Was it the test or what? (rage?)

[Steve The Bluesman]

** Note: I posted this is C&C, and didn't get many reposnses - may be more relevant here. **

Here is a little story.

On Sunday I walk down to my local meat market (like you know, steaks, fish, chicken,not a pick up joint.) to pick up some beef for the week. It is a couple of blocks from my house, it was a nice day, I was feeling good, and I like the walk.

Anyway, I get my food and I am in line behind another guy, waiting to put my stuff on the conveyor belt. Another guy is behind me as well. I start to put my stuff on the far end of the belt to avoid confusion with the guy in front of me - and when I finish, the guy behind me nudges me so he can put his shit down to. Impatient. I turn to look at him, it is some tweaked out middle aged ex-junkie with one arm covered in tats, about 5-5 150 lbs, but before I could say anything, he was off yelling at his crackwhore girlfriend and running to get another package of welfare previously frozen sausage.

Long story short, as soon as he nudged me I got a surge of anger and wanted to start banging his face against the nearest freezer...but lucky for him, he walked away, and the fury died down enough for me to see it was nothing.

Now generally, I am a pretty relaxed guy - I only bring this up becuase I don't usually react with such anger - but I am also in my 11th week of test. (No other issues like this except for minor moments of rage in the car in the past three months.)

Was it the gear, or just a bad moment? I wonder, becuase if it was something to be really angry about, say heroin freak shoved me, or pushed my wife, or something - then I don't know if I would be able to keep from beating him down hard, and asking questions later. I don't want to be that guy.

Thoughts?


Bluesman

 

[michaeltt]

i can only give you my personal experience. Test Relaxes the hell out of me. Almost to the point of zoning out alot. Its sort of a calming feeling.
On the other hand, the only thing i really notice that is similar to what you are saying is,
1. it gives me more confidence to voice my opinion. If something is bothering me, i will say it. it doesnt make me want to fight.
2. being heavy and lifting big weights gives you the confidence so that if you did get into a situation with someone, you have the added edge of confidence and strength. So maybe i wouldnt back down as easily. Which by the way is almost always the best thing to do, unless you are defending yourself.

3. some people tend to think people who have 'roid rage' are just immature and pricks, and now that they gained 20 pounds and bench 70 more pounds, they think, wow, i used to be a wimp. But i want to fight now, cuz im strong as an ox! some will say its because of the incresed testosterone or one of its derivitives. i think its a little of both. I leave my mind open to all possibilities.
Just remember, you can say something to someone without bashing their head in. in your case i would have told the guy not to touch me. and that would usually do the trick.
case in point. i was at the local taco bell with a girl i just started to date. yeah i know, a great place to bring her. we were standing in line and 2 black guys were being loud and one of them looked up my girl twice. i asked in a confident tone, Did you get a good look? Eyeing him so he knew i was offended. he apologized and said he thought he knew her. the girl behind the counter said to the black guy. You better watch out, or your going to get knocked out. i just smiled because i knew it was true.

 

[Steve The Bluesman]

I agree - but if I did say something in this situation, it would've been something like, "hey tweak, if you touch me again I will break your arms off and shove them up your ass." So I figured best to say nothing - besides, he wouldn't have have heard me, he was running off yelling at crackwhore to get more sausages.

I tell you though, I am almost glad it happened the way it did. Now I know that I have to be careful - that sometimes, maybe becuase of the test, maybe not, I can turn volatile in a hearbeat...now I can keep it in check a bit.


Bluesman

 

[mikey007]

Test can def put you on edge. It seems like Sustanon makes me more irratable than the others. Slightest thing just pisses me off. Its great!

 

[ryan04]

Seems like nobody wants to fuck with you when your on. I'm on a test/eq/dbol cycle right now and a couple weeks ago I was walking to class and passed by a group of guys. One of them started walking up to me and said "let me get a smoke joe". I said "are you asking me or telling me" and he said "let me get a smoke man". I took out a cigarette, acted like I was going to hand it to him then threw it in the bushes and said 'learn some manners mother fucker". He just stood there and all his boys started making fun of him saying "you just got punked" and this and that. I stood there for a second and just stared at him with that I'll rip your fuckin head off look on my face. He didn't do or say shit.
Usually I would have just ignored him and kept on walking...I got nothing to prove. That was stupid and I would have been thrown out of college if I got in a fight with him right there. But when I'm on the sauce it definately makes me more outspoken and unwilling to put up with anyone's bullshit.

 

[ALIN]

just my opinion roid rage is way over exagerated and just an excuse for someone to act like an ass.

 

[Apexx]

I'm sure that there are people who actually are effected by aas in the typical "roid rage" way. However, for the vast majority of us, I'm fully convinced that it's more of an ego/confidence/new bad ass attitude because of the new muscle thing.
I'm no exception, I tend to get a bit more cocky or short tempered when on and I'm positive it's not roid rage.

Here is a general example that I've seen on more then once. Take a guy who just put on 20lbs of muscle. When it's a confrontation with someone their size or smaller, they lose their temper very easily.......then blame it on the gear.
Now when it's a confrontation with someone MUCH bigger then them, or someone that they are intimidated by, they aren't as quick to lose their temper.
My point is, if they really suffered from "roid rage", it wouldn't matter how big the other person is they would flip out in either situation.

Now, I'm not saying that anyone here would back down in that situation or that anyone is really a pussy without gear. Don't take this post personally.

 

[timtim]

i get irritable and short tempered when on but i have yet to fly off the handle and get into a confrontation.

 

[Steve The Bluesman]

i get irritable and short tempered when on but i have yet to fly off the handle and get into a confrontation.

I have yet to fly off the handle too - and it is only very rarely that I get irritable - but boy I tell you, tweak hit the right button...that's why I was worried about it.


Bluesman

 

[Dr. JK]

I can tell you from personal experience that it's probably a combination of things, i.e. confidence, feeling jacked, ass-hole bothering you and a bit of rage.

Juice will bring out your personallity more. So if you are not like this usually don't worry. Just try to take it as a learning experience and try to take out the emotion, like instead bashing his head against the freezer right away ask him "why did you nudge me"?. Sometimes people don't know what they are doing.
I know it's easier said than done but it works!

Peace