on your thread May, just thought maybe if I let you know how much it has been "sucking" for me, u might feel better