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Ok so I'm a little bored so I'm gonna just do a big blog of a post here...
I get a lot of PMs from people asking about me and my girlfriend.. wondering if we are back together, how did that happen, what about the things I said about her seeiming like a different person, how many chicks did I bang while I was single, etc.
So yes, we ar back together. We started talking in November (we broke up in June). It was apparent that she had feelings for me still. As much as I tried to ignore them or forget about them I still had them for her. I guess I didn't do a very good job at getting over her.
So we talked for about a month, she nearly had an emotional/nervous breakdown a few times. She went to counseling, so did I. Basically she came to the conclusion that she broke up with me because she was afraid. Afraid that she was too young to be serious, afraid that she wasn't experienced enough to know when "it" was "it"... she was afraid that she didn't know what love really was.. that type of thing.
So I was dating the whole time, and during this month we were talking I was dating a pretty cool REALLY hot chick. It allowed me to stay a little emotionally distant from my ex and give her space to figure shit out. I think subconsciously this really helped. I wasn't throwing myself at her feet and she eventually came around. We got back together officially in December. Things have been great, we spend a lot of time togther the sex is better then ever and our communication is open and better then ever as well.
As for my single time, it was a fun experience, I had dated 3-4 nights a week. I signed up for match.com which was a cornocopia of poon tang. I had friends setting me up with friends, met people when I was out, it was pretty awesome. I found that I wasn't really able to get emotionally close to anyone though, mainly because thoughts of my ex were in my head, but I met some good gals, had some wild sex, and really re-built my self esteem and ego from scratch. The breakup really left me feeling near worthless.. I hope to never tie my self esteem and ago to the validation of ONE person like that again.
So that is that. Elsewhere in my life....
Fitness has been a big part of my life forever, I was first a runner, soccer player, baseball player... tried wrestling even. I was a skinnier dude and not strong. About 4 years ago I started lifting, I found EF and I actually learned how to eat and train. I went from 165lbs to a current high of 215.
I kinda feel like shit being this big now. I'm 12-13% BF... which isnt too much, I have visible abs, but I feel sluggish. I'm used to being more lean and agile. I'm going to continue bulking for a month longer. My lifts now are at all time highs and people comment all the time on how big I am. That part is nice. I plan on starting cutting April 1st and getting to about 7% BF. Hoping to save most of this new muscle mass but I will loss some I am sure. I have a 36in waist now which sucks, i'm normally a 34 when I am lean
some of my shit don't fit right... especially the fancy designer jeans and shit I pay so much for.
Work is work. I am a Programmer Analyst. I'm close to my next promotion which would make me a Senior Programmer Analyst. Pretty good for 28 years old. I make great money, but in San Diego it doesn't go far because a 1 bedroom condo is $300K+. Thinking about moving to phoenix in a few years, but for now I am tied here because of some pretty lucrative stock options. Work is kinda boring as of late, but I work for a large fortune 500 company and its full of corporate politics and inefficiencies. They have always taken care of me though, this June I will have been here 7 years. Started here in college making 8.50 in 1998.. now make nearly 4 times that.
I may want to do some more schooling. I have a B.S. and M.S. now but an MBA or Ph.D. has always interested me.. I still hold on to a small sliver of hope to maybe one day be a medical doctor too but I feel that every year that passes puts that more and more out of reach.
I am leaving today for a weekend trip to Mammoth California for some snowboarding. My first trip of the year. Normally by this time of year I've gotten a dozen days in, this year is a slow one. I have a trip to Whistler B.C. in March as well, however they have gotten NO SNOW this year so that trip could very well be a waste of a couple grand.
Things here at EF have been fun. The Bomb Squad thing served its purpose and provided for a bit of entertainmnt. I'm amazed at how my karma has jumped like 20K points since that all began, it really got me more involved in EF (for some in a negative way). I made some new friends, and a couple enemies, but hopefully didn't piss anyone off too much. Its been a while since I've met up with anyone from EF, last summer I met a big bunch of guys including Dial_tone, razorguns and Sorearms.. hopefully we can do another SoCal meetup like that this year.
I'm looking forward to this summer. Can't wait for beach season here in San Diego.. I'll be bigger then I have ever been and I have never had a hard time getting lean and cut. Add in a little tan and I am all set.
My birthday was on Tuesday which was fun, I got a digital camera so I hope to start posting pics regularly of little things here and there.
Oh I learned a new song on bass this week too, green day song... I dabble with guitar and bass and have been trying to practice piano more lately as well.
Ok thats about it for now, not that anynoe of you cared, but thanks for reading anyway.
I get a lot of PMs from people asking about me and my girlfriend.. wondering if we are back together, how did that happen, what about the things I said about her seeiming like a different person, how many chicks did I bang while I was single, etc.
So yes, we ar back together. We started talking in November (we broke up in June). It was apparent that she had feelings for me still. As much as I tried to ignore them or forget about them I still had them for her. I guess I didn't do a very good job at getting over her.
So we talked for about a month, she nearly had an emotional/nervous breakdown a few times. She went to counseling, so did I. Basically she came to the conclusion that she broke up with me because she was afraid. Afraid that she was too young to be serious, afraid that she wasn't experienced enough to know when "it" was "it"... she was afraid that she didn't know what love really was.. that type of thing.
So I was dating the whole time, and during this month we were talking I was dating a pretty cool REALLY hot chick. It allowed me to stay a little emotionally distant from my ex and give her space to figure shit out. I think subconsciously this really helped. I wasn't throwing myself at her feet and she eventually came around. We got back together officially in December. Things have been great, we spend a lot of time togther the sex is better then ever and our communication is open and better then ever as well.
As for my single time, it was a fun experience, I had dated 3-4 nights a week. I signed up for match.com which was a cornocopia of poon tang. I had friends setting me up with friends, met people when I was out, it was pretty awesome. I found that I wasn't really able to get emotionally close to anyone though, mainly because thoughts of my ex were in my head, but I met some good gals, had some wild sex, and really re-built my self esteem and ego from scratch. The breakup really left me feeling near worthless.. I hope to never tie my self esteem and ago to the validation of ONE person like that again.
So that is that. Elsewhere in my life....
Fitness has been a big part of my life forever, I was first a runner, soccer player, baseball player... tried wrestling even. I was a skinnier dude and not strong. About 4 years ago I started lifting, I found EF and I actually learned how to eat and train. I went from 165lbs to a current high of 215.
I kinda feel like shit being this big now. I'm 12-13% BF... which isnt too much, I have visible abs, but I feel sluggish. I'm used to being more lean and agile. I'm going to continue bulking for a month longer. My lifts now are at all time highs and people comment all the time on how big I am. That part is nice. I plan on starting cutting April 1st and getting to about 7% BF. Hoping to save most of this new muscle mass but I will loss some I am sure. I have a 36in waist now which sucks, i'm normally a 34 when I am lean
some of my shit don't fit right... especially the fancy designer jeans and shit I pay so much for.Work is work. I am a Programmer Analyst. I'm close to my next promotion which would make me a Senior Programmer Analyst. Pretty good for 28 years old. I make great money, but in San Diego it doesn't go far because a 1 bedroom condo is $300K+. Thinking about moving to phoenix in a few years, but for now I am tied here because of some pretty lucrative stock options. Work is kinda boring as of late, but I work for a large fortune 500 company and its full of corporate politics and inefficiencies. They have always taken care of me though, this June I will have been here 7 years. Started here in college making 8.50 in 1998.. now make nearly 4 times that.
I may want to do some more schooling. I have a B.S. and M.S. now but an MBA or Ph.D. has always interested me.. I still hold on to a small sliver of hope to maybe one day be a medical doctor too but I feel that every year that passes puts that more and more out of reach.
I am leaving today for a weekend trip to Mammoth California for some snowboarding. My first trip of the year. Normally by this time of year I've gotten a dozen days in, this year is a slow one. I have a trip to Whistler B.C. in March as well, however they have gotten NO SNOW this year so that trip could very well be a waste of a couple grand.
Things here at EF have been fun. The Bomb Squad thing served its purpose and provided for a bit of entertainmnt. I'm amazed at how my karma has jumped like 20K points since that all began, it really got me more involved in EF (for some in a negative way). I made some new friends, and a couple enemies, but hopefully didn't piss anyone off too much. Its been a while since I've met up with anyone from EF, last summer I met a big bunch of guys including Dial_tone, razorguns and Sorearms.. hopefully we can do another SoCal meetup like that this year.
I'm looking forward to this summer. Can't wait for beach season here in San Diego.. I'll be bigger then I have ever been and I have never had a hard time getting lean and cut. Add in a little tan and I am all set.
My birthday was on Tuesday which was fun, I got a digital camera so I hope to start posting pics regularly of little things here and there.
Oh I learned a new song on bass this week too, green day song... I dabble with guitar and bass and have been trying to practice piano more lately as well.
Ok thats about it for now, not that anynoe of you cared, but thanks for reading anyway.
