ketamine addiction
The call was made. A monotone voice on the other end of the line exhaled one word that made his heart jump as if he had won the state lottery; "yes." This was all that mattered. His vision of the world had become reduced to this event, this substance, this relationship. He had felt this feeling of anticipation and nvervousness and the inablility to control his excitement for too long: 48 hrs. After an eternity, he heard a knock at the door. His heart leaped and he hastily opened the door to the figure who had become his "best friend." Quient exchanges and greetings were made. He was forced to create small talk with a sliver portion of his brain that was not obsessed with what was to come. The remaining 95% of his mind was screaming "LEAVE." Quickly the money was passed. It was not an issue, after all, who of these so called "normal people" would not exchange a good portion of money for a well deserved vacation? After what seemed like hours, the man departed. A shiver of excitement ran through him as he anticipated the next few moments and he began his ritual which he knew so well. The shades were drawn, the light bulbs extinguished. He had four candles which had endured his many ups, downs and dreams with him. He lit these on at a time. Also, his lava lamps which held a special place in his heart were illuminated. After this, he implored his cd player to bring to life the Trance music that had so accompanied him on his many journeys. Lastly, he marched to the bedroom to find his second best aquiantence, his belt. The buckle clinged softly with each step that he made. Frantically he searched the closet in which he hid the needles and happened to find an unopened pack- what luck! He ripped the bag open like an animal to extract the beautiful contraption- 28 gauge, one half inch, 100 iu- it brought a smile to his face. He longed for the needle almost as much as he longed for the pleasure it would hold shortly. After taking off the orange cap, he pulled the lifegiving brown vial from his pocket. Rapidly he turned the vial upside down and inserted the needle into the grey rubber and beyond. Slowly, ever so slowly, he drew the fluid into the syringe. It smelled slightly of alcohol. 10, 20, 30...slowly the increments filled. He passed the average dose, 35, and kept pulling past the heave dose, 70. Finally at the magic number 90 he stopped. This amount would surely disable any normal human for a good duration of time. For him it would be a ten minute ride. He quickly withdrew the needle and frantically ran to his most inviting leather sofa. He had left one lone lamp shining in order to view his target area. He shook his arm down and tightened the belt. His most popular spot stood out obediently even though it was black and blue from use. The music built to a crescendo as he pierced the skin ever so slightly. He was a master at this and did not go through the vein. He had learned that the skin offered a little resistance but once he was in, no resistance was offered at all...it was like an air pocket. He pulled back on the plunger ever so slightly and watched with satisfaction as his blood pressure forced the liquid to cloud darkly. The injection was painless. He started to feel his mind elevate but tightened the belt to slow it's effect in order to not impair him past the point of being able to extinguish the lamp. Very gently he set the needle down on the coffee table and kicked his feet up. With a bairly audible click the light was gone. He let the belt fall. A very distinct taste, one he now craved more than love or life, hit his mouth with such force that he literally shivered. It was only a matter of milliseconds before the noises started to mesh together with a high pitched whining sound. Suddenly, without warning, his body sank deep within the couch, past the couch, and he was ejected into timelessness. He was flying with rapid speeds through space and time, yet he was more relaxed than ever before. At this point, he began to think that his body had parished and he had gone to the afterworld. This did not frighten him but rather invited him in. He wondered what purpose he served in staying on earth amid the worries of life, job, and money. He was free now. After some contemplation, he realized that he was in hope that he had passed away. However, it was not to be and he slowly began to become coherent. Still moderately induced, the candles actually danced pleasantly to the rythm of the music and took on personalities. They demanded his gaze and captured his attention. After they lost their luster and he was sober enough to have a steady hand, he clumsily reloaded the needle. The liquid was slightly discolered this time due to previous blood residue left in the chamber. Again, he chose his sweet spot which was a little sore but entirely bareable. After some time he came to notice alarmingly that the vial was essentially empty. He did not know how but scraped and pinched for the last golden drop. Unfortunately, this last little bit was not enough to put him entirely under and he slowly came to grips with the sad reality that the end of his vacation was over. He reluctantly forced himself to stand and stumble to the bedroom where he fell asleep. The alarm found him groggy and barely able to function. After some caffeine pills he was able to clean up from his escapades the night before and prepare for work. At least his clothes options were limited to long sleaved shirts. He would somehow make it through this monotonous routine called "everyday life" only in hopes of experiencing the "real life" very soon. Another day dawned.