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matto18
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i'm in a definite pickle right now and need some quality advice. i am originally from lawrence, kansas (where KU is) but am attending ISU in Ames, Iowa. when i was deciding on a college, i never really considered KU. my sister went to ISU and made it clear that i was NOT going to an in-state school. she wanted me to get out and away from everyone in high school. unfortunately, i slacked off bigtime in looking at colleges and came down to only 2 to choose from: UT in Austin and ISU. i was accepted into both, but UT gave me no scholly money (and my parents are on a VERY TIGHT budget) while ISU gave me 6 grand a year. my best friend from home was going to ISU and my sis was too, so, of course, i chose to go to Iowa State (even though i hate cold weather with a passion). the summer before going to college i finally hooked up with a girl i'd been wanting to date for years. after two weeks of school though, things went sour, and that nympho dumped me (she's a complete headcase), but during the summer i bonded bigtime with her best friend (who also happened to be my best friend's girlfriend until the beginning of that summer). that whole troubled relationship sparked my depression from years past and kicked my ass hardcore during the fall. well, around november my ex-gf's best friend (whom i came very close with) visited me at ISU, and we wound up hooking up and began dating. still, even with things getting better, my depression has continued ever since. i don't feel that i belong here in a state school, as i feel i'm an extremely liberal person. the fraternity i joined is fun half the time, but the committments it entails are hindering my grades and i don't feel very close to those in my pledge class. i get along much better with the seniors and fifth year guys, which sucks cuz they'll be gone next year. i did become VERY close with another freshman from chicago, and we hung out every night (smokin jays, shooting the shit, that sort of stuff). unfortunately, the depression bug bit him in the ass too and he just called me thismorning to tell me he is staying home and not coming back to school. also, the girls in ames aren't the hottest bunch in the world, and those that are have all been snatched up. everyone here is also really conservative and i just don't want to end up as a stereotypical frat guy with a plain looking chick stuck in a permanent winter. this sucks. i had always planned on leaving ISU my junior or senior year to go to KU and try to make contacts if i wanted to go to KU med-school. now i am really trying to decide on whether to transfer home or not. i just want to make a decision that isn't based on my relationship with my new girlfriend... one that will be in my best interest. anyone have any advice or any tips? i'm sorry that this post is so long, i'm just real fucking confused on what i should do right now...
