My life is upside down :(

[nzbro]

heya
I dont know most of you So just excuse me if im going hay wire
Well to break it down
Myself and my girl friend have been together for 5 and half years
We lived in south africa spent the last 2 years in the uk
and she wanted me to move to nz
We where apart for month well i was still in the uk
THen went back home to south africa for a month so 2 months in total
In these 2 months i thought something was up
Got to nz 3 days later she broke up with me (4 good reason)
reasons being
We sort of just become freinds neva holding each other sex life become like a few times a month
I really got annyoed with her all the time over stupid shit
she didnt like me smoking weed all the time ect...
so we live together in nz sleep in the same bed
We show more affection to each other then we have eva before
She was the most loyal person in the world *sort of How high do you want me to jump*
i neva appricated what i had till she broke up with me
we have more sex then we did in the last 2 years
But shes scared to get back in a relationship
We both only 20 and 21(me)
neva had any other partners
But we have so much in common so comftable around each other
Like where "soul mates"
Shit got out of hand we lived and worked together in the uk so it was hard

Now i feel lost like i dunno what i want anymore
now she's like i dont want to be how i used to be that you where everything in my life that she lived only for me , did everything i said (which in my mind makes so much sense But my gut feeling ) fucking hates the idea

sorry to rant just dunno what to do
iv been in nz for almost 2 months now only getting my work permit on monday so iv just been chilling to much time to think ect...

Sorry to rant Just feel like im all alone in this world

Take care
Peace

 

[wootoom]

your still young bro. everything will be ok. i dont know what to tell ya.move on with your life. or make it work if you really love her

 

[nzbro]

shit thing is that i have to live with her for the next 5 years for my residency permit
South africa to fucked up i need out
We still do get on so much its crazy relationship betta then its eva been
But i cant take this shit of not knowing what gonna happen tommorow
If that makes sense

 

[JayC9]

your 21 she's 20 so you met her when she was 14

dude it sounds like you've had a good run and ended things amicably

move on and enjoy being young

 

[nzbro]

yeah shes about to turn 21 meet her when i was 15 "Fucking internet"

 

[PBR]

why put a label on the experience and the relationship....just go with it, for what its worth...does it have to be "something" for it to be what it is?, going on, right now.
soulmates perhaps....let it ride- not many get to.

 

[nzbro]

im just sick of people bullshit about high school sweat hearts neva make ect..
These are the same dam people telling me at the gym dont do dead lifts use the smith machines ect..
steroids make your dick shrink , roid rage ect....
9 yr old girls are abusing roids ect..
What wrong with the world we live in i dont know what to belive anymore
I smoked weed I didnt go insane , i took steroids i didnt become ronnie coleman
I feel like there are a few minded people left in this world and they all on the i-net

thanks for the replies

 

[SoreArms]

I'm in love with a malicious intent

 

[nzbro]

I'm in love with a malicious intent

 

[BrothaBill]

im just sick of people bullshit about high school sweat hearts neva make ect..
These are the same dam people telling me at the gym dont do dead lifts use the smith machines ect..
steroids make your dick shrink , roid rage ect....
9 yr old girls are abusing roids ect..
What wrong with the world we live in i dont know what to belive anymore
I smoked weed I didnt go insane , i took steroids i didnt become ronnie coleman
I feel like there are a few minded people left in this world and they all on the i-net

thanks for the replies

Try DXM, its better than weed and I know its available legally in NZ. My brother in Law taught med school over there for awhile.

As for the relationship thing, just decide what you want, what she wants is irrelevant in that matter, dont consider it for sake of making a decision. And Im not saying that she is irrelevant, Im saying for the sake of what you want, figure it out, a decision based on you alone, YES or NO. If yes, then formulate a strategy on how to win her back. If No, then separate, put a period on the end of the relationship and move on. You obviously on some level want that to be a yes, but through introspection alone will you arrive at your answer. You must be firm in what you want before any action or decision makes sense and only then will advice help you