Look around bro. No one here wants to be blamed for some kid messing him self up, thats why no one is willing to help. We dont know your age, yrs training, cycle history, and dont know that your even educated on aas. I had to go through what your going through, so dont feel bad. I'll tell you becouse its not hard to find that 100mg tren every day and 50mg-100mg test prop every day. I would lookup anti estrogens, and inhibitors before even getting serious about doing it.