Hello again, been a while

[Shaitan]

*Warning* Selfpity filled post *Warning*

So was 2 years since I posted on this board. Have gotten weak and sloppy due to a worthless relationship thats about to end, and have the "take my revenge on the world" feeling I used to get before this relationship.

Im afraid Ill start abusing drugs again, the easy way to happiness. Alot of people I know still do it and its way to easy to just join the crowd. On the other hand I just know that I let "them" win by doing that. So instead im considering some insane cycles in the future, just focusing at looking my meanest/best possible with the genes I have.

I just have to get started on training again, will try to train clean for a year atleast before going into a cycle. I know I should wait longer but fuck that.

So in the meanwhile I would like some advice from you guys. Maby you have had a selfpity period, and came up with a good idea on how to endure?
I got together with this girl shortly after my brother committed suicide, I think much of my feelings for my brother was transfered into this relationship, and I feel really scared to think about a life without her.

Actually feels a bit better just to have typed this post... Anyway any advice you have is very welcome, even if its the most obvious things.

 

[Gymgurl]

Not a man...but Welcome back

 

[Shaitan]

Not a man...but Welcome back

Haha, thanks I guess.
Like your sig

 

[blueta2]

All I can say is keep posting and keep talking about it.
It's tough when you hit a rut to try to get out, but you must be resilient and take it day by day...I know it's sounds like typical advice, but really baby steps is what it takes to come out of any rut.
FUCK the drugs...don't do it! Drugs are for wimps and weaklings! Fighting the good fight and staying clean the right way is for strong soldiers!
Sorry to hear about the end of the relationship, but sometimes we need to just move to the next level......good luck and keep posting

 

[Shaitan]

Thanks for your support, in the back of my mind I know what I should do and what not, but its always a relief to talk about it and read other peoples views.
Much appreciated!

 

[heatherrae]

*Warning* Selfpity filled post *Warning*

So was 2 years since I posted on this board. Have gotten weak and sloppy due to a worthless relationship thats about to end, and have the "take my revenge on the world" feeling I used to get before this relationship.

Im afraid Ill start abusing drugs again, the easy way to happiness. Alot of people I know still do it and its way to easy to just join the crowd. On the other hand I just know that I let "them" win by doing that. So instead im considering some insane cycles in the future, just focusing at looking my meanest/best possible with the genes I have.

I just have to get started on training again, will try to train clean for a year atleast before going into a cycle. I know I should wait longer but fuck that.

So in the meanwhile I would like some advice from you guys. Maby you have had a selfpity period, and came up with a good idea on how to endure?
I got together with this girl shortly after my brother committed suicide, I think much of my feelings for my brother was transfered into this relationship, and I feel really scared to think about a life without her.

Actually feels a bit better just to have typed this post... Anyway any advice you have is very welcome, even if its the most obvious things.

Surround yourself with nice, supportive people. Replacing the draw for drugs with exercise is very, very wise. I will say a prayer for you. I wish you lots of love and luck and happiness.

 

[stilleto]

welcome back

you won't like my advice... grow some balls, shut the fuck up, leave the drugs alone, face your adversity head on, and train.

 

[Shaitan]

welcome back

you won't like my advice... grow some balls, shut the fuck up, leave the drugs alone, face your adversity head on, and train.

Yeah well, I didnt ask for you to feel sorry for me, or treat me like a broken fool. I dont mind "in your face" advice, they have a good effect at times.

/edit some

 

[stilleto]

oh, and good luck. i mean that.

 

[blueta2]

welcome back

you won't like my advice... grow some balls, shut the fuck up, leave the drugs alone, face your adversity head on, and train.

What are you talking about? Have some balls!
This guy has enough balls to post his feeling and look for answers to want to feel better. That takes A LOT of balls in my eyes!
Being male doesn't make you expemt from the healing process!

 

[stilleto]

What are you talking about? Have some balls!
This guy has enough balls to post his feeling and look for answers to want to feel better. That takes A LOT of balls in my eyes!
Being male doesn't make you expemt from the healing process!

who said it does? The healing process does not have to include drugs unless you're weak willed.

 

[blueta2]

who said it does? The healing process does not have to include drugs unless you're weak willed.

no, no, I agree with that, that is why I did not comment about that..I meant the have some balls comment!
The dude is trying...that is awesome!

By the way, your avatar just made me puke up a little in my mouth..haha !

 

[stilleto]

no, no, I agree with that, that is why I did not comment about that..I meant the have some balls comment!
The dude is trying...that is awesome!

By the way, your avatar just made me puke up a little in my mouth..haha !

nice.