Milhouse
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Alot of the reasons have been bugging me lately and one thing is that post I had up about financial security yesterday.
I had a real problem with it back when I was in my early 20's and quit for 1year back then and for 2 and half years up until mid 1998.
Started out as a social thing then in 98 when I was on the road traveling and has been on and off until springtime this year. Weekends and weekdays started intertwining and even though I dont do it everyday I always seem to polish off 15-25 on an average night out.It's a wonder I have had some fucked up relationships since last November.I work out and take supps but my body is telling me to stop as is my mind.
I figure whats the point tp move up in the world. The bigger my income gets the more I do. I blew approx $4500-5500 after tax of my bonus money since mid june plus unaccounted for hundreds of dollars a month on my regular average income. And I don't so drugs unless they were passed around for free.There are tons of things in my life that I should be doing for fun and haven't.Thats alot of beer in bars and buying 24's at the store.
Pretty good for a supposed bodybuilding lifestyle eh? Craziest part is I lost 65lbs of fat since Feb 2000 without really dieting.
I don't know why I am saying this on an internet board. I don't want sympathy or a pat on the back. I just want to tell my story and sometimes the best way to achieve things in life is to tell the world your intentions so you honor what you say.
This is not something I have just woke up and decided this morning. I have been dealing and thinking about this for weeks, since August which for a 3 week period including my vacation I think I was straight for 3-4 days.
I just turned 32 and before I was not ready to say fuck it. Now I am.
I think it's time I started acting like the person I should be rather then the person I have been.
I had a real problem with it back when I was in my early 20's and quit for 1year back then and for 2 and half years up until mid 1998.
Started out as a social thing then in 98 when I was on the road traveling and has been on and off until springtime this year. Weekends and weekdays started intertwining and even though I dont do it everyday I always seem to polish off 15-25 on an average night out.It's a wonder I have had some fucked up relationships since last November.I work out and take supps but my body is telling me to stop as is my mind.
I figure whats the point tp move up in the world. The bigger my income gets the more I do. I blew approx $4500-5500 after tax of my bonus money since mid june plus unaccounted for hundreds of dollars a month on my regular average income. And I don't so drugs unless they were passed around for free.There are tons of things in my life that I should be doing for fun and haven't.Thats alot of beer in bars and buying 24's at the store.
Pretty good for a supposed bodybuilding lifestyle eh? Craziest part is I lost 65lbs of fat since Feb 2000 without really dieting.
I don't know why I am saying this on an internet board. I don't want sympathy or a pat on the back. I just want to tell my story and sometimes the best way to achieve things in life is to tell the world your intentions so you honor what you say.
This is not something I have just woke up and decided this morning. I have been dealing and thinking about this for weeks, since August which for a 3 week period including my vacation I think I was straight for 3-4 days.
I just turned 32 and before I was not ready to say fuck it. Now I am.
I think it's time I started acting like the person I should be rather then the person I have been.

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