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You know....
The holidays have always been a difficult time for me (childhood). A deep sadness has always been a part of this time of year for me and now that I am an adult I am trying so hard to accept it.
This will be the first holiday that we will not be living under the same roof as a family - the first time we will have to "divide up" the girls - the first time I will not have to deal with in-law BULLSHIT (wait a minute, that is a GOOD thing! hehehe).
I am starting to become afraid and depressed. Two of my girls will also be having their birthdays soon. I am trying to keep it together, but with each passing day it becomes more difficult.
I find myself retreating into myself just a little more each day... It frightens me. No, I am not talking stupid stuff. But still, I don't know how I will be able to have the strength to hide my deep sadness for this time of year along with all of the other sadness that is the result of this ugly drawn out divorce.... How will I not pass my sadness along to my children and try and make the holiday special for them? I want so much to make them happy, but I just don't know if I will be able to pull it off.
I mean, I did ok on Halloween. I made them their costumes (which they LOVED and appreciated) and I even managed to dress up (Halloween is my FAV holiday).... but my girls knew that all was not well because I didn't carve goofy jack-o-lanterns or decorate much at all. I don't even feel like getting a tree!.... I will though, I will pull it together somehow - I HAVE TO!...
I have a few very dear, very supportive friends that will pound my ass and a sister and family who love me no matter what.... and, of course, the girls are the center of my universe....
I'll be ok. I know I will.
The holidays have always been a difficult time for me (childhood). A deep sadness has always been a part of this time of year for me and now that I am an adult I am trying so hard to accept it.
This will be the first holiday that we will not be living under the same roof as a family - the first time we will have to "divide up" the girls - the first time I will not have to deal with in-law BULLSHIT (wait a minute, that is a GOOD thing! hehehe).
I am starting to become afraid and depressed. Two of my girls will also be having their birthdays soon. I am trying to keep it together, but with each passing day it becomes more difficult.
I find myself retreating into myself just a little more each day... It frightens me. No, I am not talking stupid stuff. But still, I don't know how I will be able to have the strength to hide my deep sadness for this time of year along with all of the other sadness that is the result of this ugly drawn out divorce.... How will I not pass my sadness along to my children and try and make the holiday special for them? I want so much to make them happy, but I just don't know if I will be able to pull it off.
I mean, I did ok on Halloween. I made them their costumes (which they LOVED and appreciated) and I even managed to dress up (Halloween is my FAV holiday).... but my girls knew that all was not well because I didn't carve goofy jack-o-lanterns or decorate much at all. I don't even feel like getting a tree!.... I will though, I will pull it together somehow - I HAVE TO!...
I have a few very dear, very supportive friends that will pound my ass and a sister and family who love me no matter what.... and, of course, the girls are the center of my universe....
I'll be ok. I know I will.
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notpuff -
I don't want another guy... I want to be happy for myself, BY MYSELF FIRST!... I just don't know if I have the strength.
Besides, I have four children... what kind of man will be with me? I don't need that. I need to fix my head, heal my heart and love my girls.
Dude, you will be ok. There are plenty of wonderful girls out there and it will fall into place. REALLY, IT WILL!
I don't want another guy... I want to be happy for myself, BY MYSELF FIRST!... I just don't know if I have the strength.
Besides, I have four children... what kind of man will be with me? I don't need that. I need to fix my head, heal my heart and love my girls.
Dude, you will be ok. There are plenty of wonderful girls out there and it will fall into place. REALLY, IT WILL!
bikinimom said:
WHAT?!?!? what kind of guy would want you??? i would say what kind of guy wouldnt want u?? with or w/o 4 kids.... ur still a great gal BKM...dont talk like that
i thought i read u had a nice guy hangin around ya...makin u smile and "stuff"
. well...either way... ur going to be just fine. ur fuckin BKM. and yea...i hate the holidays too....bad memories...too much junk food around...the list goes on....we're not alone.
this is a grim statistic but its true....suicide rate is at its highest during the holidays. now THAT is sad!!!!!
at least we all have elite... smile
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I totally dread the holiday season. I had a shitty childhood and was always the black sheep of the family. which later on in life I have accepted. I wish I had someone to cuddle with during the holidays, or even have SOMEONE for that new year's kiss, ya know? I have always been alone, well, not with my family for the holidays by choice because I was exiled since the 8th grade... I am 24 now...
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