Being comfortable with yourself first

[Bobber]

Since I moved up here in September and lost myself(physique and mentallity) I have not been open to meet many people...anybody for that matter. Even if we are out(which is VERY rare) and girls hit on me I refuse to go down that road because I know that I am not what I used to be. No one else knows that and everyone from my past tells me that I am much nicer now and look way better since I am not juiced up. But, what that translates to me is that they are pitying me. How do people expect someone to be comfortable with a stranger when you are not comfortable in your own skin? Anyone ever feel this way?

 

[wootoom]

i crapped my pants yesterday

 

[Raptorex]

just wake up in the morning, get back the eye of the tiger and never look back...i've done it at least once, worked out twice a day for four year (pfftt..overtraining...lol)

 

[Sassy69]

Since I moved up here in September and lost myself(physique and mentallity) I have not been open to meet many people...anybody for that matter. Even if we are out(which is VERY rare) and girls hit on me I refuse to go down that road because I know that I am not what I used to be. No one else knows that and everyone from my past tells me that I am much nicer now and look way better since I am not juiced up. But, what that translates to me is that they are pitying me. How do people expect someone to be comfortable with a stranger when you are not comfortable in your own skin? Anyone ever feel this way?

Maybe what you thought was so great, they didn't think was so great. If they are your friends, you should sit down & ask them what they think & why they think that.

One of the aspects of "hormone therapy" is enhanced feeling of well-being. But for all practical purposes, it is artifcially induced and maybe that is you lookig to feel better about yourself w/ 'help' but not dealign w/ who you are w/o the drugs?

If they say you are a lot nicer, doesnt' that tell you something about how you are now vs. then? Sure the better body always gives you a better sense of confidence, etc. but if it compromises your ability to be "nice" to people, that can be a bigger turn off than how you look.

Just digging around for some points of relevance to measure yourself by.

 

[harmonica]

Damn good Sassy

 

[seizer]

Sassy, you are VERY wise. I think you'd make a good bedtime-story maker.

 

[Bobber]

Maybe what you thought was so great, they didn't think was so great. If they are your friends, you should sit down & ask them what they think & why they think that.

One of the aspects of "hormone therapy" is enhanced feeling of well-being. But for all practical purposes, it is artifcially induced and maybe that is you lookig to feel better about yourself w/ 'help' but not dealign w/ who you are w/o the drugs?

If they say you are a lot nicer, doesnt' that tell you something about how you are now vs. then? Sure the better body always gives you a better sense of confidence, etc. but if it compromises your ability to be "nice" to people, that can be a bigger turn off than how you look.

Just digging around for some points of relevance to measure yourself by.

I agree with what you say and with what they say about me being nicer. But then you have to keep in mind that I stopped cycling cold turkey...no pct or anything after a good 4 years. I have been off for 7 months and I am willing to bet the reason I am so "nice" is because my test levels are still extremely suppressed.

And as far as my size goes...a good analogy would be gothic looking people or people with tattoos all over. I may think they don't look good that way but they feel more comfortable with themselves when they are out and about because that is who they are.

I just want peeople to get of my back about being outgoing until I am at ease with me.

 

[Chambewy20]

Since I moved up here in September and lost myself(physique and mentallity) I have not been open to meet many people...anybody for that matter. Even if we are out(which is VERY rare) and girls hit on me I refuse to go down that road because I know that I am not what I used to be. No one else knows that and everyone from my past tells me that I am much nicer now and look way better since I am not juiced up. But, what that translates to me is that they are pitying me. How do people expect someone to be comfortable with a stranger when you are not comfortable in your own skin? Anyone ever feel this way?

I've read this like 10 times trying to figure it out... first off what happened in September, did you lose your safety blanket, get out of your element, something like that?

Saying not what you used to be, maybe while you were on your were stronger, bloated, more cocky, a jerk or arrogant simply because you thought you were harder or meaner than anyone else?

Seems like you've been off for a little bit, having problems becoming comfortable in your own skin and feeling like your going right back to being the nobody that you were and always hated.

That's the problem with those drugs, no one wants to go back where they started cuz they picture themselves as being a nobody, nobody noticed them or payed any attention. They also seem to give you a sense of invulnerability, you can't feel the pain and aches that you normally would.

Do what you have to do but take some comfort in those that appreciated you cuz they will be there for you when the drugs aren't.

I am not trying to criticize anyone, I just know from personal experience when you finally get away, the hardest part IS being comfortable in your own skin.

 

[Sassy69]

To be honest, if you look at all the goth people, they say they want to be individuals and express their individuality, but they still somehow seem to be all the same - its like they've created and succumbed to the goth cliche'. Its not a bad thing to want to explore your likes, dislikes & images of yourself, but it always seems like its more of an response to comments from other people or how you feel people around you see you than an original idea. Or even to fit into something where there are other people like you.

To compare, I *LOVE* when I can find a girl in the gym who loves to lift as much as I do or even getting into the sexual innuendo geek speak on IM w/ someone. However I dont' worry about whether or not people comment to me about it. God knows my mom will be happy when I stop weight lifting. She always says that sort of thing about me. But that's fine & I know who I am and I'm fine w/ it.

I guess you can't get mad at what other people say about you particularly if they aren't part of the cliquie that is what you saw yourself as.

 

[seizer]

To be honest, if you look at all the goth people, they say they want to be individuals and express their individuality, but they still somehow seem to be all the same - its like they've created and succumbed to the goth cliche'. Its not a bad thing to want to explore your likes, dislikes & images of yourself, but it always seems like its more of an response to comments from other people or how you feel people around you see you than an original idea. Or even to fit into something where there are other people like you.

To compare, I *LOVE* when I can find a girl in the gym who loves to lift as much as I do or even getting into the sexual innuendo geek speak on IM w/ someone. However I dont' worry about whether or not people comment to me about it. God knows my mom will be happy when I stop weight lifting. She always says that sort of thing about me. But that's fine & I know who I am and I'm fine w/ it.

I guess you can't get mad at what other people say about you particularly if they aren't part of the cliquie that is what you saw yourself as.

The funny thing about goths is that they never admit to being goth lol. They say, "oh no, I'm not a true goth." I'm like, listen, I dont care if you say you're not true goth. In the eyes of everyone else, you are. It's like a black person saying he's dutch when he knows that know one else would classify him like that. However, I doubt I would classify him to begin with...lol, I'd just seem him as another part of the ying yang.

 

[Sassy69]

This actually does bring up a good question for those guys who cycle & come off and how they handle the changes because you are talking about altering your hormonal balance. Everyone loves to have an amazing sense of well-being and the muscle kick - if I compare it to me when I finally get down to competition weight - it friggen kills me that I'm not dating someone when I've got that body --- when you know you look great, and not just great, but the epitome of what the rest of the world wishes they could look like, you don't just go out, you STRUT!

So the chemicals are a big part of that transformation (not that you could'nt get the body w/o them, but sense of well-being is definitely something that is specific to the drugs), are you still just as happy w/ yourself off cycle as on cycle?

 

[Bobber]

are you still just as happy w/ yourself off cycle as on cycle?

As long as you stay in the gym...yes.

 

[gjohnson5]

just wake up in the morning, get back the eye of the tiger and never look back...i've done it at least once, worked out twice a day for four year (pfftt..overtraining...lol)

Listen to this guy talk about eye of the tiger..

LOL

 

[biteme]

Maybe what you thought was so great, they didn't think was so great. If they are your friends, you should sit down & ask them what they think & why they think that.

One of the aspects of "hormone therapy" is enhanced feeling of well-being. But for all practical purposes, it is artifcially induced and maybe that is you lookig to feel better about yourself w/ 'help' but not dealign w/ who you are w/o the drugs?

If they say you are a lot nicer, doesnt' that tell you something about how you are now vs. then? Sure the better body always gives you a better sense of confidence, etc. but if it compromises your ability to be "nice" to people, that can be a bigger turn off than how you look.

Just digging around for some points of relevance to measure yourself by.

I like knowing that if I so desire, I can crush people. J/K. I think it's more important what you feel about yourself as opposed to what others think. People all have different opinions. I'll stick with my own.