fighting the monster... depression.

[saint808]

Can you actually win this battle? SSRI's are given out like candy these days and to be honest they rarely work. I feel it creeping up my spine and to my brain. Thinking and over analyzing things. Focusing on small things and overlooking the bigger problems that everyone faces. Not leaving the house on days off. Skipping the gym. Not hanging around with friends. Hobbies are nil.

The secret to being happy is to just be happy. Fuck the guy who said that...
Therapy is a joke. Psychologists are the most fucked up of all people in my experience.

maybe it is honestly just me who is fucked up... my thoughts don't seem to be like everyone elses. Maybe I just care too god damn much about other's feelings when mine constantly get hurt. I just hope that in the next life things will be different, but considering the fact I am totally atheist I have no reason to believe anything other than the fact trhat I am here and eventually I will be gone.

Rant over.

 

[KillahBee]

how cna you be so selfish?! didn't you hear what happened to Johnnny???!!!

 

[WODIN]

Coffee, b12, b complex and breakfast!

 

[Smurfy]

Thank god for my son and for Lumberg, or i see myself heading in that same direction.

 

[Ish]

Don't worry, be happy.

 

[saint808]

i'm just sick of the fight to be honest.

 

[*MissFit*]

im with killa.. i still have some tears for poor lil Johnny Boy

 

[H_T_]

i can let myself fall into that from time to time.

 

[KillahBee]

i'm just sick of the fight to be honest.

I can't really give too much advice here, as I have no background with depression, but won't it be much worse without the fight? I am sure it is very difficult, but you gotta keep your head up through these things and keep fucking pushing. Otherwise, you lost.

 

[Y_lifter]

Seriously,
Take a 2 week wilderness hike all by yourself..

Reflect, Think, and learn to love yourself and your B.O. as it was meant to be.

 

[Bikini Mod]

i'm just sick of the fight to be honest.

A thought that crosses my mind practically every other day....

 

[Razorguns]

change everything around you, and automatically everything will change about you too.

"Every day above ground is a good day."

 

[saint808]

i'm not suicidal or anything like that (well at the moment). Just feel like I am losing this fight. It's getting worse... has to be a reason behind it and that is what is frustrating because I can't find a solid reason for it. Sure I am having IRS problems and facing bankruptcy but money is just money and it comes and goes. My relationship with my GF is stronger than it has been in a while. I feel like fucking jekyll and hyde.

 

[Spartacus]

cycle the anti-depressants

 

[BrothaBill]

SSRIs help alot of people and are the first line medication. There are many other medications available if they fail. So if someone stops after SSRIs then they are being proactive and taken responsibility for their own health. Getting psychiatric help from a primary care doc doesnt cut it if you have serious depression. A psychiatrist a physician who specializes in these treatments and can get the meds situated. The studies indicate that this combined with cognitive therapy ie psycholists are the best way to beat depression. Get the help you need in a serious and constructive way, life's too short to be in your position as you describe.

 

[hammercurls]

take some x

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

I'm not gonna make it, but I hope you do...

 

[Growth&Courage]

I'm too stressed out to give a proper advice now but at the very least change your cognitive thinking style. Your perception & attitude too needs some serious changes.

Do what Y Lifter suggested - reflect, think and learn to love yourself through a some kind of a holiday break. It will be existentially rewarding and therapeutic.

 

[hanselthecaretaker]

Prozac.

 

[Spartacus]

if you're mired in a situation which is the cause of the depression,then meds will only mask it
some of us are prone to "chemical" depression
and when you are in a "bad way", the down feelings are magnified

I remember asking a doc for trazodone to help me sleep more thoroughly
she also prescribed luvox
I filled the luvox script,but didn't take it as I knew of the sexual sides
one night while not paying particualr attention,I took TWO luvox at night instead of the trazodones
the next morning I popped up out of bed like toast
didn't need any coffee,was ready for the world
it was then I realized that I was really chemically down
what a difference
so now I go on and off

 

[GoldenDelicious]

everytime i get depressed, i go and find a mirror

for everyone else, i suggest you do the opposite

 

[BrothaBill]

everytime i get depressed, i go and find a mirror

for everyone else, i suggest you do the opposite

Im not joking, I was with a friend in a bookst and he picked up selfhelp book. The page he turned to was becoming comfortable with yourself, they were saying that one, describing how and the benefits of, getting a mirror and examing what your asshole looked like to help with selfawareness.
Never tried that GD, but if it works for you, more power to you.

 

[GoldenDelicious]

Im not joking, I was with a friend in a bookst and he picked up selfhelp book. The page he turned to was becoming comfortable with yourself, they were saying that one, describing how and the benefits of, getting a mirror and examing what your asshole looked like to help with selfawareness.
Never tried that GD, but if it works for you, more power to you.

yeah well <fabio voice> i have the most bautiful asshole in the cosmos <end fabio voice>

 

[Spartacus]

everytime i get depressed, i go and find a mirror

for everyone else, i suggest you do the opposite

the picture of dorian grey

 

[nikolai_bolkov]

f$#K all these chemicals!

you need to meditate, every day, 1/2 hr each time to start

I would suggest seeking out a zen center to help you initially, it can get overwhelming at first

 

[Spartacus]

f$#K all these chemicals!

you need to meditate, every day, 1/2 hr each time to start

I would suggest seeking out a zen center to help you initially, it can get overwhelming at first

I don't think so nikolai
"true" chemical depression requires meds
I remember when I read of Janet Jackson being depressed
and this was at a time when she was significant

 

[saint808]

ironic i find tyhis post while in a stage of insomnia... i think i think too damn much

 

[fistfullofsteel]

Hang in there chief.

 

[Spartacus]

ironic i find tyhis post while in a stage of insomnia... i think i think too damn much

that's not irony

 

[biteme]

Can you actually win this battle? SSRI's are given out like candy these days and to be honest they rarely work. I feel it creeping up my spine and to my brain. Thinking and over analyzing things. Focusing on small things and overlooking the bigger problems that everyone faces. Not leaving the house on days off. Skipping the gym. Not hanging around with friends. Hobbies are nil.

The secret to being happy is to just be happy. Fuck the guy who said that...
Therapy is a joke. Psychologists are the most fucked up of all people in my experience.

maybe it is honestly just me who is fucked up... my thoughts don't seem to be like everyone elses. Maybe I just care too god damn much about other's feelings when mine constantly get hurt. I just hope that in the next life things will be different, but considering the fact I am totally atheist I have no reason to believe anything other than the fact trhat I am here and eventually I will be gone.

Rant over.

Saint, klonopin takes care of my depression. Maybe you should try it. Fights anxiety and depression. Kill 2 birds with one stone. I was much more depressed at times when I was younger than I ever get now.

 

[Spartacus]

Saint, klonopin takes care of my depression. Maybe you should try it. Fights anxiety and depression. Kill 2 birds with one stone. I was much more depressed at times when I was younger than I ever get now.

effexor

 

[FreeballinDC]

Saint,

As someone who has been through the whole thing, all I can say is: It worked for me.

I will probably be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life. The rollercoaster ride of deep depression followed by good moods is finally over. I haven't felt this good in a long time.

Plus, the weekly group sessions helped bring out what was really bothering me, and I am much more able to deal with my issues day to day, as well as long term.

I am sorry to read that you journey to help yourself has been rough. I hope you can find a way out soon!

 

[Ulcasterdropout]

I need to get some meds.