Some thoughts about BBing and life.

[concordsize]

Lately I have been thinking a lot about my goals and what it will take to achieve them. I also am constantly being reminded that my health is indeed at risk…. I started doing aas when I was 18 weighing a near 178lbs. Six years later and uncountable amount of cycles I am weighing a near 260lbs and comfortable 240lbs naturally.
My goals have changed a lot through the years as I matured and smartened up. I first wanted to look like the cover of flex magazine and actually still do BUT I am not prepared to put my health on the line like that, sooo…. Now my goals are more realistic. I plan to continue competing locally and at some point make it to a national level comp and stop. I now think more about a possible family in the future and am unsure if my use will have an affect on that happening. Will that stop me from using? NO and im not sure that, that decision is sane.lol
Two years ago one of my work out partners had a brain aneurisms after doing squats. The man was only 42 years old. The nicest guy you could ever meet. He was that guy that gave you modivation when you had none, a true gym warrior and competitor. He is now in a wheel chair and can hardly speak. I don’t have the guts to ask him if it was all worth it. His closest friends and I always say it was his blood pressure it was this it was that. Bull shit it was his constant pounding of aas and that was it! At times I feel im doing the same thing but not doing anything about it. As I look back over the years I look at guys like: Flex Wheeler, Don long, Mike Mataz, Tom Prince, Paul Demao, Don Young blood, A guy over on Mayhem named masswithclass, my boy Mike, and many others going down in the name of Bbing, whether they have passed away or not. In some way there life has changed for the worse.
Im not saying that all of us are at risk for health problems but im saying that some of us are damn near heading in that direction, I for one am one of them and am trying to figure out how to achieve my goals and then being able to fill this Bbing void which will have to happen. Some day I will be happy with a low dose of test and gh and be happy for the rest of my life, but until then im not slowing down! If anyone else has some thoughts of this nature please post up. Just wanted to put some thought on paper that I have before I gear up for 2006 contests.

 

[sparetire]

just out of curiousity, your buddy who had the brain aneurism at the age of 42, how big was he? The reason why I ask, are guys who are exceedingly overweight (not in a fat way - but a muscular way) and are over a certain age are usually prone to this sort of health problems. I mean, look at that one guy who was almost 400 pounds of pure muscle and only 33 who died. Whether it's 400 pounds of fat, or 400 pounds of muscle, that kind of weight puts a serious stress on the heart, brain, veins, etc...I think if you aren't overly excessive with your gear and you aren't freekishly huge like ronnie coleman, i think you'll be alright in the long run.. But I think, personal opinion, when you're pushing 2+ grams per week, on hg, you're gonna have some serious health problems in your future.



just my .02

 

[muscleup]

great post concord, and goodluck in this years season.

 

[sandman_007]

Many of the pros i believe are on similar cycles- or continous cycles. Ronnie Coleman is 40 years old or so as well- although i haven't read about his real cycles (and only about his sponsering of "NO XPLODE or whatever that is) i wouldn't be suprised if many of the top pros are on many grams of gear per week. It is true that one has to wonder about side effects of such large doses of gear, especially as the body undergoes the aging process.

 

[GH Head]

Wow this is a first - I've always wanted to make a post like this but I realize most of the readers have no idea what you're talking about. Especially when I see - I'm running 400Mg Deca with 500 sust .....
obviously new users who have no idea what they are getting themselves into. This is a serious thing, and some people will do a few cycles and walk away and others will make a career of this. ME - doing this since I was 21 I am 37 now. Wow . Started like everyone else. 2-3 cycles a yr. if that. Around 27 started taking more and more and staying on longer - 32 discovered GH and have been on that ever since sometimes for a yr. or longer!!! Hence GH Head . I am on for 7-8 months of the yr. and off for about 5 - but even then never truly off. You know the old maintenance dose. I don't compete and have a certain way I like to look - lean all yr. round and around 210 -225 at 6'0 - At 37 I look pretty damn good. Less than 10% BF all yr and summer time 5-6%. The GH thing is as much for BBing as it is for maintaining my youth. People are amazed that I'm 37. Nobody I mean nobody has ever pegged me for my age. GH is that amazing.
ANyway I question what I'm doing all the time - my friends are all younger than me and all jacked up juice heads running around NYC clubs with their shirts off and at Neptunes on the weekends. I know my age and I'm married so that happens very infrequently. WHat I'm trying to say by all this is that this can run your whole life if you let it. This is an obsession make no mistake about it. And I don't think it will ever end for me. Sad.
I feel it has held me back in many aspects of life due to the fact that instead of focusing on getting ahead I was too focused on this crap. Still am. Don't get me wrong I am still very successful (it costs a fortune to stay on Gh all yr) I just think I could have gotten even further.
When I think of stopping its just not an option - I don't want to look like everyone else and seriously without the juice working out is a total waste of time - just look around the gym - those that don't - look the same - FOREVER!!! I'd rather stay home I'd have so much more free time! I get a high off people telling me I look great or someone who says - what the hell are you doing?- especially people my age or older.
What does all this mean - it means this - keep a proper perspective on all this and don't let it run your life. Face it - most of us will never win a show or turn pro or anything even close. Even if you did whats really in it for you - 5 yrs of half ass fame, destruction of your health, and then what do you do when its over? Open a gym?
To all you newbies think about what you're doing b4 you do this - bigger muscles is just one tiny part of the whole equation.

 

[musclemuscle]

Life is a taystey serial....it is low in sugar too

 

[Outtlaw]

In anything you do you have to assess if it's worth the risk. To be a pro bodybuilder, you know you're gonna have to do and take certain things that could have potential health risk. Just like if you race superbikes, you know that every race you put your life on the line, and that race may be your last. At the end of the day you have to decide if it's all worth it.

 

[concordsize]

Spare tire- My friend was training for the southern states, he was weighing 230 at 5'6. He stayed about the same weight all year.

Gh Head----Speaking about friends and other people my age who juice... IMO i thing bbing is the most narcolistic sport around. I see guys in the grocery store sporting 19' arms with their head in the air when they pass a female. GET REAL you thing she cares about your arm? She is 3 isles away and is thinking about her rich husband. Most people you see in the gyms and involved in the sport are plain self-absorbed and self obsessed. And the good guys in the sport wonder why the general public has disgust with bbers. I could go on and on about this topic but its not what this thread was about---

Basically guys out there that read this who are getting into the sport to be a pro remember. These guys are pros because of their mom and dad. They also put them selves at a great risk for health problems. This might not sound like a big problem, but when you want to settle down and live a normal life the last thing you want to do is go to the dialysis center. I help some guys here locally with contest prep and I hear them say all the time- “what ever I have to do”- I just kind of look at them for a minute with a dull face and say OK. I usually think for a while after that if he will be saying the same thing in 30 years.

 

[theslime]

This is a bit depressing. Wish I had not read it. Youre right about many points concord. However, when I was 20 yo, a training partner who was natural and looked healthy (170 pounds, 5'8), also had an aneurysm when doing deadlifts. You never know what can happen, you can die or get severely injured at 30 in a car accident for example.

I love working out and I love steroids. Apart from providing more gains, they can make me train harder and recover faster from injuries. In other words, they make me able to do more of what I like, of what makes me happy. Aren't you supposed to do what makes you happy? My priorities might change but I feel like if I like something very badly, I should as well to it to the maximum and give it my all. Thinking about the future is important, but you have to enjoy the present too. Of course, you can still be careful and get your blood tests, but man I just want to be the biggest and lift the heaviest weights my body will allow me to.

 

[NYBodyguard]

Gh Head----Speaking about friends and other people my age who juice... IMO i thing bbing is the most narcolistic sport around. I see guys in the grocery store sporting 19' arms with their head in the air when they pass a female. GET REAL you thing she cares about your arm? She is 3 isles away and is thinking about her rich husband.

Shes thinking about her husbands money and about ther muscular guys cock.