no, i do not feel I lack the "maturity", I am just in an environment where, if I stopped drinking, people would know something was up, and the aas is something I am trying to keep quiet, I am in the fraternity house, so there are non stop parties here, so every so often, I feel the need to partake in them, but as far as the water goes, I try to keep up the hydration level while drinking. I am doing sust and eq by the way.