Whats wrong with me?

[hanselthecaretaker]

I'm depressed, and it's not nearly the first time. I have had recurring depression for years. Antidepressants don't do anything anymore. I don't know what I want to do in college, never had a 'passion' for anything you can learn in college. But I'm going just to get a degree to 'get my foot in the door.' I could be out partying but that always ends, leaving me thinking how temporary good times are, and that they always revert back to the old grind. I'm tired of 'getting by' and want to do something big and interesting for a career, so it doesn't seem like a job, but my position makes it kind of difficult to get anything started. I don't have any ambition for girls, getting numbers and never following through. About all I want to do now is snowboard with a masochistic intent to get hurt.
I know this will pass in a few hours, but it will definitely be back again in a few days, like it always is. I don't mean to depress anyone else, just felt like letting this all out.

 

[Big Jroy]

Ask your physician about Lexapro, it will help you, garanteed.



Best of luck to you.

 

[Citruscide]

Wow... that's a downer after some good football...

If you don't have any ambition for women, I'm sure AAP can set you up with some Surfer boi's down in FL....

C-ditty

 

[biteme]

It's o.k. I've been that way for several years. I believe the theory that's it's a biological inherited trait. You will probably always struggle with it. Just keep hope alive. I don't know for what. I'm still trying to figure that out.

 

[Burning_Inside]

theres nothing wrong with you, you just are who you are. you may not be the standard model citizen like society would like you to be but o well.

 

[TxArmyGuy]

It's ok...Well hopefully if I go back to College this fall you could swing in and party with me some weekend...We can do some crazy shit that might hurt us

I'm always for trying something dangerous. You Sky Dive? I'm looking to start this summer, hopefully get my license by August if the weather up here in Alaska Permits...I'll be putting some of my bonus $$ into a Bike and some sort of sports car

like the Aussies say No worries

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

Wow... that's a downer after some good football...

If you don't have any ambition for women, I'm sure AAP can set you up with some Surfer boi's down in FL....

C-ditty

you can have em.

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

It's o.k. I've been that way for several years. I believe the theory that's it's a biological inherited trait. You will probably always struggle with it. Just keep hope alive. I don't know for what. I'm still trying to figure that out.

thanks man.

 

[biteme]

I don't even tell people when I'm depressed anymore. Some people will never understand if they're not prone to it. Then I get pissed when they tell me to snap out of it in a rude way, I just keep it to myself.

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

It's ok...Well hopefully if I go back to College this fall you could swing in and party with me some weekend...We can do some crazy shit that might hurt us

I'm always for trying something dangerous. You Sky Dive? I'm looking to start this summer, hopefully get my license by August if the weather up here in Alaska Permits...I'll be putting some of my bonus $$ into a Bike and some sort of sports car

like the Aussies say No worries

I live in MI, but skydiving is something I want to do sometime.

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

I don't even tell people when I'm depressed anymore. Some people will never understand if they're not prone to it. Then I get pissed when they tell me to snap out of it in a rude way, I just keep it to myself.

Yeah, and that's why it's such a fucking viscious cycle. You don't want to depress anyone else with your own misery, so it sort of owns you. Being around people helps, but it's always temporary. You just have to look forward to things you want to do.