lost cause

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If only the good die young - I'm gonna live forever ...

 

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i ain't got time for bitches

 

[Lifter4Life]

What bitchs, whats going on?

 

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[Lifter4Life]

 

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so much to say, so little time
it's ok, maybe u werent meant to understand

 

[Lifter4Life]

Apparently not..

 

[Lifter4Life]

You seem alittle wacky DL, is your state of mind altered? I'am a bit altered right now.

 

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beer. damn it.
but i posted this sober
i hate beer, really.

 

[Lifter4Life]

Xanax over here. Its the only buzz I enjoy.

 

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bleh
fuck xanax
well, thats my opinion
it never did anything for m e

 

[Lifter4Life]

I've tried it all and now xannies are all I do from time to time and this is one of those times.

 

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one of those times?
i haer ya,.
i wouldnt mind a shot of ketamine in the ass, but you know, chardonnay will just have to do for now... :/

 

[Bikini Mod]

I am with you Dread.... I will live to be 101 wearing my miniskirts. I intend to die fucking a thiry-something year old stud on the bathroom floor.

Wish I was high.... wait a minute. I have just filled a script for painkillers!

 

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heh, bikinimom, will u go out with me? come on, it's harmless


for real though , i completely forgot what i was about to say

In this world without harmony
Where there's no peace and there's no sanity
I can still survive and survive peacefully
Until that moment when you crash down on me

'Cause I'll
I'll hate you better

You better watch how you direct your hate
Or you'll receive part of my natural trait
Before you send off you just better wait
'Cause I ain't got time not to retaliate

I'm not trying to threaten or to deceive
I'm just enlightening you so you won't be naive
I'll tell you one thing that you better believe
My hate is better to give than receive

 

[Bikini Mod]

In a heartbeat bella!.... In a heartbeat!

 

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hawhaw,,
i was talking about u tonight
how hot u are
anyway, my mom was listening in to that converstion we had
shes jealous of u cuz she thinks u are a barbie girl@!!!
LOL!!!

funny stuff...

i luv u BM
u my hero

 

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This ain't my imagination
Lost all thoughts and concentration
Time goes on day after day
But still If feel the same fuckin' way!
Feel like shit, deja vu!

Always feeling out of place
Hiding behind a smiling face
There just ain't no pretty words
Can't you see it fuckin' hurts!

You know I feel like shit-deja vu
Feel like shit-deja vu
And when I feel like shit I feel like shit

 

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this sounds silly
but im about head over heels for a chinese guy i net online
ive known him for over 6 years now
i swear, we shoulda been together all along, but dread lord messed that up by saying the right things wehn i needed to hear them

yeaaa
i will speaking chinese soem damn day
he is from hong kong, going to college in michigan right now, going to transfer down here next spring
he is the most awesom guy ive ever known
w00t
didnt think iwould ever really find it in me to love again, but i honestly never forgot about him even when i was with dread lord
i knew the chinse guy much longer than evil man anyway,
gives me something to look forward to
my mom HATES the idea of me being involved with another guy i met off the internet ( yeah, i actuslly met dread lord on the internet, big failure that was) but my dad is cool with it since he has talked to my beau a few times on the phone, etc,.
very very very genuine nice guy
dread lord is a very mean, vengeful person, not what i am looking for
this guy is addicted to love, not porn and his ex wife like dread lord
and this guy is my age .. whoo..
sorry , had to share

 

[Bikini Mod]

I feel your pain babydoll... I feel your pain. More than you will ever know M.... more than you will ever know.

Keep your head up, you are young and have your whole life ahead of you. Be smart and love yourself girl. You'll be ok.

 

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I AM HAPPY
I AM NOT DEPRESSED

for ONCE in my life i can honestly say tht
NO things are far from perfect, but thy are working out
that in itself is exciting

things going from constant stagnation to LIVING MY FUTURE as i want it to be, is awesome.
even if i have no ida what my future holds, which i don't really, it's so eciting being asble to look forward to things whereas i had nothing to look forward to with dread lord.. he had his dillusions, but i didn't. andonce i was out of school, well, that was it for me

i have a feeling he won't be prosectured for his crimes , especially if i a off the hook too, so that is still a concern
but i'm looking at leaving the country eventually, whether i want to or not
my parents refuse to accept any idea of that sort, and won't let go of me again like they did. i understand that, but this can't go on forever ...

 

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i apologize for my awful typing tonight
too much alcohol on the brain
but not enogh to get a good buzz