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Citruscide -- who am I really?

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I feel inclined to come out and tell my fellow board members who I really am... well, you won't get my REAL name... but I will tell you who I am...

Breif History: Grew up in NW Indiana, was a track athlete (also Baskball, football), went to Indiana University as a High Jumper... trained for the 1995 nationals and attempted to compete for the Olympic tryouts by placing (unsuccessfully).

I attended DePaul University School of Law in Chicago from 1998-2001... passed the IL bar in July of 2001. and started working my first REAL job in February of 2002... where upon, I quit in June of 2002... shortly thereafter, the engagement to the only love of my life collapsed, horribly... I moved to California and have done part time to full time legal work for an SEC Arbitration specialist ever since....

But who AM I really? If you were to meet me in person... I'd probably not have a smile on my face... unless you talked to me... then I'd most likely be all grins... as I love to joke around and laugh.

I'm basically a laid back cat... easy going and very down to earth. I dislike people who are full of themselves (unlike my sometimes portrayal on the board) and am very disliking of those who are materialistic, inconsiderate, thoughtless, unintelligent and irrational.

I prefer to talk than to fight... I prefer to laugh than to frown.

In my LIFE... before EF, I have met 6 people who I feel that I could lay everything down for... people I would trust with everything I am and stand for.... THROUGH EF... I have met THREE people... who I would go to bat for... who I would fight for... I'd straight up die for these brothas....

In my LIFE... my friends Jason, Hani, Mike, Matt, Soup, and Shawn... have all had my back... and I would gladly die for any of them... without a second thought...

Through EF... Clint, Kronk and Rich... you guys have ment the world to me... you have gone beyond what it takes to be an accquaintence... I truly label you not as friends... but as brothers... I would give my arm... my leg... I would lay down in traffic for you... You truly exemplify what true friendship and brotherhood is... and for that, I thank you from the bottom of my heart....

I (Citruscide) has a big heart... a giving one... not to be mistaken with a naive or foolish heart... I give where I see it is deserving... at times, I may be hard on others... but I am always the hardest on myself...

Citruscide has, on the board, come across very bitterly toward women... It doesn't hit far from the mark... I have my ghosts... but I do believe that there are good women out there... I am evidenced this by talking with Kronkette, PhatChck, Raina and others who have sent me PM's... wishing me the best. While I cannot apologize for my viewpoints... I can say this... for all the unjust feelings that I have trounced, for all the negative comments directed to the wrong women....I do apologize...

My life is happy... i have my health, I have my friends.. I have a number of brothers whom I trust with my life... I have a loving family and a brilliant education... I have every opportunity to reach out and take full advantage of life... and for that, I can do nothing but thank God.....

You may be asking what sparked this... it is a compliation of things actually ... for one, I have the perception that many on EF have the wrong opinion of WHO I am... what things I stand for... and for reasons or actions... have drawn conclusions otherwise.... I hold no ill will toward ANY member of EF... not anymore... SECONDLY... reading the story of Jaqui... posted in the sticky, made me realize how precious life really is... it redirected my purpose... to actually LIVE my life... rather than not applying the great gifts I have been handed....

Thank you for your TIME Ef... you are a family away from home.

C-ditty
 
I don't really know what to say C. When I first met you on here, I thought you were a woman hating jerk. lol. We've had our share of debates on Elite over it. Through talking with you, I've discovered you are one hell of a guy. A total sweetheart. Discussing Jacqui and her situation with you showed me a new side to you that I hadn't seen before. You're a good guy, one of a dying breed. I'm glad we've become friends. :)
 
yea Ive made what I consider to be some pretty damn good frends through this sight, but above and beyond that, one person is more to me then that, lol she's the big sister I never had really but always wanted, haha check your avatar for that one C, although god it still kinda creeps me out seein it, she really does feel like my sister and it just feels wrong! lol
 
cditty forgot to mention his love of man ass is this epilog.
 
Austin316 said:
haha check your avatar for that one C, although god it still kinda creeps me out seein it, she really does feel like my sister and it just feels wrong! lol
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but ohhhh so right!

C,you most likelly have the respect of more people on this board than you realize.*High five*
 
Austin316 said:
yea Ive made what I consider to be some pretty damn good frends through this sight, but above and beyond that, one person is more to me then that, lol she's the big sister I never had really but always wanted, haha check your avatar for that one C, although god it still kinda creeps me out seein it, she really does feel like my sister and it just feels wrong! lol
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on a side note this is the weirdest thing I have ever read on the internet.
 
Citruscide said:
If you were to meet me in person... I'd probably not have a smile on my face...
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You would if I were wearing my crotchless wetsuit.

Then again, that might result in an expression of terror.
 
Citruscide said:
I feel inclined to come out and tell my fellow board members who I really am... well, you won't get my REAL name... but I will tell you who I am...

C-ditty
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So that name on your email isn't your real name?
 
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nordstrom said:


So that name on your email isn't your real name?
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heh... depends on which e-mail name we are talking about... one of my e-mails has my first and middle name... but not my last... the others are just "citruscide" -- it if was a yahoo account, it's probably my first and second name...

If I signed my name on the e-mail, that's my name. :)

C-ditty
 
Its so cool to see the real side of you show his face. You are a good man with a huge heart. Thanks Cditty, thanks.
 
Fuck!

I knew you didn't have the balls to be a true woman hater! (he he). Does this mean you're outta B.I.T.C.H.S.? Actually I don't ever think that you made a real nasty anti-woman post (least not that I read) , just helped other guys not to get fucked over like yourself.
 
That was cute.
Are you male or female? :)
 
cditty is a man among men....he truly is one of the sweetest, kindest, warm hearted gentleman on the face of the planet...i feel blessed to know him and consider him a friend as well.....

the thing with him was that he was royally, and i mean royally, fucked over by a bitch beyond all bitches...she wrecked him like a train.....this man has a heart of gold, he would give the shirt off his back if it was all he had left in the world.....

to the women that he has maybe offended in the past, think of this.....if a guy screwed you over, and i mean really really hurt you, killed your feelings and stomped on your heart....how would you feel? women are often just as harsh on men as men can be on women....

what we need to do is look beyond that and see the real person....i have seen cditty and all i can say, is that i have seen the essence of a true kind hearted loving man....some day, he is going to make some woman the happiest thing on earth...and he will treat her like a goddess.


(oh yea, he is cute, has a great smile and a great butt too!) tee hee
 
I've always gotten the impression that you are a bright, warm person but a little bitter towards women. What lead to the break up of your engagement or is that too personal of a question to ask?
 
WODIN said:
You had me at hello.....
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Well I'm not as Sappy as our Elder Stateman here I think your a pretty cool Dude. Dont know you, haven't really talked much to you, but I enjoy reading alot of the stuff you post. The Whole Scammer post on the Anabolic board was good and made me pay more attention to what you put up here on the chat board

Peace be to you
 
HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

You come on here asking for everyone's sympathy because you supposedly got screwed over by a woman. Well guess what? If that happened the way you claim it did, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

There is no reason what so ever for the way you have treated women in general and 2 women in particular. I will give those that are unaware, examples of your behavior.

1) A thread started on the women's board letting the women there know that TripleV was thinking of them and you had to show up on it with the little rolleyes smiley. Why was that? Could you not stand that people were posting that they were concerned about her? That we missed her? What was your reason for that?

2) On two separate threads where starfish's name was mentioned you showed up, Why? Did you think that you were going to intimidate her away from here? Nobody asked you where she was, so what was your reasoning?

For those that don't know, these are two women who he does not get along with and has gone out of his way to attack on this board and attempt to intimidate in other ways.

Come on why don't you tell the people for this sudden and miraculous change. Could it have anything to do with wanting to be a MOD.?

BTW. Before you start crying about my karma message that I sent for your post on one of the threads I mentioned, I will tell everyone what I said. I wrote.......THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HOW LOW YOU WILL SINK, IS THERE?


If ANY MOD doesn't like what I said, then kiss my ass, like he is kissing your's.
 
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big4life said:
You come on here asking for everyone's sympathy because you supposedly got screwed over by a woman. Well guess what? If that happened the way you claim it did, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

There is no reason what so ever for the way you have treated women in general and 2 women in particular. I will give those that are unaware, examples of your behavior.

1) A thread started on the women's board letting the women there know that TripleV was thinking of them and you had to show up on it with the little rolleyes smiley. Why was that? Could you not stand that people were posting that they were concerned about her? That we missed her? What was your reason for that?

2) On two separate threads where starfish's name was mentioned you showed up, Why? Did you think that you were going to intimidate her away from here? Nobody asked you where she was, so what was your reasoning?

For those that don't know, these are two women who he does not get along with and has gone out of his way to attack on this board and attempt to intimidate in other ways.

Come on why don't you tell the people for this sudden and miraculous change. Could it have anything to do with wanting to be a MOD.?

BTW. Before you start crying about my karma message that I sent for your post on one of the threads I mentioned, I will tell everyone what I said. I wrote.......THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HOW LOW YOU WILL SINK, IS THERE?


If ANY MOD doesn't like what I said, then kiss my ass, like he is kissing your's.
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standing by a friend. lol.
 
Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

big4life said:
You come on here asking for everyone's sympathy because you supposedly got screwed over by a woman. Well guess what? If that happened the way you claim it did, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

There is no reason what so ever for the way you have treated women in general and 2 women in particular. I will give those that are unaware, examples of your behavior.

1) A thread started on the women's board letting the women there know that TripleV was thinking of them and you had to show up on it with the little rolleyes smiley. Why was that? Could you not stand that people were posting that they were concerned about her? That we missed her? What was your reason for that?

2) On two separate threads where starfish's name was mentioned you showed up, Why? Did you think that you were going to intimidate her away from here? Nobody asked you where she was, so what was your reasoning?

For those that don't know, these are two women who he does not get along with and has gone out of his way to attack on this board and attempt to intimidate in other ways.

Come on why don't you tell the people for this sudden and miraculous change. Could it have anything to do with wanting to be a MOD.?

BTW. Before you start crying about my karma message that I sent for your post on one of the threads I mentioned, I will tell everyone what I said. I wrote.......THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HOW LOW YOU WILL SINK, IS THERE?


If ANY MOD doesn't like what I said, then kiss my ass, like he is kissing your's.
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I think you missed the entire point of the thread Biggie. My point was to let the people of the board KNOW me... instead of only knowing the part of me that vents or posts... the training board would be a more accurate depiction of myself....

The point, is to realize that life is more precious than to sit around, complaining about little things in your life... after reading the Jaqui story, it really moved me...

Karma? Brother... it don't mean a thing. I forgive you. :)

As for posting on threads... I didn't know I wasn't allowed to post on certain threads??? As far as VVV is concerned, we have a history... (no not a romantic one) -- but that isn't between her and I.

Listen... take a look outside your window... open it... smell the air... touch your face, take a breath... realize that all these things can be taken away at any time without your control... and that you should live life to it's fullest....

C-ditty
 
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big4life said:
You're right, you can post on any thread, but don't make it out to be anything less than it is. A classless attempt to harass and intimidate these women.
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I invite them back with open arms. I hold no ill will toward them other than an unwillingness to trust them on a personal level.

C-ditty
 
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Citruscide said:
take a look outside your window... open it... smell the air... touch your face, take a breath... realize that all these things can be taken away at any time without your control... and that you should live life to it's fullest....
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Nice words :)
 
Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

big4life said:
You come on here asking for everyone's sympathy because you supposedly got screwed over by a woman. Well guess what? If that happened the way you claim it did, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

Why the hate big, what is your deal. We all have internet personas and such and here Cditty is showing his real life self, not his fake internet self. I don't think he is looking for any sympathy. He doesn't need it. Although he has and sometimes is controversial, he is also a very respected member of Elite.

There is no reason what so ever for the way you have treated women in general and 2 women in particular. I will give those that are unaware, examples of your behavior.

How is it that you know he has no reason? What concern is it of your other than the fact that you are defending your own friend.

1) A thread started on the women's board letting the women there know that TripleV was thinking of them and you had to show up on it with the little rolleyes smiley. Why was that? Could you not stand that people were posting that they were concerned about her? That we missed her? What was your reason for that?

All I can say about this comment is that you know very little of the history there, and you are out of line for the comment. Point in fact there were others that mode comments. There was a lot of controversy around that member, (I for one talked with her on the phone many times and Lil K and I considered her a friend) so you may want to watch where you are pointing your fingers as you don't really know anything about it. Citrus has let things drop out of respect, and yet here you coming bringing them up.

2) On two separate threads where starfish's name was mentioned you showed up, Why? Did you think that you were going to intimidate her away from here? Nobody asked you where she was, so what was your reasoning?

This is just crazy talk. Yo use your same reasoning, you could say that same thing about you. Why is it that every time Citrus has a post up you come running in to say things? Are you trying to intimidate him? What is your reasoning? This is just crazy talk, this is a chat board.

For those that don't know, these are two women who he does not get along with and has gone out of his way to attack on this board and attempt to intimidate in other ways.

Again, you are out of line. I am not saying that he didn't do or say anything in jest, however, has the thought occurred to you that there may be facts that you are missing? Regardless, it isn't my place to judge either, that is why I do not judge or post about those subjects, at all. (well until you posted this anyways)

Come on why don't you tell the people for this sudden and miraculous change. Could it have anything to do with wanting to be a MOD.?

LOL, what do you care. As a matter of fact I can tell you that he is being considered to be a mod. We have some new changes coming to the board for Plat members, and Citrus as well as about 6 others are being looked at. Why do you care anyway? This has not been a secret, George himself posted about it recently.

If ANY MOD doesn't like what I said, then kiss my ass, like he is kissing yours.
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Hmmm, well I didn't like your post. But I also do think you should be allowed to state your opinions. This is what this chat board is about. Your problem here is that you came off with ZERO class, and you showed that you are biased in everyway possible. Really, if you don't like it here Big, why are you here? You seem to hang out simply to post talk Citrus and post negativity. Why don't you just let it go, release the hate, show some class and act like an adult. Drop the internet BS and be a man.

Peace my man, and try and let your hate go. Its just sad to see someone filled with so much anger, over PRETEND. Because that's what the internet and chat boards are, PRETEND. Peace and god bless.

Again, while I understand that you are posting this hate due to your own personal intrest, please try and be objective. Dont take hostage a great post by an educated man with class, becuase you dont agree. Put him on ignore and walk away. Peace
 
All I'm going to say is that if you push someone long enough, pretty soon they are going to push back.


As for all the BS flying around the board about me and other female members. I know the TRUTH so nothing else matters to me. I know who I am. Have fun with the gossip.

LMAO...... Make Citruscide a MOD... The guy has no life without being king of a chat board.


Kronk, don't ever make judgement calls about me or what may or may not effect MY LIFE when you have NEVER taken the time to talk to me. That says a lot about you- not me.


Citruscide, paint whatever picture of me that you want. I don't need to run around a chat board DALIY looking like a fool to prove something.

........ besides I know it drives you crazy that I know the man you REALLY are. My last words to you are LEAVE ME ALONE IN EVERY WAY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!


LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 
starfish said:
All I'm going to say is that if you push someone long enough, pretty soon they are going to push back.


As for all the BS flying around the board about me and other female members. I know the TRUTH so nothing else matters to me. I know who I am. Have fun with the gossip.

LMAO...... Make Citruscide a MOD... The guy has no life without being king of a chat board.


Kronk, don't ever make judgement calls about me or what may or may not effect MY LIFE when you have NEVER taken the time to talk to me. That says a lot about you- not me.


Citruscide, paint whatever picture of me that you want. I don't need to run around a chat board DALIY looking like a fool to prove something.

........ besides I know it drives you crazy that I know the man you REALLY are. My last words to you are LEAVE ME ALONE IN EVERY WAY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!


LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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:rolleyes:
 
starfish said:
All I'm going to say is that if you push someone long enough, pretty soon they are going to push back.


As for all the BS flying around the board about me and other female members. I know the TRUTH so nothing else matters to me. I know who I am. Have fun with the gossip.

LMAO...... Make Citruscide a MOD... The guy has no life without being king of a chat board.


Kronk, don't ever make judgement calls about me or what may or may not effect MY LIFE when you have NEVER taken the time to talk to me. That says a lot about you- not me.


Citruscide, paint whatever picture of me that you want. I don't need to run around a chat board DALIY looking like a fool to prove something.

........ besides I know it drives you crazy that I know the man you REALLY are. My last words to you are LEAVE ME ALONE IN EVERY WAY FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!


LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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"You are about to enter another dimension... a place and time where all things that used to seem sane and normal... are really... just a dream???? You are entering ... the Twlight Zone..."

God Bless you Starfish...

I would just like to tell you that this is the first direct contact I've had with you since you LAST told me to leave you alone...

I would like you to know that i DO have a life outside of EF... I train 4 days a week, I am currently working in the feild of SEC law here in California... I like to go down to the beach, walk on the sand, and listen to the waves crash against the peir... I like the sunset and I like to drive with the wind blowing through my hair...

By all Counts starfish... I should hate you... but I do not... I have nothing but good vibrations in my heart for you. You took my words, twisted them and used them to hurt not only myself but those around me I call friends. I do not have to live with this, you do... and in your life, I wish you the best... life is short... live it... and live it to it's best Starfish.... Live it to it's best....

C-ditty
 
starfish said:
Kronk, don't ever make judgement calls about me or what may or may not effect MY LIFE when you have NEVER taken the time to talk to me. That says a lot about you- not me.

I didn't make any judgment sweetheart. If you read what I said, I said that Big4life shouldn't be saying anything, as I have not. Its too biased to say anything. I am in no way, accusing you of anything and its silly that you would think so. I really have no idea why you would even say that to me. I have never had any issues with you at all, with the exception of something you said on this board about another mod. But we all let that slide.

Also, for the record, saying that YOU know the TRUTH is a little strange. I am not sure what you are speaking of, but it is a little conspiracy theory for me. What is it that you are saying you know? I really would like to know as well, tell everyone so that we can all know.

You are a valued member of this board Starfish, and a supporting member to boot. Let the anger go.
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TheProject said:


This Thread is Nathan.

Nathan being a euphemism for gay.
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Not sure how to take that my man... what I have posted in this thread is sincere ... I mean every word of it in my post...

I sincerely regret that there was negativeity brought to this thread by other members... but I don't hate them for it....

C-ditty
 
Citruscide said:


Not sure how to take that my man... what I have posted in this thread is sincere ... I mean every word of it in my post...

I sincerely regret that there was negativeity brought to this thread by other members... but I don't hate them for it....

C-ditty
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That was a brief encapsulation of how I felt about this entire thread. It was simply made worse by the posts towards the end.

The whole concept of telling other board members who you "really" are seems silly to me. You're trying to clear up this idea of who you are, and encourage more positivity on the boards, when for a long period of time, you were one of the most negative and hateful people on here.

The fact of the matter is, every single word up there could be made up, and this could be persona #3 for Citruscide.

In any case, I don't give two shits one way or the other; present what you want to present.

But when it turns into a debate of

"He's a nice guy!"

"No he's not!"

"You're out of order!"

"This whole damned court's out of order!"

That's just plain gay. Gay as the day is long.

Those that have met you in person can make an assessment of you, and present that assessment on here, but that doesn't mean all those that disagree should suddenly change their mind just because someone who met you IRL says so.
 
C...I think that's really cool of you to come on here and post this. I know that we've only talked a few times, but you do seem like a really cool guy. Props to you for sharing this with everyone here. I don't care if it is to suck up to the mods (hehe...j/k)...you made it evident that it was sincere.
 
TheProject said:


That was a brief encapsulation of how I felt about this entire thread. It was simply made worse by the posts towards the end.

The whole concept of telling other board members who you "really" are seems silly to me. You're trying to clear up this idea of who you are, and encourage more positivity on the boards, when for a long period of time, you were one of the most negative and hateful people on here.

The fact of the matter is, every single word up there could be made up, and this could be persona #3 for Citruscide.

In any case, I don't give two shits one way or the other; present what you want to present.

Those that have met you in person can make an assessment of you, and present that assessment on here, but that doesn't mean all those that disagree should suddenly change their mind just because someone who met you IRL says so.
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It was not my intention to present or not present one thing or another... I've gotten NUMEROUS PM's asking if I was REALLY the person I am on the board... if I am REALLY that full of hate... many members requested to know who I really was, and many of them are female....

I don't expect anyone to like me more or hate me less because what I have posted here... I expect no sympathy, no special treatment for expressing myself... it was simply that... an expression of myself... my thoughts and recent events that sparked and inspired it.

People posted on this thread in their own free will... some who like, and some who do not... and some who could care a less... in any event... it was not the purpose of the thread... I would have been just as happy if no one had posted on it... so that it would have merely been an expression of my thoughts and realizations..

C-ditty
 
TheProject said:
Those that have met you in person can make an assessment of you, and present that assessment on here, but that doesn't mean all those that disagree should suddenly change their mind just because someone who met you IRL says so.
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I think that this statement here is a fair one. Just becuase people meet someone IRL and then say that person is a cool person here, doesnt mean that people who disagree should have to change their minds.

I would also say that I dont think that this thread was designed to make people that disagree with C, change their minds. I truly feel Citrus was showing who he really is. Lots of us hide behind our personas online, and I think this was genuine.

However, we are all entitled to our own opinions, and I for one think this was genuine. I also would like to point out to others that I am good friends with you as well. It can be very difficult to be in between this type of stuff, but I stay true to myself and to my friends. Peace
 
kronk said:


I would also say that I dont think that this thread was designed to make people that disagree with C, change their minds. I truly feel Citrus was showing who he really is. Lots of us hide behind our personas online, and I think this was genuine.

However, we are all entitled to our own opinions,
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I think you said it better than I did... or at least it sounds better... :)

I didn't expect to make people who don't like me, like me... I wasn't trying to bolster myself in the "eyes of EF" -- I have my friends here, I have people that I get along with... and the number of them are just fine for me...

People are entitled to their opinion of WHY I posted this... and people can say what they want... postive, neutral or negative... it matters not... because I only posted to say what I felt....

C-ditty
 
Citruscide said:
I sincerely regret that there was negativeity brought to this thread by other members... but I don't hate them for it....
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Thats nice, cuz after all you've never done anything like that before.
 
Bullit said:


Thats nice, cuz after all you've never done anything like that before.
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Heh heh... I usually started my own hate threads... but I can't deny bringing hate TO threads... The Miseducation of Citruscide....

C-ditty
 
TheProject said:

The whole concept of telling other board members who you "really" are seems silly to me.....
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Wow, Pooject actually has balls.
Whoda thunk?
 
Bullit said:


Wow, Pooject actually has balls.
Whoda thunk?
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I'd say Project actually has an opinion... as I dont think it took balls to post what he did....

C-ditty
 
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I'd say Project actually has an opinion... as I dont think it took balls to post what he did....

C-ditty
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I agree on both counts. However good ol' Poo usually gives any controversy a wide berth, so that was a ballsy post for the lil' :angel:
 
kronk said:


I think that this statement here is a fair one. Just becuase people meet someone IRL and then say that person is a cool person here, doesnt mean that people who disagree should have to change their minds.

I would also say that I dont think that this thread was designed to make people that disagree with C, change their minds. I truly feel Citrus was showing who he really is. Lots of us hide behind our personas online, and I think this was genuine.

However, we are all entitled to our own opinions, and I for one think this was genuine. I also would like to point out to others that I am good friends with you as well. It can be very difficult to be in between this type of stuff, but I stay true to myself and to my friends. Peace
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kronk, you know you're my bud. You're not in between anything. I'm just expressing my opinion.

To be clear, I'm not saying that this is or isn't "the real" Citruscide. I don't know, and am not going to try and figure that out. The only Citruscide I know of is the one that posts here. Where he came from, what he does, all that...is irrelevant to me.

C-Ditty, you say you had several pm's from people, wanting to know the "real" you, and Lord knows you've never had any problem expressing yourself.

It just seems to me that by posting this, you want people to believe it, you want people to take it seriously, and given the persona you've created, that's a lot to ask.

For the record, I didn't like C-Ditty Persona #2 and his holy crusade to spread hatred to the world, and I don't have an opinion on #3 to this point.
 
TheProject said:


Yep. Big shiny brass ones.

But no, it didn't take balls to post that.
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Stones?

A big back?

;)

B True
 
TheProject said:

To be clear, I'm not saying that this is or isn't "the real" Citruscide. I don't know, and am not going to try and figure that out. The only Citruscide I know of is the one that posts here. Where he came from, what he does, all that...is irrelevant to me.

C-Ditty, you say you had several pm's from people, wanting to know the "real" you, and Lord knows you've never had any problem expressing yourself.

It just seems to me that by posting this, you want people to believe it, you want people to take it seriously, and given the persona you've created, that's a lot to ask.

For the record, I didn't like C-Ditty Persona #2 and his holy crusade to spread hatred to the world, and I don't have an opinion on #3 to this point.
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I feel like a skizo with that description... :)

In a way, Project, what you are describing as Persona #2 WAS me... and in effect is a part of me... it came after a bad time in my life... I took it out here... recent events in my personal life, and in the reading of the Jaqui story have made me realize that life is too freekin short to pontificate over the bad in the world.... there is too much good out there too enjoy....

That is what I wanted to say... what i said and it's relation to me was merely an expression....

There is no persona 1, Persona 2 or persona 3... They are all the same one... from around the beginning of July 2002 until VERY recently, I have hated... I have hated different people in my life who have adversely affected it... I have wished ILL will upon those who not only harmed me, but disagreed with me to some point...

The realization I had came with a personal discussion I had with a family member who is close to my heart.... and the reading of the Jaqui story almost 3 days later... It truly touched me...

As for the PM's... I had the wall up... many time women of EF would PM me and I'd say things like "Hey... that's just me!" or "There isn't anything you can say to change me...." -- because I honestly thought that HATE was the answer... that it was the revenge....

So... you see... there is no PERSONA.... it is all the same person mi amigo... If you give me a chance... you can get to know me too...

C-ditty
 
I could tell that you were a good guy in real life C-ditty... No explanation needed, I saw it come out of you even more with the Jaqui situation.
 
So let me get this straight:

You're saying to ignore the abrasive, coarse, prejudiced, pompous, insulting, self-righteous, indignant guy that we all know you are and embrace you for the "real you" - a kind, caring, sensitive, kisses and hugs type of guy that you now claim to be after reading a sad story?

You're saying that this "sincere" letter should just explain away this "alter ego" that you've spent the last several years fabricating and building upon? You're pulling the old "I'm a great guy once you get to know me" routine?

Ok, got it.
 
bigguns7 said:
So let me get this straight:

You're saying to ignore the abrasive, coarse, prejudiced, pompous, insulting, self-righteous, indignant guy that we all know you are and embrace you for the "real you" - a kind, caring, sensitive, kisses and hugs type of guy that you now claim to be after reading a sad story?

You're saying that this "sincere" letter should just explain away this "alter ego" that you've spent the last several years fabricating and building upon? You're pulling the old "I'm a great guy once you get to know me" routine?

Ok, got it.
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Nope. I'm not asking you or anyone on EF to do anything. I'm not trying to explain anything, nor do I expect anyone who does not know me, or have talked to me to understand.

I never claimed to be a kind, kisses and hugs kind of guy?

Where are you getting this from? I think you are reading your own context into what I'm saying Broly....

C-ditty
 
Citruscide said:


I feel like a skizo with that description... :)

In a way, Project, what you are describing as Persona #2 WAS me... and in effect is a part of me... it came after a bad time in my life... I took it out here... recent events in my personal life, and in the reading of the Jaqui story have made me realize that life is too freekin short to pontificate over the bad in the world.... there is too much good out there too enjoy....

That is what I wanted to say... what i said and it's relation to me was merely an expression....

There is no persona 1, Persona 2 or persona 3... They are all the same one... from around the beginning of July 2002 until VERY recently, I have hated... I have hated different people in my life who have adversely affected it... I have wished ILL will upon those who not only harmed me, but disagreed with me to some point...

The realization I had came with a personal discussion I had with a family member who is close to my heart.... and the reading of the Jaqui story almost 3 days later... It truly touched me...

As for the PM's... I had the wall up... many time women of EF would PM me and I'd say things like "Hey... that's just me!" or "There isn't anything you can say to change me...." -- because I honestly thought that HATE was the answer... that it was the revenge....

So... you see... there is no PERSONA.... it is all the same person mi amigo... If you give me a chance... you can get to know me too...

C-ditty
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I've been sitting here trying to figure out a way to say this eloquently, and there's no way to do it, so I'll just tell you what I told kronk:

You've been a royal cock to a lot of people on this site for months, and to say that the Jaqui thread transformed you...that's a stretch.

Anyway, I don't spend any time sitting here trying to decipher what any member is like IRL, nor can I say I hate anyone on this site.

I just call 'em like I see 'em.
 
TheProject said:


You've been a royal cock to a lot of people on this site for months, and to say that the Jaqui thread transformed you...that's a stretch.
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I can't agree with you more my man. I haven't been the nicest person on this site... I probably won't be the nicest person on this site in the future...

The Jaqui thread didn't transform me... but I will tell you what has helped me understand things better...

For one, I have absolute and final closure with my EX... finally... I feel as though the entire event is behind me... Just recently (probably around a week ago) did this come to be....

Secondly, I will not get into the details of this aspect ... but I had a talk with my Mother... and let's just say, it made me more aware of the mortality that we face here... and that perhaps... being a "royal cock" to people isn't the best way to go about life....

Thirdly, the Jaqui story I read the other night was a slap in my face... I complain about people all the time, I take for granted EVERYTHING in my life... if anything, it made me realize how precious my life is, and how GREATFUL I should be for every freeking day I walk on this planet....

I know I have presented things in an out of line manner here on the boards... and I probably have come across in a pretty harsh manner to quite a few members.... Spatts being one of the incidents I regret... I think the whole 38DDG thing could have been avoided... or at least kept to a less "you suck and are fat" level... I could sit here an apologize for a couple days about the things I've said and done... but I don't think it will do any good... words are just words in my opinion... I'm going to live my life the way I should from now on... I'm going to appreciate my ability to do the things I can... because I never know when it can all go...

C-ditty
 
Citruscide said:



Where are you getting this from? I think you are reading your own context into what I'm saying Broly....

C-ditty
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I'll give you that. You didn't say it, I guess I was responding to kronk and kronkette's comments. All that shit about you having such a big heart.

It's cool man, you should feel great that you've proclaimed to all of cyberspace that you have a new lease on life. The denizens of the internet can now behold you in all your enlightened glory. Bravo.
 
bigguns7 said:
.....It's cool man, you should feel great that you've proclaimed to all of cyberspace that you have a new lease on life. The denizens of the internet can now behold you in all your enlightened glory. Bravo.
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Uh....I smell some serious sarcasm here.......just me? or....:confused:
 
bigguns7 said:


No need to hate because a comment I made went over your head, and another made you feel stupid.
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Hate? Me? Nonsense.

I'm sure every midget in munchkinland jerks off to your giant pipes on a nightly basis.....and I mean that there hoss. You da man!!
 
TheProject said:

I just call 'em like I see 'em.
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LMAO.

He calls it ONCE and all of a sudden he figures he's mr.outspoken.
 
Bullit said:


LMAO.

He calls it ONCE and all of a sudden he figures he's mr.outspoken.
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Look, jackhole, have I ever beaten around the bush when I've talked to you?

Exactly.

You're a tard, and I've told you so many times.

I simply choose when to speak, and when not to. I'm not outspoken, nor am I a kiss-ass. When I want to speak my mind, I speak my mind.

Christ, next time I'll draw you a picture with some crayons and a Big Chief tablet so you'll get it.
 
TheProject said:


Look, jackhole, have I ever beaten around the bush when I've talked to you?.... blah blah blah
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OMFG!!!

I figured it out!!!

Every face turn needs a heel turn....

POOJECT IS GOIN' HEEL!!!!!!!!!
 
No comments on Poojects heel turn?
 
Bullit said:
No comments on Poojects heel turn?
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I'd compare a Project heel turn to the Sting heel turn. It just won't take. You can even throw in a face paint/makeup comparison if you want.

By the way.....Best Thread Ever!!!
 
This deserves to be a thread all in itself!

supersizeme said:
Hi, I'm looking for the thread with the drugs and cheap whores in it. I'm afraid I've made some sort of mistake. Excuse me.
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Citruscide said:


I can't agree with you more my man. I haven't been the nicest person on this site... I probably won't be the nicest person on this site in the future...

The Jaqui thread didn't transform me... but I will tell you what has helped me understand things better...

For one, I have absolute and final closure with my EX... finally... I feel as though the entire event is behind me... Just recently (probably around a week ago) did this come to be....

Secondly, I will not get into the details of this aspect ... but I had a talk with my Mother... and let's just say, it made me more aware of the mortality that we face here... and that perhaps... being a "royal cock" to people isn't the best way to go about life....

Thirdly, the Jaqui story I read the other night was a slap in my face... I complain about people all the time, I take for granted EVERYTHING in my life... if anything, it made me realize how precious my life is, and how GREATFUL I should be for every freeking day I walk on this planet....

I know I have presented things in an out of line manner here on the boards... and I probably have come across in a pretty harsh manner to quite a few members.... Spatts being one of the incidents I regret... I think the whole 38DDG thing could have been avoided... or at least kept to a less "you suck and are fat" level... I could sit here an apologize for a couple days about the things I've said and done... but I don't think it will do any good... words are just words in my opinion... I'm going to live my life the way I should from now on... I'm going to appreciate my ability to do the things I can... because I never know when it can all go...

C-ditty
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Could you please stop tryin to aplogize for havin a pair of balls in the past (apparently not any more , huh?). You wrote on how you FELT HONESTLY at a certain time.No one can ask any more of you than that. And quit all this wind in my hair shit , this is a fitness board not a fucking pink spandex wearin ass invader board:busy: . Take a shot of test for God'S sake man. Multiple slaps to the face are called for here.:mrmuscle:
 
Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

big4life said:
You come on here asking for everyone's sympathy because you supposedly got screwed over by a woman. Well guess what? If that happened the way you claim it did, GET OVER IT!!!!!!!

There is no reason what so ever for the way you have treated women in general and 2 women in particular. I will give those that are unaware, examples of your behavior.

1) A thread started on the women's board letting the women there know that TripleV was thinking of them and you had to show up on it with the little rolleyes smiley. Why was that? Could you not stand that people were posting that they were concerned about her? That we missed her? What was your reason for that?

2) On two separate threads where starfish's name was mentioned you showed up, Why? Did you think that you were going to intimidate her away from here? Nobody asked you where she was, so what was your reasoning?

For those that don't know, these are two women who he does not get along with and has gone out of his way to attack on this board and attempt to intimidate in other ways.

Come on why don't you tell the people for this sudden and miraculous change. Could it have anything to do with wanting to be a MOD.?

BTW. Before you start crying about my karma message that I sent for your post on one of the threads I mentioned, I will tell everyone what I said. I wrote.......THERE IS NO LIMIT TO HOW LOW YOU WILL SINK, IS THERE?


If ANY MOD doesn't like what I said, then kiss my ass, like he is kissing your's.
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what are you, trying to be a knight in shining armor or something? so he bitched out a couple of women, big deal.

he's bitched out a lot of guys on here, who's getting on his case for that?

jc
 
HG Pennypacker said:


I'd compare a Project heel turn to the Sting heel turn. It just won't take. You can even throw in a face paint/makeup comparison if you want.

By the way.....Best Thread Ever!!!
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Yeah, you're right, everyone loves me.
 
Re: Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

joncrane said:


what are you, trying to be a knight in shining armor or something? so he bitched out a couple of women, big deal.

he's bitched out a lot of guys on here, who's getting on his case for that?

jc
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I think it's more the fact that he has, on multiple occasions now, annouced a change in personality. Why would anyone change personalities for the internet. If you're using a fake persona, stick with it. If you're being yourself, be yourself. No need to make announcements about it.

In previous lives on Elite, I wasn't quite as confrontational and opinionated as I am now. This is more my true personality, so I don't concern myself, any longer, with worrying about who I may insult. But that doesn't mean that i'm rude or nasty to anyone. just more honest. I didn't make an announcement about it, though.
 
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HG Pennypacker said:


I think it's more the fact that he has, on multiple occasions now, annouced a change in personality. Why would anyone change personalities for the internet. If you're using a fake persona, stick with it. If you're being yourself, be yourself. No need to make announcements about it.

In previous lives on Elite, I wasn't quite as confrontational and opinionated as I am now. This is more my true personality, so I don't concern myself, any longer, with worrying about who I may insult. But that doesn't mean that i'm rude or nasty to anyone. just more honest. I didn't make an announcement about it, though.
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oh yeah? fuck you.

I like this confrontational thing. Now I'm going to go confront my boss since I didn't get a raise this year.
 
Re: Re: Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

HG Pennypacker said:


In previous lives on Elite, I wasn't quite as confrontational and opinionated as I am now. This is more my true personality, so I don't concern myself, any longer, with worrying about who I may insult. But that doesn't mean that i'm rude or nasty to anyone. just more honest. I didn't make an announcement about it, though.
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Think again, numbnuts! You just did.
 
Re: Re: Re: HOW DARE YOU!!!!!!!!

HG Pennypacker said:
If you're using a fake persona, stick with it. If you're being yourself, be yourself. No need to make announcements about it.
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Exactly....

This thread as well as this board is beginning to resemble a Used Car lot....everyone tryin to get you to buy the BS their selling.
 
bigguns7 said:
So let me get this straight:

You're saying to ignore the abrasive, coarse, prejudiced, pompous, insulting, self-righteous, indignant guy that we all know you are
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Look everyone, its me Finaject2001. I have no life so I get banned several times a day and just keep comming back.
 
Thanks for all the positive imput guys... The people I know on this board, the people I respect and those who respect me... You know what i was trying to say here...

Hasta

C-ditty
 
this thread should be called "I'm citrucide, now pay attention to me!"

funny thing is, it worked.

ultimately all any one of us wants, from satanic goatslayer to high intensity to cutrucide to me, is for people to pay attention to us.

some people are better at it than others, and some have a higher need for it than others. necessity is the mother of invention.

i would rank HI and citrus as very high on both the need and ability list.

not an insult, just an observation. once you recognize it for what it is you realize not to get all controversial about it.

when you reply or react to threads like this you are simply feeding egos. feeding another's ego and/or getting your ego fed are not necessarily bad things. begging for ego fodder while simultaneously claiming that you really only post on the ana or training forums is a time honored tactic. denying what you are doing while at the same time doing it is an art that several people on here have perfected. basically the people who complain about it are the people who aren't as good at it so they feel that some of the ego fodder (which is a scarce resource) that could've gone their way is going to the attention whores.

the thing is the really good attention whores create their own controversy and interest. then some people try to jump on the bandwagon or hijack the threads.

in the end you cannot upset the status quo...the biggest egos get fed while the rest either accept it or complain.

jc
 
joncrane said:
this thread should be called "I'm citrucide, now pay attention to me!"

funny thing is, it worked.

ultimately all any one of us wants, from satanic goatslayer to high intensity to cutrucide to me, is for people to pay attention to us.

some people are better at it than others, and some have a higher need for it than others. necessity is the mother of invention.

i would rank HI and citrus as very high on both the need and ability list.

not an insult, just an observation. once you recognize it for what it is you realize not to get all controversial about it.

when you reply or react to threads like this you are simply feeding egos. feeding another's ego and/or getting your ego fed are not necessarily bad things. begging for ego fodder while simultaneously claiming that you really only post on the ana or training forums is a time honored tactic. denying what you are doing while at the same time doing it is an art that several people on here have perfected. basically the people who complain about it are the people who aren't as good at it so they feel that some of the ego fodder (which is a scarce resource) that could've gone their way is going to the attention whores.

the thing is the really good attention whores create their own controversy and interest. then some people try to jump on the bandwagon or hijack the threads.

in the end you cannot upset the status quo...the biggest egos get fed while the rest either accept it or complain.

jc
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I'm pissed you didn't mention my name in that post. Dick.
 
Citruscide said:
Thanks for all the positive imput guys... The people I know on this board, the people I respect and those who respect me... You know what i was trying to say here...

Hasta

C-ditty
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I know that was a general statement. However allow me to reply as it pertains to me. I will freely admit I don't KNOW you. I know the character...not the actor. And as far as respect goes...I have never disrespected you...though the same cannot be said of you towards me. That's fine...it's on you.

"The ability to make that which does not matter truly slide."

BTW...don't worry about being misunderstood, genius often is...time will tell if that is the case here.
 
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