Does this happen to you too?

[g-dogg]

I'm not competing anytime soon and have to be as big as possible for a new job and I have this battle all the time--one day I want to eat everything in sight and weigh 315 lbs, the next day I try to eat clean and stay tight, I will NEVER let myself look like a slob but I want to go one way or the other--HUGE or big and lean-I already have a bad-ass girlfriend so I don't care about getting pussy anymore--do you ever go through this kinda thing?

 

[ZKaudio]

welcome to my world... cutting or bulking.. teh ultimate question. i think i could sum it up with, I want to cut while eating like i'm bulking

 

[g-dogg]

welcome to my world... cutting or bulking.. teh ultimate question. i think i could sum it up with, I want to cut while eating like i'm bulking

Exactly, I hate this shit--I eat all my good protein (steak, chicken, whey, etc.)-good carbs-then I say fuck it and eat everything else, I'm about 300 lbs and can still barely see my abs, I could easily get to 310 or 315 if I wanted to, like I said, I really don't care about my waistline right now-what should I do?

 

[jc21]

i know exactly what you mean...sometimes i just want to be as big as possible. but when i am bulking i want to look cut...but when i am cutting i feel small cause i dont feel out my shirts as well.

 

[Beezers]

I go through this every hour on the hour. I'm 262. The top four abs are there along with "hazzy" serratus, it's just the lower abs and obliques that makes me wonder sometimes if I should just go ahead and bring them out at the expense of more size, or if I should just be content and continue on my quest for mass. I drive myself f**k'n crazy. I like my size and love the challenge of getting bigger, but as a bodybuilder there is always that nagging little Arnold on my shoulder telliing me..."detail, deffinition, quality". I always eat clean, just a countries worth of food, and because of that I have been able to grow to a rather large size of humanity while staying lean to general standards. But we bodybuilders can do better than general standards can't we? 9%, though lean, for us is just an average day. We can do better. I had a few shows planned so that little Arnold on my shoulder had me all fired up and ready to diet down and see what lies beneath. Things happened, shows were canceled, and I had no show to do, so what would be the point in dieting now? Why not continue on my journey to freakdom since there was no point in "bringing out the intercostals"? But I still was going thorughn the one day mass mentality the next day detail mentality. I was running in circles getting nowhere. I'm proud to say I do this entirely for me so the only factor influencing my decision is me. I don't do it to strut around the beach, or a club with no shirt on. I don't do it to grab the laddies eyes. I don't do it to intimidate anyone. Bodybuilding's just my passion. So I sat down one night not too long ago to contemplate my path and needs in my bodybuilding. Nothing but a dim light and a silent room...and later on a posing mirror. I get the "god damn looks". I get the "how do you get big" questions. I get the compliments about my size. Everything seemed to be size, size, size. Apparantly in others eyes I was big. To my eyes I'm not and that's the problem. I realized I was afraid to diet not because of the commitment and work, but out of genuine fear of loosing size. I busted out the posing mirror and had a good ole pose down. But this tiem I recaptured those other peoples voices and thier words of compliment. I tried to see myself how others do. It was when I hit the front lat spread to sperad my "wings" that I unconrollably said, "god damn". I am big. Then I went into my mind as I posed. Into my bodybuilding infected mind. Once i realined there was mass there I began looking in more detail. I couldn't help but think, " I wonder what that would look like completely tight and dry?". "I wonder how the striations on my tris would be?". I decided it was time for a change. I'm not dieting now. I'm not even cutting. I'm refining. I'm detailing. I'm now sculpting from this block of mass I have to work with. I was getting tired of myself going back and forth between goals every damn day. It was interfereing with my motivation and foccus. One minute I'm massive the nect I'm small. One minute I have detail the next minute I resemble jello. I couldn't train like that and for it was getting nowhere. I'm glad I came to a decision. For at least 12 weeks I'm "cutting". Regardless of how small I FEEL I will continue forward. If I end up at 240 then so be it. It'll be a fun new challenge. Bodybuilding is multi-dimensional and I thing us bigger guys sometimes loose track of that reality. It isn't jsut about size though that is a large part of it. It isn't just about detail and leanness for without size it is unimpressive. It's the mixture and it's sculpting that physique that we are addicted to.

 

[g-dogg]

Beezers-How clean are you eating right now? How do you normally eat for pure size?

 

[Beezers]

meal 1
3 scoops Isopure MRP


meal 2

16 egg whites

1.5 cups of oats



meal 3

10oz. chicken

8oz. sweet potato



meal 4(post training)

3 scoops whey

1 soar(110g maltodextrin)



meal 5(30 minutes later)

3 scoops Isopure MRP

55g maltodextrin


meal 6

10oz. chicken

8oz. sweet potato



meal 7

12oz. tuna

2 cups of brown rice

1 tbsn flax oil

1 cup bell peppers



meal 8

7oz. salmon

6 Broccoli spears



meal 9

12oz. tuna

2 cups of brown rice

1 tbsn flax oil

1 cup bell peppers



meal 10

1.5 pounds of cottage cheese



cals: 5935

pro: 593

carb: 680

fat: 80

 

[g-dogg]

Goddamn you eat clean in the offseason, what kinda sauce do you put on your chicken, don't tell me you eat that shit plain



















12oz. tuna

2 cups of brown rice

1 tbsn flax oil

1 cup bell peppers



meal 10

1.5 pounds of cottage cheese



cals: 5935

pro: 593

carb: 680

fat: 80

 

[bigAragorn]

g-dogg if that is you in the avatar which i think if i remember correctly you said it is, then i would like to think you are already quite monsterous and i can tell that you have very good quality density and seperation to boot.

why fuck with the waistline....there is nothing more impressive in my books then "mass with class" and it looks like you already got an "X" frame....

just my opinion

b.A.