Who would choose to be a failure?

[biteme]

My mother and I just had a conversation. She has been reading the book "A Beautiful Mind" and she is convinced that I am just like the man that the story is about. She wants me to see a doctor. One of my teachers once told her that I had the fastest mathematical mind that she had seen, yet to this point in my life I have been nothing but a failure. I cannot handle stress and cannot stay focused on anything long enough to be successful. Do I choose to be this way? Who would choose to be like me? All I want is to have a normal life. A good job that I can do well and enjoy doing it. I have no confindence that that is possible. I have managed to find ways to cope with my disorder. I take jobs that enable me to think without being distracted. Jobs that I can't fail at. I think way too much. It has taken me 38 years to finally admit that I have a problem. I have been thinking that this is just the way I am. But it is not normal and there are medications out there that can totally turn things around for people like me. I see now that there may be a way out, hope for a better future.

 

[HumorMe]

Take you mother's advice and get help. Going through life like that is no way to live. It's never too late to start fresh and try and better yourself.

Good luck!

 

[nevertoobig]

Someone forced to commit suicide.

 

[Drifter]

Damn, your story sounds almost identical to mine. Unfortunately for me none of the meds I've tried helped so I've pretty much given up on doctors for now. I will say though that you should see a doc and hopefully they can find something to help you. I had a close friend who made a drastic difference in his life with the help of meds. It could turn out to be the best decision you have ever made.

 

[nicknot]

I think it's allways usefull to get help wen you feel vulnerable.

try to think on realistic, short term objectives and work them with the help of someone.

work a lot

changing processes are hard for everyone. to change your way of bruching teeth is hard, to change your life is harder.

good luck

 

[HulkRow]

Im just Lazy, no excuses for me, im just plain lazy.

 

[beastboy]

I had a teacher tell me I was special!

 

[HulkRow]

I had a teacher tell me I was special!

was that after you said: "Im happy and angry"