back to normal

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i finally saw a good doctor today who is hookin me up with some good meds to help tremendously with my awful neck and back pain

i swear,.,,, the guy much have punched me in the neck a few times during.... u know,.... and the pain has justbeen awful
i can barely turn my head and i cant bend over much

im also hoping to see a chiropracter soon to help as well
i will sue the dickhead's parents for compensation for that once he is convicted (if.........)

his parents, especially his mom, is really sweet. always been so nice to me and dread lord. i wouldnt want to sue them for anything else, although we could.. but i would just be happy if they could compensate the costs of the injuries their son caused me/

got some better anxiety meds
diagnosed with post traumaatic stress disorder and im going to try to ween myself off effexor so i can start taking the paxil he gave me

effexor never did much for me anyway, even at high dosages, so paxil seems to fit more of my symptoms now and i really hope to get better results out of it

dont get me wrong, i know there is no super pill to cure all that ails, but at this point in time this is what i need and about all i can do to cope with the ongoing bullshit

it wouldnt be so bad if it was over, but shit, the guy hasnt even been arrested or anything. he is still free and clear while we are getting grilled.... so not fair.

he will get whats coming though/
he bteter, if he doesnt, well, then god really really must dislike me

o well!

 

[WODIN]

I really hope things get better DL.

 

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well, Mr. Pope, so far so good
i am a happy little duckling at the moment (happy meds.., mmmmmmm )

just chilling and trying to enjoy what i have
i dont have any real life friends, or family, haha
but you guys are cool, ya mean alot to me, even if thats weird to say I DONT CARE

elite (chat) is part of my life now
u guys know more about me than most anyone! except dread lord

i am very appreciative of the support ive gotten, even though i havent replied all the emails ive gotten, i apologize, ive just been kinda busy with other stuff

but this place can always make me smile, give me a place to rant my ass off if i need to (which i did, and still do!) and the good people that have been here for such a long time that still hang around, man.. ya'll are the best

it took forever for me to integrate myself into this damn site,
i cant workout like you guys and girls, but that doesnt mean i dont care about my health and well being

i just like the diversity and open minded attitudes of the people i communicate with here. thats what makes it so great

 

[big4life]

I also hope things get better.

Remember that whatever happens or doesn't happen to him is no reflection on you. He committed a violent act against you. You didn't do anything to cause this.

 

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true, none of it is our fault, and i REALLY know that..
but it sucks when the police and our families all treat us as the criminals
damn
i mean, my family basically thinks im a drug addict whore, and that dread lord is a mafia man drug addict too
what the fuck man
thats just not normal
its just funny because we are none of the above,,

 

[polarpixie]

You sound like you are feeling a little better! GOOD.

I know people can treat you like crap sometimes when they just don't understand or don't even want to attempt to understand the full situation....hopefully they will see the light of day one day. At least here you have people who understand and want to support you as much as you need it.

 

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weeeeeee
finally going to get therapy too

god im a nut case now
i depress every doctor i see

 

[MommaKin]

I love you, Doll
Also, there is always room here for another fellow nutcase.

 

[smallmovesal]

sounds good dl...

out of curiosity, and i know our situations are vastly different, but i've been extremely tired... were you the same?

i need to start counselling when i get back to school. they told me i could quit, but i said no f'in way.