Depression

[Austin316]

Does anybody else have bouts with this shitty "disease?" I've had mild on again off again bouts with it since I was 12. I know I don't get it real bad most of the times, and I try and beat it down and ignore it when it creeps up, but sometimes it just gets the better of me and I start feeling empty, lifes pointless,etc,etc. Right now for instance I just feel shitty, I hate where I am in life, and I don't know how the fuck to change. I don't think I can be happy till I fulfill a certain number of things, Im barley ever content. Of course Self image is up there, Im my own worst critic, and it sux, thats what BB is for and Ive gotten better at it. Whatever, its hard to write what Im feeling right now, and maybe the clomid is intensifying my moods, but Im just dissapointed with myself and what Ive "achieved" in life as of yet.

rant over

 

[smallmovesal]

i thought i was better after i quit school in january... and i did get better but then i had a "triggering" incident last month and now i'm going on my third week of drugs because my sister (a doc) made me go to the doctor. i'm suffering from a lack of sleep too because of the symptoms. anyway, yeah i hear what you're saying... loud and clear.

 

[Austin316]

One other thing, Fuck alchohol!! I drank for the first time in three months tonight and I know its what set me off. I didn't get drunk, just buzzed. I should've gotten hammered because when Im only buzzing I start to think, and right now Im thinking about how much I hate where the hell I am right now. I need to start over, I wish I had gone away to school. Hell, Ive only got 3 real friends left since high school, the rest are gone, and I havn't spoken to my fucking BEST friend of 12 years in a year and a half, no fight or anything, just lost touch. Now alls I have left is three friends and a bunch of people I "know" and am cool with. I need to move and restart, if not out of state/city/etc, then out of my goddam house!!

 

[jennifer BFL chick]

depression is a part of life for most people. I know I go through it here and there. Sometimes there are days when you just don't want to get out of bed and face the world, but you have to........fortunatly, I havn't felt like that in a while. But I know how it feels to hate what your doing with your life, hate where you live, hate, hate, hate---and it SUCKS.

There are ups, and there are downs. THats the way life is. Part of being depressed is the thought that everyone else has a much better life, and is much happier then you are. But look at alot of celebrities---alot of them are BEAUTIFUL, have awesome bodies, have tons of money, fans, and anything else you can dream of-----but still, alot of them become depressed, or even comit suicide.

To be happy, its not about "being something" or "having something" its about realizing the life is not always easy, and to keep looking for the positive.

Sorry to hear your going through this......it sucks, I know.

 

[smallmovesal]

i think you need to make like me and go try to sleep....

 

[nikolai_bolkov]

Dude, life is kinda skitty, when you really think about it. I'm not really content, even though i've worked for some of the best companies in my field (finance, NYC) slept with some truly gorgeous women, traveled around the globe etc. It's easy to slip into the mentality of thinking "what's the point anyway".

Just take one day at the time, set up some short term goals you really would like to achieve, and feel good about looking the best you can. Sometimes, simple things like a walk in the park (strolled through Central Park today as a matter of fact) will lift your mood.

Just recognize that things are the way they are, and it's life just to deal with it.

 

[absolute hardgainer]

Did you know that depressed people on average die 20 years younger?

That should cheer you up!

hardgainer (major asshole)

 

[ceo]

depression

If I could offer some suggestions.

1)Affirmations: Positive things about you. They may or may not be true, that doesn't matter. They should be things that are good that if they aren't true, you want to be true.
Here's what to do. Write down a list of these positive "statements" and read them ALOUD to yourself twice a day (morning and night), and anytime you start feeling down.
Here are a few examples.
"I set goals and I reach them! I know what I want out of life. I go after it and I get it!"
"People like me and I feel good about myself. I have a sense of pride in who I am and I believe in myself."
"I can do anything I believe I can do. I've got it and everyday I get more of it. I have God given talent, skills, and ability."
"I know I can accomplish anything I choose, and I refuse to let anything negative hold me back or stand in my way."
etc...
Remember even if you know they aren't true, don't let that stop you. Your mind is like a computer and you need to reprogram it, it will believe what you tell it.

2)Develop a GOOD reading habit. Read good, positive "self-help" type books. Even though you may think these are "corny" they improve your outlook on life tremendously.
Anything by these authors:
Og Mandino
Napoleon Hill
Dale Carnegie
Check out your local bookstore's "Self-Help" section.

3)At the same time, avoid negative! This means negative anything. Most things we hear about in the news are negative, and let's face it, these things aren't common or "the norm". If we saw as many murders in real life as we saw in one night of TV, we should be walking around seeing murders every day, right in front of us all the time. So what if you can't talk to your co-workers about how awful that child rapist was they heard about on the news last night. Man no wonder society is depressed!

These are just a few suggestions. You can choose to implement any or all if you wish. But, I guarantee if you implement them and stick to them they will work and you will beat your depression.
I cannot stress the importance of the affirmations especially!! When you read them read them emphatically!!! With emotion and great belief!! Before long those will be the thoughts going through your head to combat any negative thought trying to enter!

Good Luck and feel free to email me for more examples of affirmations or a more defined reading list. I have tons of this type of material!
[email protected]

 

[satanic goatslayer]

#1) The amount of friends you have means nothing. You could have 75 friends, but if they're all cocksuckers, who cares?

#2) Go to the local mall. Observe the people within this mall. HONESTLY compare yourself to them. If I had a salmon, I'd bet that you look 20 times better than 95% of them.

#3) Listen to Styx

#4) Add Olympic lifts to your routine.

#5) Find the nearest hobo, gut him with a jack knife, play cat's cradle with his intestines and lasso the nearest prostitute with his gutbag.

Buck up, things always get better. Fuck, you could be me.

 

[HelenSL]

Hey Austin316 i'm sorry to hear that...

In fact I'm diagnosed Bipolar Oh and epileptic as of the end of last year. Would like a second opinion on that (the epilepsy diagnosis) but my ex-psychiatrist who added that diagnosis won't send my records or even return my calls...go figure...

Most of all i find it helps to try to keep a sense of humor about things...and keep stuff in perspective, like SG says - after all you could be him!!! (Hey he said it...i am just echoing what he said!!! )

But sometimes nothing helps, does it?

If you are given to suicidal thoughts pls be safe, tell someone. Better not to do something you can never have 2nd thoughts about... it usually gets better, after all...and then it's good to be alive, again...right? My head knows that even when the rest of me is terribly confused ...

I've written on my site about being Bipolar, to some extent...

love
helen

p.s. one comment, SG...that could be a good friend if you are the one whose they suck...? Hey it's only a different version of 'footwashing' right? Christlike?

(that will REALLY be appreciated by the Christians here )

 

[Mdguy]

Everybody, no matter how bubbly and lively they appear in front of others, goes through this on occasion...it's life
Many good posts before me but here are a couple of things you can do:

a) get out of your residence for awhile; an afternoon, a couple of hours. Staying in the same place will reinforce your thinking about all of this stuff. Get outside in the sun and be active-push yourself-it releases endorphins
b) As somebody said before, don't read or watch any news! It's amazing how it changes your mood.
c) Do something to release your frustrations, if you have any. Write a letter to yourself, go yell them out, anything!
d) Be around people-doesn't matter who they are and you don't have to do anything with them
e) Try something new in your life; go to a new place, read a new interesting book, talk to somebody new-it'll reignite your faith in the future

Hope this helps...keep looking up..and remember no matter how bad things appear to be for you there is always somebody MUCH worse off than you. Be fortunate for things you do have in your life like your health, family, a computer, a bed, plenty of food, etc.

 

[danielson]

i used to have a tight group of friends, except now ones seriously whipped and has become a complete wanker, the other and i had a HUGE falling out but were getting back to being what we were and fairly rapidly, another isnt around and ddoes a lot with his uni friends....i also get the opinion i cant trust my uni friends, it takes years before i can trust anyone....still i havent really kept in touch with them either.....AND i cant grow fast enough, any weight im putting on is with fat, im ariad im getting some sort of skin condition on my forehead and i was feeling naseaus, got better but when i was like 96% better took some peptobismol (why did i do that) and now i feel like total shit again. its getting better but i still get that quesy feeling and its that damn pepto stuff.

but the cool thing is ucan always chat anonymously on here, its one of the tyhings i like most about this board....and if ur tight with those 3 friends, keep em tight and they will be bros for life.

 

[Laserdude]

Yea I have it at times. It will get worse as life is that way for me. I won't go into details, but I am screwed by another person who is a sociopath. Easily proven fact that this person is a convict who thinks he can just victimize people and then get away with it.

I think not. Payback is a real bitch, any suggestions are welcome.

 

[BigDdaGanjalist]

I've been on Prozac and Paxil. . . but before that I just used a whole bunch of narcotics since I didn't know about the condition of depression.

You have to exhibit the symptoms for WEEKS at a time not just a few days. . . says doctor and through various readings I've done

If the 'feelings' don't go away in a week or 2 I'd say see a doc for some help. But because of the clomids I would just rethink the whole deal.

good luck and remember that depression is a way that the mind makes itself stronger

 

[WarriorPL]

yeahhh im almost always depressed when im not around my gf,

 

[theoak01]

every once in a while i get it ,take today for example,i was coming back from up north and jsut the fact i was coming back to teh city where everything is so fast and back to work,it kinda sucks but ill get over it


usually when i get down i keep busy till it passes

 

[Austin316]

Thanx guys, lots of good replies, I know Im not the only one it helped. Im feeling a little better today, and as long as I keep busy Im good, just gotta keep myself from thinking

 

[RobGuns]

Austin316, don't beat yourslef up too much. you have received a lot of good advice here. The mind is a powerful thing and with lots and lots of practice you can learn to control the way you feel nearly all the time. This subject is very close to me, although my major experience was anxuiety and panic attacks, but sometimes the depression really got to me.

Some things that have helped me.

Realise that this is a response to thought patterns that you have developed over your life time, and you CAN learn new ones. It takes time and commitment. You have to be aware of you thought patters and listen to the self talk we all have. The trick is to break the cycle that keeps you down.
One thing I did, and at times still do is wear a rubberband on my writs, near my watch, you cant notice it. Whenever I catch myself thinking negative thoughts or self talk that I know is distructive, I give myslef a flick of the rubber band, and it hurts, but for me it is a trigger to deliberatly make myself snap out of it. I tell myself I don't like that and replace my thoughts with sommething positive.

Get to know yourself again. Sometime in this hetic society we lose contact with ourself. Leave time for just you and do what you really want to do.

Set small acheivable goals in life keeping in mind the direction you want to take yourself.

Also remember you are not alone, we all have some sort of cross to carry and we can learn to deal with it.

Good luck.

ROB.