decisions

[daised]

choices. There are some choices we will make in our life that are insignificant. Decisions we make in a moment that never amount to much. But what about those huge situations every person is presented with. The decisions we spend hours thinking over before and after our choice is made. I will soon make some of those decisions. I graduate this sunday. I still don't know where i am going to college. ( yes i have applied and been accepted) I'm not sure if i will live at home, or move out. Also i am not sure where i am gong with my life. What do i want to accomplish with my 70 some odd years here on earth? Should i take the easy path, were my happiness and individuality might be curbed, or should i take on the battle and truely make it for myself? Most people would say take on the battle. But did they themselves take on the battle? What if i am just another casualty? A wounded solider who never heals from the scars the war left. Am i strong enough? when it comes down to the final stretch, i feel as if i will fall short. I lose sleep every night over past decisions i have made that now seem to haunt me. I wonder if taking on the fight will be another. I wonder if i truely knew what i was doing when i broke up with Puc. Am I happier without him? No. Was he hindering me in any way, shape, or form from achieving my potential? No, he supported me. When I look back I'm not sure if i really know why I broke up with him, although i had definete reasons at the time, were they worth destroying a year of love and friendship? Or did i just give up on us when it got difficult? Will I give up agian in my life when things get rough? I guess I am just confused, wandering around this earth letting everyone else make decisions and choices for me. But right now i just don't know what i want.

***sorry about the spelling errors***

 

[daised]

someone respond... please

 

[Puc]

do i count?

 

[daised]

do i count?

why woouldn't you? although i am afriad of what you will say, i probably need to hear it anyway, so yes please continue.

 

[naturally anabolic]

you made the right choice and you know it, you doubt yourself for other reasons.

 

[HighIntensity]

you made the right choice and you know it, you doubt yourself for other reasons.

How would you know Natty, maybe she did maybe she din't but I for one believe Puc has always been a good friend and mature BF to her. From what I have read on hear, he handled this with grace.

And this is something really between the two of them. Daised by the way at least you can reconize what Puc was 2 you, even if it was not meant to be...Something I wish my ex had given me in some way.

 

[big4life]

Do what you think will make you happy in the long run. If you don't know what you want to do, take the first year or so to take classes in different fields. You will find something that interests you. You don't want to spend the rest of your life wishing that you had done something different.

 

[Puc]

baby, you know i will always be there for you if you need me.

you know i understand your desire to move on. i, too, felt like something between us had been corrupted by all the travails.

whatever decision you make, wherever you decide to go, keep believing in yourself. believe in yourself more than god and the universe combined.

i believe in you.

 

[daised]

Do what you think will make you happy in the long run. If you don't know what you want to do, take the first year or so to take classes in different fields. You will find something that interests you. You don't want to spend the rest of your life wishing that you had done something different.

i want to go into molecular biology, i know this.

puc, you confuse and perplex me. i can't tell what you want. you seem to have grasped the fact we are no longer together and have moved on, which is good, but part of me wants you to be devistated without me. I don't know.

 

[Taps]

It's called growing up. We all go through the exact same thing at one point or another.

The bad news? The self-questioning never stops.

The good news? It gets easier to deal with as you get older.

The only adice I can offer is not to take things so seriously. Have fun and enjoy your life....there will be challanges, but most everything will fall into place if you let it.